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FACT: matt jeevas was third in line to be the next L.
FACT:ย matt jeevas never wanted to be L.
these two truths that existed in the same plane of existence, two truths that compounded together to form mattโs opinion that wammyโs house was bullshit.ย though, as he would say if pressed (by anyone who knew, at least), really it should be common sense that wammyโs house was bullshit from the get go. orphans brought in because they were special? absolute bullshit.
(sometimes he wondered how many of them were doomed from the start, 0s and 1s in a system with a kill switch--) but heโs getting distracted.
he canโt really remember when he got over whatever weird negative opinion he had of near from when he was twelve. there was a part of him that was just annoyed by nearโs existence because he was so effortlessly the best, but who knew how much of that was melloโs (also twelve year old) opinion bleeding into him.
either way, now he finds himself at the headquarters of nearโs -- no, Lโs - new... team? team seems to be the right word. he supposes he has a role in that new team, seeing as he hasย done some hacking work for near since everything went down, but honestly some days he feels a bitย like a wad of gum stuck to the bottom of their shoes, adamantly refusing to be scraped off.
and heโs getting distracted again.
he actually doesnโt even realize nearโs speaking for a second and then he blinks back into reality and out of the binary code in his head, eyelids fluttering as he refocuses in on reality.
(fuck, he misses his goggles. heโs been scouring ebay but nothing has come up that has quite the same kickย as his old pair. it was shit, is what it was.)
hm. is it worse to say he wasnโt paying attention, own up to his own distraction? or is it worse to lie and say yes. it was hard to lie to near, though, and half the time he really did feel like near could sniff out his deception. mind made up, then.
"i honestly didnโt notice you were even talking.โ
bite the bullet, matty. stand right in front of that train barreling down at you and find out what happens when it hits. (never let it be said he didnโt have the same flair for dramatics that mello did.)
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