#thats! whats in the future rn. other than me going into a dark hole and making clay creatures for a while

[b4kuch1n]

auuauaaauuuuuhh I got blasted with brain shit at the tail end of july and swept away into some writing stuff for like two weeks Im so sorry to art fight attackers. I WILL be revenging all of the attacks I got tho! even tho it's not exactly that anymore bc I am doing it. outside of. the event. STILL

[epikulupu]

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ok inhales

sometimes i get blasted with the worldbuilding beam and i just. make shit up out of nowhere . dunno why! just happens . heres some of the stuff i've made so far, newest to oldest ;

uotesh prophets ; prophets that only speak in whispers , wear clothing that is entirely hand-stitched and hand - embroidered , and have an entirely logographic(?) writing system

ferroboids ; boids made of ferrofluid that can combine into a liquidy humanoid form . i spent an unreasonable amount of time figuring out what volume each boid had to be so i could have 255 boids that total the volume of an average human .

orwell hedgen ; transmasc kenochoric dark academia bassist who is often posessed by a demon - orwell provides the bass skill and the demon performs on stage (something orwell is too nervous to do) . more of an oc than worldbuilding but i say it counts

[ unnamed ] ; a creature i saw in a dream - it has two main stages, larva and adult . larva is this palm-sized thing with a lot of legs , adults are made of rock , kinda . i won't go into detail here because it might be triggering but they're parasitic and pretty fucked up :0

[ unnamed ] ; these things just exist in headspace - they're large black floating humanoids that roams the halls of a backrooms-eqsue place - but their main feature is that they have a hole in their chest where you can see their heart. thats just how their anatomy works i guess ! theyre harmless just scary-looking

skt ; snake people! theyre 7-8ft tall, have four arms, and intricate patterns on their scales. their written language is pretty cuneiform-esque , and they have little robots that kinda look like the things in big hero 6. their main feature, though, is that their language sounds more like beatboxing than an actual language !

ah'tush ; thats not how you would technically type their name but i dont know enough about ipa and english spelling conventions to change it. anyway! theyre a religion focused around the passage of time and the past/present/future trichotomy (if thats a word) , and thats reflected in the way they pray and a lot of other parts of their religions culture.

etell ; a cloud person! they look mostly human, but have hair and clothing made of condensed clouds that changes with their mood - i've seen concept art very similar to this before but i cant remember where , but this is not fully 'my idea' . i dont know the word to describe their vision , but they can only see amounts of light, not colors - similar to some animals i think . they mainly navigate through minute air and temperature currents

thats all i have on hand rn ! please ask me about these if ud like! id love to explain some more about them :]

[haeroniel-doliet]

y’all quick rant time about the new years. a lot less sad than my other ones

right. im just ticked bc im having a weird feeling and its not making sense. i dont think 2018 is real. like just as a gut feeling or whatever, 2015-17 have been pretty real to me idk why but they have, feel like a real year, i still like the sound of 2017 a lot better than 2016 for some reason etc and i always do struggle with adjusting to a new year i guess? bc of habit writing down dates. but i feel like 2017 came naturally and it was expected. but 2018? nahhhhhhh. thats not real. not a good number, not a good sound does not exist and is not gonna be a real year. for some reason im apprehensive bout 2019 bc thats a lil whoo in the retro futurism but im ready for 2020. fuck knows why. 2020 is gonna be the next real year.

 unfortunate too considering last two new years have been p shitty. *then again most years have not been great* (yea i maybe have problems with setting up expectations from media and talk that my own family doesnt follow through with nor are inventive or fun, so i get ‘depression spikes’ around holidays and birthdays. idk. i gotta look into that) anyway. sometimes new years is like stadning in the snow taking a sip from their sparkling wine looking at neighbours fireworks. or just sparklers. never our own fireworks unless w a big group of their friends. or wed melt tin but not do it again for years bc oops inconvenient apparently. here the first year we went to hyde park in the dark w the family and i wasbeing a grumpy pissed off baby for some reason i cannot recall (but i usually am around family i guess.)  and the other year i just sat at home watching the fireworks on tv and listening to them through the window while my parents went out. ive spent many a new year just on my computer. not that they suck but its kinda sad 

right but yea ive been dreaming of being with friends and having a set up party to celebrate new years with people i choose to spend time with and make it special who want to also make it special like we expect it. basically i wanna be the pinterest mom who makes everything extra and pretty rather than (sorry) my mom for whom a few balloons and streamers are a lot of party decoration. tbh thats another rant. my moms a p good human, like what she does in her work and doesnt upset anyone i guess and has friends. but shes quite a bad chef and baker and fun person. m never going to miss my moms cooking or baking, bc i do all the baking and while ive been gone i feel like i cook better for myself. not even missing her taking care of me bc i think i can handle it pretty well on my own, despite a few phone calls for support.  as well as she likes to nag about things making me shut down and be pissed (why do they trigger this response in me so quickly? its not fair to them, but they do and i guess thats a thing i gotta work on iin theeraaapyy or whatever i end up doing) 

fuck im really looking forward to seeing the mental health advisor and getting to a therapist councellor psychologist anyone asap. i just wanna get settled w someone good and  actually sort these out. bc recently everything feels like a dream and ive not changed out of pjs or been out of bed for days. i dont feel like i can leave the house w out my parents (unlike at uni i could go on walks or shit by myself and not meet anyone who questions it) and bleh meh i feel like my dads mad at me for holing myself up and being grumpy all christmas and in general when being interacted iwth, as well as not wanting to do anything i should do like go shopping or get my hair cut while im here. im just being miserable really and i want it to stop and know how to explain to them why i think theyre part of the problem when obviously to an outsider or to themselves, theyve never done anything to cause me to be like this.even i cant explain it. its just too many little things i guess. 

fuck where was i going. i mean yeah right, this was about new years. 

so originally again parents are going to a party and i was going to be alone home bc i know nobody in london. not even my old school friends live here/are around rn. so lo and behold im dragged along to my parents and their friends house touring meals all in one day, and im ofc with their friends daughter and her friend, who are genuinely llovely and way cooler than me, and even though theyre older im the first in uni, whoopwhoop. and her dad is funny and they have a dog. and they invited me to join their new years party. hahhahh holy fuck yay. theyre all very genuine about it, saying id fill in the table as the 6th person and balance the girls and boys, and that bc id be there theyd celebrate finnish new years as well as their danish and the current uk one. and apprently were for dinner and to play cards against humanity and did i mention they have a super cuddly and wonderful white dog?  anyway. apparently i now have plans for new years and i hope itll be wonderful. ofc i gotta be polite and get over being awkwarad at the same time and figure out how to get home politely so i dont have to spend the night there bc i dont like staying over unprepared and i really dont know them super well. anyway. tomorrow im gonna shower bc im disgusting, and bake finnish pancake bc i have now promised, and go over to spend maybe 6 hours w them and have a genuinely nice new years eve and im really looking forward to it

im just not looking forward to 2018 cancel it, skip it, idk i just dont want that number. im gonna call it neo 2017 sure. redo 2017 and then next year 2019