#the futility of life will always trigger my existential dread tho

[le-amazing-az]

i have just now, as i write Sapnap angst, realized something

we all know Sapnap has the Death Book. we all know about the deal with XD. kill Dream, lose all three of his lives

now let's say that had happened. it would have been for nothing. it would have been for nothing. do you get it?

Sapnap would have sacrificed himself, all three of his untouched lives, to kill his brother so his fiancees that don't even talk to each other anymore, his friend who is never awake, all the people he hates and loves and is neutral about, everyone would be safe. No limbo, no ghost, no nothing. But Punz has the Revive Book, and Dream would have been back five minutes later

that sacrifice is now worthless. it means nothing, it changes nothing aside from the fact that there's no Sapnap anymore

it just— it strikes a horrible fear that a sacrifice so big would mean nothing. because when all your life has been a series of friendships and relationships and– and projects, visions that don't even matter anymore, and it ends with such a big sacrifice and it changes nothing then... what have you done with your life? why did it ever matter?

if nothing changes then all the pain and heartache really was worthless. and there's nothing worse than worthless suffering

[imaginary-mochi]

Hello , just found your blog & omg your writing is so good ! 🤩 I also noticed the ask box is open , so may i request hcs of Law and Zoro finally confessing their love to their crush (after so much time of repressing feelings) ? i love my grumpy boys 😋

Zoro and Law confessing to their crush!

(After a LONG time of repressed feelings)

Owww, thank you so much for your kind words, support and of course writting material, comeback anytime soon (ㅅ´ ˘ `)~

Also this is some sort of hybrid between HC+Scenario so, I hope you don't mind... ;;

Ps: I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PUT UNDER THE CUT ON MOBILE, I'M SORRY. ;; And I've already tried to answer this ask but apparently it wasn't posted? Well, enjoy!

Zoro

Ok first of all, If Zoro confesses; it's NOT because of the overwhelming pressure he feels when he's in love, or the pressure his friends put on him to "make a move".

Zoro will confess to his crush even if it's just attraction, not necessarily "once in a life time" sort of love.

Like he knows he gets flustered and dorky around his crush, but he would rather laydown the facts as soon as possible so he would let them know, he's someone to consider. (Instead of just fooling around)

Honestly Zoro's life is embebed with so much instability that even tho it's the way he likes it, he's most likely to never accomplish it.

So, I think his confession (and if he has been holding it for a while) would come out of pure frustration, just stacked and bursted out of nowhere.

Either in a high risk/danger situation orrrrrr in a normal night.

First one is the classic cliché (but very understandable): His crush is in danger/injuried/threathen/kidnapped. He santorYEET those bad guys and goes on and on about how he feels powerless of thinking of them getting injured, that he cares for them and that, obviously, he's got feelings for them.

And the second (which I think would fit Zoro more, considering he's focused on the battlefield): On a peaceful dinner night at the Sunny. (Like why would they eat somewhere else they got the best cook ever?)

Everything would be charmingly cozy, warm and friendly; chatting and sharing food with everyone and his crush spending their time on their side.

From time to time, people would mischievously whisper or remark how adorable they look together... and those persons would get in return blushes and grunts from both of them.

Everything was perfect. Until, crush accidentaly cuts his finger with a knife.

Crush is holding his finger with a napkin, while Chopper is running to the other room to get that first aid kit. As soon as Zoro notices, something inside of him snaps.

"You cut yourself with that tiny knife? How... What? How are you ALWAYS so reckless doing things, like you don't have a care in the world!" His tone is tinted with anger and everyone is not sure why he's raising his voice so much.

"Excuse me, mister 'I sweat sharp things for a living', I can make mistakes too you know? also it's not a big deal, why are you yelling?"

"I am not yelling!" (He is) "You can't not always make mistakes. What do you think it's going to happen if it's something serious?"

"But it's not something serious..."

"I said what IF! What If nobody is around to help you, save you, aid you? What IF, someday you... You are gone? What would... What would... I..."

At this point everyone is silent (except Luffy he still eating lol) and they watch Zoro grab their crush by the hand and storm out of the kitchen.

After that it's just a mid-apology for what he said, but ends with him assuring them he meant it. For real.

Yeah, it's not a straight up "I love You, Date me" it's an unspoken thing between the two, his crush definitely understood that sign.

I'm not saying he's never gonna say it, after that silent commitment all that cute shit is happening.

So yeah, basically he didn't planned shit.

Law

LMAO Law wouldn't plan shit either.

First of all: If someone became Trafalgar Law crush to the point he has to accept his feelings... Who are you and what kind of witchcraft you pulled out with that one??

Types of crush for Trafalgar Law:

A)The type who can put him on a good mood when they are around.

B) The type that make him change things like his sleep, eat and work habits. (And that is like a whole other level)

This man is socially and emotionally awkward and at some point inept? He can be a sadistic prick but also he loves and treasures the people in his life dearly, he would die for someone he loves without second thoughts.

He can enjoy the benefits of having a type A crush, with the flirting, maybe casual dating/sex.

But if they have someone who is the other type of crush, he feels it like a deep punishment.

Once they get the power to influence his life he's DONE, he knows that means he feels love for real (and we know, he wouldn't let anyone just cross the border of his heart like that).

Honestly with the type A everything would be more easy-going and carefree, so much that if needed, he would easily part ways with them if they are in danger and comeback later. Second one is filled with his existential dread and his self-hate, he's convinced they are going to be harmed no matter what and the only way to avoid it is keeping them out of his life.

Once Law realized they got that type B crush, things become fragile all of the sudden.

He would scold, nag, get frustated or pissed more often and for longer periods of time. This mf is plain cold smh, only his crush take him out of this state but he returns to this vicious cicle quickly and usually it's triggered once again, by his crush.

He wants to end this feeling of insecurity, of fear. After some consideration he would ask them to join him in his room and as soon they are alone, straight up tell them to end this "thing" between the two. To leave him alone. (A futile struggle against his desires to make them stay away from him and the danger in his life)

He's convinced it's for the best and it's so overwhelming for him just realizing all the sudden he does not truly want them away, so much, to the point he can't lock eyes with them because if they cry, he could not forgive himself for being the one hurting them all along.

When their crush ask about elaborating on that "thing", he replies with: "This thing. This unspoked thing. The flirtling, the small gifts we give eachother, all the nagging I get for being reckless or my sense of humor, the tea you've brought me in the middle of the night when I can't sleep, how you feel warmth when you touch me, your laugh drilling my head, my soul."

Shit (as always) goes sideways. If their crush reciprocates those feelings garanteed they are staying by his side and they will work hard, together, to ease his burden. (Yes they took this whole scene as his confession lmao)

Law's mind is split: One is filled with joy and acceptance and the other is all that messed up fears. A relationship with Law can be rocky and harsh sometimes, but the love in it is true. Whatever the outcome is, you bet your life Law's gonna fiercely protect their partner to death and beyond.