#this is literally the funniest post of 2020 i dont care about anything else

[scumbagzwife]

5YRS LATER,I STILL LOVE YOU.

My random rambles, all compiled into your own tumblr post.

6:38AM 9/9/2020

By the time I decide to give you this, it will be our first month officially together. I know that I write you a lot of love letters here and there, but I genuinely enjoy expressing myself by writing to you. sometimes the words just dont come out the way I think. Even then writing seems like only but so much. I'm at the temp table today, and I want to say that you are the kindest person that I know. You can be very sweet, very open minded and sometimes a little brat lol; I don't expect us to be perfect because there's no such thing. I want us to flourish in a way that we didn't before. I want us to communicate when something bothers us; when we feel uncomfortable with certain things or even if we are just feeling a way just because. I want you to know, that I love you; i adore you. The things I do for you are not because I have to, but because i choose to. When i take time off of work to fit into your schedule it's because i want to..that is something i want to do for YOU, to show you that i am fully committed to being with you; and reassure you that we will always have/ find a way to make things work for us. I wont bring up the past because that has no place here anymore. Love for me is actions, and doing all the things I said i would do with you; love for me and loving you means taking my time out to write things like this to let you know that there isn't anything i wouldnt do for you. I don't depend on you for my happiness, but boy do you truly add such a great amount to it. You contribute to me, which is what love is.. you ADD on to all these things that I feel, and sometimes you create even new feelings that i never felt before. I've never seen myself wanting kids, getting married; but I want all that with you. There is something about you that feels so familiar and so new at the same time; its like i've known you in a past life before. We mesh so well that it's crazy to me.. how after all this time we can pick up from where we left off as if time never went by. This is what I love about you, about us. That we are friends; then just so happen to be lovers. Your shyness is something that I find cute, and it doesn't bother me at all. You think it gets in the way, but it doesn't; it's just something we can both get through with time, which we have before. Your voice is the sweetest thing i've ever heard, it still causes me to get butterflies and stutter. I could hear you talk for days about absolutely nothing and i'd still be willing to listen to you. There's times that you think you don't do anything but when you are being sweet you give me ton of reassurances even when you probably don't mean to. You make me feel like I am the best man alive, you always have. You've never used my identity against me, never seen as less than a man; and I know that you might say you don't see anyone as less then. But listen..the way you talk to me, it's just so much deeper than that.. When you say "i love you" but you do it in this soft tone, and so slow..it feels so damn intense. This is a note to ramble about how i feel, so forgive me for it not sounding all together. I know love isn't built off ownership but when I say that I am yours; i mean that shit. It means my feelings only belong to you, and I don't see other woman besides you. You are the one.. you're the one for me, the one I see myself with indefinitely. I love that we can be sweet together, but also just straight childish to one another and do things to annoy each other at times haha. You are my best friend Maria, and you have taught all the ways to love. You have taught me things that I never knew, life lessons and feelings. You encourage me to change for the better with seeing how much you glow and that radiates over to me. How did I get so lucky? How did we get so lucky to feel and have something like this in our life time? You're stuck with me for real, i love you; the only woman to ever to get me this effectionate, this caring and to write like THIS? haha. You're truly my muse when it comes to my creativity for writing and poetry.

TAKE TWO My sweet baby, it's our first month officially together, and i've been writing so many notes in advance trying to find the right words to say to you. Let me start off by saying, being with you has been the biggest blessing of my 2020. I've had a rough couple months, as has everyone. But never did I expect it to turn out the way that it has, and I guess that God had a plan for the two of us since we are here, together. Fate has always lead me back to you, and i'm guessing all those times we weren't ready and it wasn't the right time. I never once stopped loving you or thinking of you. How could I forget someone who holds such a great impact on me? You have taught me many things, how to love; and even discovering feelings I never thought I could feel. You add and contribute to my happiness. You are so sweet to me and sometimes a little gremlin, and that's all good becase i love you the way that you are. We mesh so well because we are genuinely best friends that just so happen to be lovers. I never understood how important it is to be with someone who is your friend first then a partner, because every interaction with you feels new, refreshing and exciting; even if it's something we've done 1000X. You never made me question my worth to you, never once made me feel less than due to my identity. You're so open minded and always willing to listen even at times that you really didn't have to. I appreciate you for always being so patient with ME! I don't think i've ever said that to you,I know sometimes I can be a pain in the ass, sometimes I over think more than I should haha. I'm trying to work on that okay. I have all things saved you've ever written me, or our petty little interactions lol.. I was genuinely surprised that you ever saved mine; you never told me. But shoot that makes my ass feel special as hell. I promise to keep our love something so sacred, and between us, there wont be any room for anyone try sabotage anything. You are my one and only, believe this. Believe it when I say i got you; i wont let you down. I wont let us down, not again we are in this forever for good. You are my wife after all. So here's to more down the road, lil brat.

9-17-20 These are like chronicles of love letters to you, this like Dear John at this point LMAO. Hi Honey, writing to you because I enjoy doing this for you, anything that gives you a smile at the end of this. We've been doing a good job at keeping this, us together. I know it's all still new to us both; trying to navigate a busy life, work and a love life. But I wouldn't change or do this with anyone else, but you. You are just so damn special to me, and I knew it from the moment that we hit it off all those years ago. I take pride in the fact that you are here with me now..I get little tingles thinking back on things that you've told me, the thought you've saved messages; or thought about me even when I wasn't present. It just shows me it wasn't always one sided even when I beleived it to be. I know you aren't the best with expressing yourself, but sometimes you put that effort in and I know you mean..especially when I hear it; it just does something different for me. I want you to know that you never have to feel bad for tryin to balance all things out; like work, friends and you time and tossing me into the mix of it all. I'm still learning along with you. Like I said before babe, even if we have days that all we can spare is 20-30 minutes that is what we'll have. It's the thought of putting in that free time for someone, and the efforts that can keep it all going. There's been times you've stood up extra 30, or hour just to talk to me knowing you gotta be up early. I appreciate that. i'm not sure when i'll send this out to you since i'm sure we both work when our date comes up. So maybe i'll do it early because i'm not the most patient person there is lol. I love you Maria, and even if we gotta deal with minor hardships now just know that i'm down to do al that with you. Sometimes it's not easy going to bed without talking, sometimes it's just hard in general but you are WORTH  all the hard times that give us so much good ones. You're the love of my life, you are literally my wife even if there isn't a ring on your finger now you are my wife lol i can feel this soul tie between the both of us that i don't ever want to fade. You're my best friend who gives me so many laughs, i can be 100 percent me and you'll still think i'm the funniest / best dude in the room. I don't think I could ever get tired of you.. i'm sitting here now typing all this up and just havin this look on my face thinking bout you i day dream. Of your beautiful face, your gentle soothing voice.. your laugh; down to your sarcasm. UUFFF i'm just in love with all of YOU. we got this baby, i promise you that we do.