#still macho man's lawyer tho

[bazooka-overkill]

aran has gotten physically angry at mario kart before

do what you want with this headcanon

[gabrielwarshawsky-blog]

╯jon bernthal, he/him.╭  ─ get off the street, it’s ( gabriel warshawsky ) ! i heard they’re a ( forty ) year old ( assassin ) in the saints. don’t let that smile fool you, i heard they’re most known to be ( fanatical ); sometimes they can be ( disciplined ) but i hardly doubt it. they seem like they’d be the ( archangel ). 

hey demons it’s ya boy elliott with another old man! elliott’s old men-- now with more age! anyway this is gabriel warshawsky! he’s got tinnitus & PTSD so you guys are in for a wild ride with this big boy!                       lets back track a bit though, shall we?

first off gabe here comes from a fairly normal household, his father was a lawyer with a big sense of justice and his mother was a homemaker with a massive focus on her family. he has two younger brothers and an older sister, all of them he mostly gets along with, still to this day. however life wasn’t without it’s hiccups. his parents had always been super religious ( jewish ) for one; integrating it into him from a young age. to the point where when gabriel joined up with the military for awhile ( like he joined up pretty young like asap ) he earned the nickname ‘cohen’ ( it’s the jewish word for priest ) he was always reading scripture in his free time and it just kinda stuck. from there gabe sorta developed some bad PTSD from the things he saw and did ( worked in a tanker and boy! did he see some shit ) it’s also what caused his tinnitus ( loud noises without ear protection one 2 many times woops ) and that’s when things started to go downhill, or up hill depending on how one wants to look where it’ll eventually bring us. gabriel got into odd jobs after that, not wanting to depend on his family because his time in the military left him with a macho though guy persona-- fun!

those odd jobs left him to work as a body guard, eventually things get a bit hazy here though for him, something set him off one night and somebody ends up dead, ya dig?! he goes to a mental institution for a hot minute, well more than that but you get the jist.

eventually they let him out, on account of some changes with the system, staff and him seeming low-key much better ( plot twist: he’s not but he is on medicine now for his PTSD so there’s that ) so he’s back at square one but worse off ( sorta ), his family wanted him to come live with them but he doesn’t, assures them he’ll be fine-- he isn’t and that leads him down the rabbit hole that is assassin work through an old military buddy who’s APPARENTLY doing that now, wow the more u know. at first he doesn’t want to, mostly because ya know the whole religion dealio and his guilt over killing someone innocent, he justifies it by saying he’ll only kill bad people; much like he justified his time in the military-- he ‘only’ killed bad people.

at some point he’s sorta forgotten his reasoning for starting assassin work in the first place and now he just is stuck in a rut where he can’t stop??? it’s around this time that he hooked up with the saints, he’s only been with them for like three years but it’s chill. he kinda keeps to himself ( beyond a handful of people ) but he’s known as being nice for the most part when he actually gets to talking to folks.

gabe is bicurious despite his v religious background, he’s keeping it on the dl because he’s lowkey ashamed and scared who woulda thought gabe actually scared of something. wow.

his apartment is super bare, he hardly has anything in it beyond what he needs, what does he do with his money you ask-- saves it. he wants to retire and live a quiet life eventually maybe of a farm??? he hasn’t really thought much about it save for knowing he doesn’t want this life forever. he hasn’t thought much on the fact you don’t usually leave gangs alive either. BUT YEAH, gabe is v frugal.

he was engaged once before he went to prison, the girl left him for her ex and it took everything in him not to kill the guy.

gabe is actually v sweet??? like he’s got this macho guy persona ofc but overall he’s a big softie, like tough guy with a heart of actual gold. he’s not soft enough to like cry and shit tho most of the time, so don’t expect him to be that soft. he is quiet though so don’t expect him to be the one to talk a lot. 

he struggles with religion but it’s also been his only real comfort in life. he doesn’t always follow it like he should and uses it as more of a scapegoat than anything else.

he loves the 212 and they’ve helped get his head on straight surprisingly, he’s been better than he’s been in years.

he doesn’t like being an assassin but it’s a job and it doesn’t bother him nearly as much as he wishes it did. 

his PTSD isn’t as bad as it used to be, he takes sertraline ( medication ) for it now and while in the mental institution was in therapy.

gabe wears sunglasses a lot, even at night because he’s a total dork.

gabe has tinnitus, meaning he hears a constant ringing sound in his ears, he drowns it out with music ( usually from ipods he’s kinda stolen from people ) because of the tinnitus when he does jobs he usually has music playing in his ears thanks to headphones, he’s also pretty good at reading lips so many times even if he’s looking like he’s not paying attention he is.he totally picks out specific songs/ipods for the jobs he does to help his dissociate.

honestly he’s just trying to find anything to make him feel like himself again??? aka the good ol’ boy who wanted to be a decent person, fight for his country and pray lots; like his family had believed him to be. but he doesn’t even know if he can be that person again, so really he just wants to feel happy again like outside his actual family because that’s too much pressure to disappoint.