#this got angsty-i hope it's still sufficiently sexy

[civilight-eterna]

Hi can I request Kal'tsit/Theresa Sarkaz King powered mind sex? :3

blessed request, of course you can

...

There is only one person, in the entirety of this world or any other, that could pull Kal'tsit in from her own fathoms.

A soft entreat of her name, the gentle winding together of arms, and she's hers. It is the only word that needs to be spoken, and all the touch it takes to path their hearts together as one.

The fullness she feels around Theresa is terrifying. She tries, initially, to keep her at length, in spite of herself.

It is about as simple as going without air, or pretending the moon and her beauty do not hang in the night sky.

But as always, she can't distract herself with such metaphors forever. Not when they lay beside one another, not when Theresa cradles her face against her heartbeat, her breath gentle down the back of her neck as her body curls in.

Their breathing syncs, and it always happens a little sooner than Kal'tsit expects-she relaxes into a touch that they both imagine, hidden from reality together.

Where Theresa's feet touch the blank ground, their world draws itself in. Kal'tsit has never seen anything grow beneath her own footsteps.

In a place with nothing at all but Theresa, she has what she needs already.

You're always practical like that. Theresa's voice responds to her unspoken thoughts, and she lets the sound of it fold close around her. But we can keep dreaming. All that you want, and all that I want, that we can't have without these moments together...

Theresa's eyes are doleful, resigned. She's waiting for Kal'tsit to acquiesce.

And Kal'tsit does. Theresa parts the seas of her mind and Kal'tsit slides into the depths, enclosing herself there, offering everything up to her senses; Theresa shudders like it's her falling beneath the waves, and not Kal'tsit.

But it flows forth so defiant of any kind of control, before Theresa's naked psyche. It brings Kal'tsit to her knees. She can't put her feelings into words. Rather, she won't-but Theresa hears her heart anyway, and Kal'tsit knows she does, and that's enough.

Between the two of them, Kal'tsit knows it's herself that will take the entire share of blood on her hands. Theresa needs to stay pure. The world needs to believe in her, to heal beneath her touch. But as the color of Kal'tsit's feelings denote that affection, so too do they threaten to carve out her soft life. There is no ultimate safety nor understanding. Wickedness pervades, and it is not in those born into circumstances that culminate in attempts on Theresa's life, but it is Kal'tsit, the judge, the jury, the executioner. The one that sees these struggles and makes her choice.

Theresa might be the only one capable of seeing these depths in her for what they are.

Their arts hum to life along the currents of their bodies, passing thoughts, touches, everything along to the other, a tantric pendulum locking inside, swaying them together.

The fullness, the emptiness, the impossible sensations ebbing between-Kal'tsit shivers violently, Theresa holds her steady, and it runs its course until they're both spent, until Theresa is somehow astride her, doubled over and holding dear like one of them might die if she lets go. She's outside, beyond herself, a spectator in her own body, seeing herself through Theresa's eyes, through senses she shouldn't have.

It rushes through her ears. It crashes through her chest, it aches between her quivering legs. She's sick with her. Terminal.

"-Out." Kal'tsit gasps, and Theresa's thoughts wick away from the tangle of her own, but the syrupy, sickly feeling stays. She's drenched in sweat and though Theresa knows, by now, that it's not personal-or perhaps, that it is very personal-Kal'tsit can never quite squelch the natural guilt that pricks at her conscience as Theresa goes through the motions of accepting the curt rejection on her own.

...

She will look back on these times. She will remember how Theresa held her. She will remember the color of her feelings. She will remember all of these things, across even her long life, and never ever forget.

She will wish she'd never surfaced for air at all.

[searchingforbucky]

FIC RECS (Part 5) :)

Okay we are going to try this again lol. I hope I got everyone I was intending to!This one is LONG so buckle up babes. 

The request was for Cop!Bucky fics, by anonymous. Now I am SO excited to share this list because Cop Bucky is my top 2 favorite AU’s and actually the first AU I ever read for Bucky. So its incredibly close to my heart, and so are these fics. I hope everyone enjoys! :) (I start with Series, then go to One-Shots) 💖💕💗💓

In the Arms of Justice by @avengerofyourheart

Okay, this was actually the first full Cop!Bucky fic I ever read and let me tell you, it was an amazing bridge into what is now an unhealthy obsession lol. This fic is so well done. I love the way Anika plays with details in her stories. Every word has you hanging on, no stone is left unturned, no detail forgotten. This one, especially if you go back and read it a second time, you see all of the tiny foreshadowing she does. Its such a good mysterious fic. Its absolutely amazing the Protective/Soft Bucky on top of that is the best ever. Please read it twice to be able to fully realize the beauty.

Heart & Soul by @all1e23

This one is an ABO fic, and oh man is it good. This fic is just so heartbreakingly beautiful. Allie is dedicated, in all of their stories, to being as truthful to true human experiences and this is just another example. The emotion is so real and painful and I can somehow picture to all of these experiences even though I’ve never had them myself, solely because of the way they write. This is a story about trauma, trust, loyalty, and personal strength. Theres murder mystery and fluff all in  a lovely package.  The relationships between her and every one of the characters is so well drawn out, its just such a heartwarming fic.

The Witness by @wkemeup

Words tend to evade me when I try to explain my love for this fic, but I need I need to make sure its recognized. Bucky is soft and just wants the reader to be safe, the reader is self sufficient and headstrong. My favorite pairing. This story is honestly something that changed the way I read Bucky fics. It was the first story of hers I have ever read, and never have I gotten more lost in a story than this. Before this, I would mainly focus on dialogue of a story, and other important bits. This was so beautifully done, and packed with detail and emotion in the smallest sentences I made sure I didn’t miss a single thing. Also, the way she writes the aftermath in her Drabble/epilogue are so truthful to life and recovery. Ugh, just an amazing read.

Deception by @revengingbarnes 

This story is unlike the others I’ve read before. I LOVE undercover fics, don’t get me wrong, but a lot of the time they are set in this perfect world with no repercussions. This fic is so damn raw and honest and real. It shows the pain and aftermath that is unavoidable from situations like these, the emotion from Bucky and the Reader seeps through every word making it impossible not to get invested into them and their love. Not everything in life is perfect, there isn’t always that one happy ending, and this fic shows that. There is bumps and bruises and you won’t know whats coming until it happens but thats what makes it beautiful. 

Seven Thirty by @nacho-bucky 

So this one is absolutely the cutest thing ever. Its technically a cop!bucky but its not like the main factor in the story, but Im including it anyways because its too amazing to not! This has UNCLE BUCKY, oh my god thats my favorite soft Bucky trope and its done again here so well. Bucky is needs help with a kid, she works with kids, what could go wrong??? Nothing! Because this is a story of two awkwardly adorable individuals being roped into the cutest relationship ever by a sneaky little girl. This story is Witten so well, every detail paints the best picture of utter domesticity and love and I cannot get over it. Especially the little drabbles accompanying it? Be still my heart. 

Ride With Me by @jurassicbarnes 

Now this one is a treat, we’ve got Cop!Bucky and Biker!Reader (whaaaat?? Biker reader??) Yes! So unique right? And its so well done too. This is about the cutest thing because you have no gender stereotypes whoop whoop! You have soft shy Bucky (who tries so hard to hide it, oh my love), and a badass reader! Its so unique and absolutely adorable. I feel like this needs to be made into a romance movie, I would watch the hell out of it. Its like perfect YA romance I'm telling you! Opposites attract and lead to a work of art in disguise as a Bucky Fanfic. Also, I want Natasha to be my Best Friend :( 

Sweet as Cinnamon by @propertyofpoeandbucky 

It wouldn’t be a proper Cop!Bucky list without some Chubby Bucky! In there! Now, wanna know who’s sweet as cinnamon? Bucky Barnes in this fic (more like a compilation of one-shots). We have a single dad, divorced, insecure, chubby Bucky, and we all know what that leads to? Me in an absolute puddle of love and fluff. The relationship he has with the reader and his daughter are the most pure things I’ve ever been lucky enough to read. I love sneaky kids man, and oh does he have one! All of Leilanis fics are so good, but something about this Universe really just sticks in my heart. Amazingly well written, 10/10 would read every single one again. 

Good Cop, Bad Cop by @cametobuyplums 

Okay, another thing that makes this list complete? A smutty fic (again more of a compilation of one shots). This fic is damn good. Its kinda like SAC in the way of Bucky is a single, insecure, divorced, chubby father. But plot twist! Reader is a young sexy police chief that just wants her man, Bucky. Let the fun ensue! No seriously though, besides the smut, this series is incredibly well done. You wouldn’t expect many heartfelt moments in a fic like tis, but thats the beauty of it. I love reading stories where Bucky just gets loved up and fights his insecurities. If you like reading smut, I guarantee you will love this fic!

Sunshine by @thottybarnes 

Let me squeal about this one real quick. I just recently read it and I LOVED it. Honestly any story that has beefy Bucky is always gonna be a good one for me, but beefy Bucky AND soft, baby fever having Bucky? Oh my heart cant take it. This fic is absolutely adorable. I love how fun and light hearted it is, and the details they put in the background are to die for. Such a good fic if you want fluff, and Cop!Bucky all in one fantastic package. The way she rights the reader also just makes me feel like a good person and who doesn’t love that? All in all, the story is amazing, and now I want a baby with beefy Bucky :(

Anyone Except You by @maid-of-mourne-shore  

Okay so this one is definitely different than the ones I’ve listed so far. This one is a little intense. Definitely needs a trigger warning especially with the current US gun situation. Anyways, if you can handle it, please read it. Its a beautifully raw story that portrays that trauma for an outsider so well. I was on the edge of my seat, heart hurting. Bucky Is so soft, the mutual pining is there, the protective Bucky is there, the flangst is there. Its really, really good.

Uniformed by @bucky-plums-barnes

Oh my dear Gen, another wonderful fic from her. This story is absolutely so unique in the way its set up. The sections being introduced like a hospital case had me hooked from word one. I love a hard to get fic, especially when it involves a cocky Bucky and a take no nonsense reader! This fic has its fun times, but it also gets some angsty moments of just raw emotion and understanding between two people in difficult career paths, its truly beautiful. Also, UNCLE BUCKY makes an appearance :)

And finally, last but not least 

Reassurance by @ofheroesandvillains

Obviously I’m a sucker for insecure chubby Bucky. He gets a little green here not gonna lie, makes him about 50x cuter. We get it Bucky, she’s your wife (so you say) and not his. This fic issuer cute, I love me a reassuring reader, because I know I would say the same in that situation. You feel the love between the characters, its not an overwhelming display of love, but its truthful to life and real feelings, and I love it so. 

If you read to the end of this long list, bless your heart and I love you so much. I’m not a writer, so my grammar is probably bad, and I basically just write in a stream of consciousness lol, so sorry for that! I hope you love the fics on here as much as I do! Till next time my loves.