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do you have any favorite songs on any of your f/o playlists’s ? and if you’d like- what do they mean/represent to you!

ohh fun fun, thank u for this question!! i luv talking about my music hehe

one of my favorite songs ever ever ever is my baby's taking me home by sparks, and i heavily associate it with edgeworth and the comfort he provides me. it's a fairly simplistic song in lyrics, with it consisting only of the lyric "my baby's taking me home" until a bridge towards the very end of the song that re-contextualizes the repetition that follows. a relationship between two people who struggle to understand the world, struggle to find coherent meaning in places it is said to be, but see and understand the world in the same unique way, and thanks to that, find comfort in each other. "a rainbow forms, but we're both colorblind, but we can hear what others can't hear, we can hear the sound of a chorus singing, home, my baby's taking me home." it really resonates with me especially due to well.. being an autistic person who is fighting to understand the world, and edgeworth being in the same boat. rarely have i felt the same emotional connection and understanding that i constantly feel with him, and that's absolutely priceless to me. whenever i'm feeling really emotional about the way he supports me i always end up listening to this song.. i also feel incredibly lucky because i was able to hear this song live earlier this year!! it was very special to be able to hear such a personal song performed right in front of me!

another song i really like is hurt me by charly bliss which i associate with milo and edgeworth reflecting on and then overcoming the messier parts of their relationship. one of their biggest hurdles was definitely getting to the point where edgeworth felt comfortable enough to finally open up to milo about things like his trauma and insecurities, which he has an incredibly hard time voicing. it was one of the things that led to their breakup during the time of their first romantic involvement. edgeworth very much did not want to admit to anyone else that there could be anything wrong with him, but he knew (not in a way he could put into words, but more subconsciously) that being in a prolonged relationship necessitated that somewhere along the line. this led to him becoming even more emotionally distant until he decided to officially end things with milo until their reconnection later. this song, to me, represents growing and understanding and healing from all of that and trying to get to a point where edgeworth can actually talk about the stuff that negatively affects him. "you don't wanna hurt me" takes on a different meaning from both perspectives. for milo, it's an understanding that edgeworth closing himself off is a defense, not an attack. for edgeworth, it's the act of coming to understand that milo would never look down on him or use his 'weakness' against him. one of my favorite parts of the song is "i can feel the earth quake, you don't wanna hurt me, baby." if you're unfamiliar, earthquakes are one of the specific things that triggers edgeworth's ptsd. thus, i feel that lyric denotes a sort of breaking point. edgeworth being in a dire emotional state and finally being vulnerable and subsequently opening the door to love, comfort, and reassurance.

and a non-edgeworth favorite would be heart swells/pacific daylight time by los campesinos! this one finds its place on my shane playlist and it will never ever be leaving there, it's one of the songs that i have the strongest f/o mental associations with and whenever i listen to it i am immediately compelled to think about my relationship with shane .. shane helped me through an incredibly traumatic period of my life and this song i almost over-listened to while thinking about him and formulating little mental animatics. now that i actually know how to make animatics i'd love to sit down and make one someday!

sum honorable mentions i don't have as much to say about are strange overtones by david byrne, i'll come running by brian eno, matrimony II by tennis, and i know how to speak by manchester orchestra!