#the peace and solitude of living in NH is truly being missed rn | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

atlafan · 11 months

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I’ve seen my dad almost every day since I’ve moved back closer to home and I have to see him tomorrow for Father’s Day, and I don’t think any of my other siblings are coming to visit because my oldest sister is probably working/just wouldn’t come in general, my brother is probably doing his own thing with his own unit, and I didn’t even ask my other sister what she’s doing because she just had her baby WHO I STILL HAVENT BEEN INVITED OVER TO MEET so basically I’m back where I was seven years ago being the only one forced to spend copious amounts of time with my father ALONE because I’m not in a relationship where I can use distance/doing things with my partners father for Father’s Day. And my dad always jokes about being father of the year, even though none of us have ever said he is or was, he just self proclaims it. And he’s so fucking conceited like he truly cannot understand why literally every single one of us moved out and got away from him the second we could. So basically, just as I knew, being back closer to this man is detrimental for my mental well being. I will be blowing my brains out tomorrow BYEEEEE

#parental obligations are the worst #my dad is the worst #I had to explain to him the other day about how yes my mother would rather be in a financial pickle than live with him #because at least she doesn’t have to get screamed at or answer to anyone anymore #and he had the nerve to say mum used to yell at him a lot too but just when we weren’t home #so I said good that’s how it should be #I told him that the four of us grew up listening to him yelling at my mom constantly #we heard every fight #and my dad would never walk away #he’d go down to the basement then come back up a minute later to say something else that he hadn’t before #I get my short fuse from my dad and I’d yell at Nick from time to time but it wasn’t verbal abuse #my dad verbally abused all of us and manipulated us and turned my mom into the bad guy #not that my mom is perfect because she’s not and she’s done and said some really unforgivable things #but my dad is psychotic and I’ve reached my max capacity for visits #the peace and solitude of living in NH is truly being missed rn

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