#theres a rb coming Sorry i know i am literally jsut posting this for me

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so my relationship to the getting back together of my chemical romance is that. i was excited out of my mind halloween 2019 but it didnt feel real at all, it hardly felt real when i originally bought newark tickets (early 2020?) and then over the next two years as shows were postponed and we were kind of just being sold a lot of stuff. i was like yeah ok they’re not Back back this is like, a cher farewell tour. and while mcr never stopped meaning the whole world to me, it had long since stopped being something that occupied significant brain space except for when the hyperfixation would occasionally reawaken and id watch lotms/read ntlis and go crazy for a short while. even once the eu tour started, i wasnt really on mcrblr and i kind of just looked at it from afar like “oh thats nice :) glad theyre still weird”. but really i think i couldnt let myself get invested or excited because i just didnt believe it was for real. i didnt think there was a CHANCE of new music. but then foundations dropped and i listened to it ONCE and was like yeah thats cool. for an obligatory “reunion” song. which really i think just shows more than anything else that the mcr breakup may well be the source of my trust issues