#this is why they're so estranged. loop really would rather not interact with them unless they absolutely have to

[luifaro]

uhhh ok so some loop and universe thoughts i've had... that i've been storing in my noggin... i just have a couple of things... (loop experts know you can legally kill me if i'm Wrong about them please don't hesitate)

so like. in my mind the universe is a genuinely caring entity yk? like it obviously is not without flaws that would be idk too idealistic and idk it weirds me out too much to do bc it would make me feel all weird and like i'm demonizing loop by making the universe some perfect angel when they hate it so much. it's not that deep but still i think it's just i don't like the trope of innocent well-intentioned person who hurt someone is portrayed as completely in the right and person who holds fairly justified grudge portrayed as actual monster because the person who hurt them didn't mean to :cccc... plus it's fun!!! i likeit bc it's fun to explore! it wants to help but it's also hurting them by helping! it really did try and it had a reason for putting loop through all of this. it wanted loop (and siffrin) to learn that their friends care about them at all costs because it's Very Important to them that they learn this.

but that's kind of offtopic from what i'm ACTUALLY here to ramble about, which is how i feel loop would react to the idea of like a genuinely kind universe. which is to say i think they would honestly greatly dislike it if not outright hate because. You Know How to be decent and yet. and yet you did this to me. you did this knowing you would ruin me, you had to know and yet you did it anyway even though you care about me. even though you love me you destroyed me and permanently Changed me and i didn't want this i never wanted this i never wanted this to happen to me why didn't you see that i never wanted this? do you even care about what i want? why can't you just leave me alone? why do you have to do this? why?

they'd hate the fact that they have to watch out, to think carefully to speak carefully. or else it will try to "help" them when they don't want this. they just want to left alone they just want to live. they're tired of it trying to help them they don't want help they just want it to leave them alone more than anything they can't stand that it loves them so much that if it physically could it would leave them alone. why them? why them??? why did it have to be them? why did they have to be the universe's favorite toy why why why why???? why???? why do they have to live this way when no one else does? why can't it understand that the only way it could make them happy is by never intervening again? by shutting up forever? by just stopping?

it cares too much and they can't stand that.

^ also secretly because i don't think they'd think feel like they deserve a loving god that cares about them too! this star can fit so much angst in them!!