#theres a pretty short timescale on these events i wont lie!

[stbrutus]

full (extremely over rendered) reference of my jedi oc Aza !!! admittedly i don't have a lot of lore about him that makes sense without context, but here's a rundown of what i've written so far:

Aza is Kehlu's first and only fully trained padawan (she's shown in this post, i've also been working on a reference sheet for her).

after her death, he reluctantly takes on her second padawan, Caracalla, as an apprentice--Caracalla is already halfway through his training, and Aza is convinced by the council that it will be a comparably low-effort responsibility that he should feel obligated to take up.

however! behind closed doors he resents Caracalla, and blames him for Kehlu's death. he was very close with her, and viewed as mother (they were extremely attached to each other since day she collected him for the order, it was not a loss he could properly jedi his way through).

as a result, his and Caracalla's relationship as master and apprentice is completely nonviable from the beginning, and their relationship is so fractured that they never develop any sort of force bond. when Caracalla disappears under murky circumstances only two or three years into their training, it reflects terribly on Aza. not only does their now visibly awful dynamic kind of make it look like a murder, the council is actually shocked that he can't sense if his apprentice is dead or not (really bad look all around tbh).

although he is never excommunicated (or fired or... let go???) outright, he goes into self-imposed exile, promising to return when he found Caracalla (neither him or the council are sure of the possibility, but he'd rather wander forever than live with the shame).

over time, he becomes less "embarrassed" by the terms on which he left the order and starts to feel genuine guilt; and his fervent meditation over caracalla's belongings opens up what may or may not be a posthumous bond with his former apprentice. :p