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just-an-anxious-mess · 3 months

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I'm glad there is apparently no more conflict between us but I can't help but be bitter. Why couldn't you be there for me, be supportive and listen to me when I was still a kid desperate for attention and praise and approval. I appreciate your support now but I am furious on behalf of that poor child who would do anything to have this kind of parent. As an adult I'm thankful for your help but my inner child will never forgive your absence.

I mourn the person I could have been if this support had been present from the start instead of after I'd been kicked out.

#sami talks too much #just an anxious mess rambling #childhood trauma #toxic parents #wounded inner child #neglectful parents #unsupportive family #family issues #why is it when i no longer live with them that they turn into the parents i always wanted as a child?#its not fair #im both sad and angry on my younger selfs behalf #its not like i can even ask why or bring up any of my childhood #not without being told I'm misremembering or being dramatic #they'll never admit what they did #and that in and of itself kins of crushes me #they'll never admit that they're the reason im the way i am today #there are so many past versions of me for me to mourn

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