#this tied into what Garak said earlier in the novel- that the relationship ends when you no longer have anything to learn from each other

[youngpettyqueen]

“I was in a dangerous mood. Ever since that ridiculous holosuite program, I thought. The spy game. Well of course it’s a game. It’s all a game. But it’s not a holosuite program. And yet, the moment Julian wounded me with his ridiculous weapon, everything changed. I thought it was a magnificent moment. He showed me that he had the spine to play the game as it ought to be played. But why then did he back off? Why couldn’t he go beyond that moment? Why did our relationship end?”

im gonna scream my fucking lungs out Andrew Robinson when I get you