#this aint going in the paulkins tag im too scared

[theiloveyousong]

hii jonespaulkins enjoyers all one of you that is me wave emoji hi. please enjoy this it is a chatfic but like not really. its about grief fair warning

if not love persevering

11:34 PM

greater hatchetfield polycule

i wouldnt say i have a problem with the passage of time <

paul <3

> But you have a problem with time?

> In general.

yeah i guess <

i never liked change <

and thats all time is really <

harmony <3

> I get it

> Change is weird and time is even weirder

> Because it always happens

> And there’s no going back

> At least that’s what I think

for real <

and like <

its the seventh new year without her <

and it still feels like the first <

like <

this time in 2017 i was prepping for a funeral <

and now i just have to be normal with my brother and his kid <

yknow <

paul <3

> I know.

> The grief hurts.

everything hurts <

harmony <3

> And you have to let it

> But still

> I’m sorry

i know <

anyway <

i love u guys <

im sorry i wasnt there <

harmony <3

> Don’t be!

> They’re your family

but youre my family too <

hey <

can we call? <

paul <3

> Well, we’re in bed.

without me? 😿 <

harmony <3

> Come home then!!

paul <3

> I’ll call you.

> We love you, Em.

i love you too <

[call started - 32 minutes]

why did u hang up <

paul <

paulllll <

damn must have fallen asleep <

okay <

so <

u know the vulnerability thing is hard for me <

and im working on it <

but i wanted to tell you guys <

uh <

ur like <

the best thing thats ever happened to me <

you make my life so much better like <

cant imagine where i would be rn without you two <

happy new year <

i love you <

dumbasses <