#this started off as me just extensively writing about how i actually relate to d.oma lol but

[rabbitprose]

sometimes i think about the year-long (or longer, i asked people not to talk to me about it) adventure of "you don't really have a dissociative disorder" anons and meanwhile i'm sitting here pouring my absolute heart out regarding d.oma's own troubles with dissociation. no, d.oma and i don't have the same relationship with dissociation - d.oma experiences severe dissociation as a symptom of a disorder that is not catagorised as dissociative in nature (me on the other hand is a different story).

but like, do you really think there's not a hint of self reflection within what i write? no processing of my complicated relationship with dissociation? do u really think that? do you think i write so extensively about his pain and hardships and strained relationships as someone completely separate from intense dissociation? do you think i'm just writing about it without a single shred of "this has actually happened to me"?

d.oma's dissociation will always be an expression of my own - that's the truth.