#that apo picture is a physical representation of me when i get messages from my kp anon

[kinnsporsche]

guess who?? it’s kp anon!! damn this forest episode was such a different vibe than the stuff we’ve seen before. I felt like I was watching different characters (did they film this early or something?) but I’m not complaining it was still amazing 1/7

they finally talked and kinn could be himself and show his soft goofy side!! they were so cute, p teaching him to fish and playing around in the water and stuff. and they’re just so in love?? like girl when p lied down on kinn and he looked at him smiling and nuzzled his hair??? I died a little. and the way p purposefully lost the game to sacrifice himself AAAH I thought that would be the most angsty thing I will get in this ep (HA) p finally got to see the real kinn and he’s immediately ready to give up a hand, very relatable. kinn is madly in love but what else is knew? this little shit really let himself be handcuffed to p for several days just to enjoy his company. that was so gay (affectionate) <3 AND THE ENDING!! SO MUCH WAS HAPPENING!! HE LET HIM GO HE FUCKING LET HIM GO but i knew p would turn around and kiss him, i cant with these two!! and the way p wrapped his arms around him bc he didn’t want to let go!! and kinn was holding his shirt like?? I’m honestly losing my mind they love each other so much i can’t do this anymore. and k was so heartbroken but he did it bc he loves him AAHH i just want them to be happy. BUT THEN P CAME BACK TO SAVE HIM AND KINN LITERALLY TOOK A BULLET FOR HIM LIKE?? THIS SHOW IS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED THE YEARNING THE ANGST THE PURE LOVE THEY HAVE FOR EACH OTHER? THEY WOULD LITERALLY DIE FOR EACH OTHER I JUST HAVE TO SCREAM I’M SORRY. this is already the best bl I’ve ever watched and I know it will ruin me when it ends. I seriously can’t do this weekly thing I need to consume this whole thing at once. Sorry my messages are not that profound like your metas but I can’t remember the last time I was this hooked on a show!!!

me every day this week: i should answer my beloved kp anon but they deserve a proper response ill do it tomorrow when im not tired

also me every day this week: never gets any less tired. lets go chronic pain gang

yes yes yes the way they were so soft and tactile with each other the whole episode, the way they were allowed to just be themselves around each other!! the fishing scene was so incredible, kinn getting all giddy and happy when he was taught, the way you really get to understand that he never really had a childhood - never really got to do anything himself, things were always bought or rigged for him but this, porsche teaching him how to do something instead of doing it for him, kinn proving to himself that he can be good at things was so special to him

i could go on and on and on about how kinn played rock every time they did rock paper scissors and, porsche isn't stupid, i know that man picked up on it, i know he could have won on purpose but he didn't!! the way he was literally willing to sacrifice a whole ass HAND for him really speaks volumes for how much he cares about him

god god god, the knowledge that, as soon as porsche told him he found a knife, kinn could have uncuffed them, but he didnt because he wanted to be stuck with porsche like this. the way you can see the guilt weighing on him when they fall in the little cavern thing and porsche gets frustrated, the way kinn holds his arm so tenderly to stop his wrist from getting marked up anymore, his sad little voice when he says 'this helps us get to know each other better', thats just laced with so much guilt because he thinks this is his fault. that its just another way he's hurting porsche. and then porsche goes and volunteers to lose a hand for him and kinn is done. he knows he cant keep him shackled to him, literally or metaphorically, anymore and so he just... he lets him go. he looks at porsche and says this is how i love, i love enough to let you go.

god the hug kiss combo was so good. it was so imperfect but thats what made it so perfect because it was full of desperation and longing and panic, it was just the two of them wanting to be close and to hold on for as long as possible because they both know that this is it. this is the last thing they'll get of each other. so they hold each other so tight and clutch and kiss and grip like they never want to let go. and then porsche coming back for him!!!! because even if he was never going to see kinn again, to live in a world where he's dead, to live in a world where theres no more kinn isn't a reality he's prepared to face. so he runs back and saves him because he never had another option.

also i hope u saw the special clip they released kp anon beloved!!!! the softness of them in it fucking fuck!!!!

watching kinnporsche isnt enough anymore i need to unhinge my jaw and swallow it whole