#tho i spose if those are hard triggers yall probs aren't into tlou but w/e

[lavendershazy]

rambly tlou thoughts

so ik this isn't like. totally a fandom blog idk if anyone will see this or if it'll vanish whatever but oh well

it has hit me, in no small part bc I had to explain to one of my roommates who was watching w/ me pieces of frank figuring bill out in ep 3 leading up to them getting together (and vice versa) (but mostly said roommate literally jumped in his seat at the kiss bc he didn't see it coming, it was hilarious. but anyway. I been thinking about them A Lot) the stellar tv version tlou hbo gave us kept them poised so much more as equals in a relationship than so much media ever does, tv, movies, etc.

(not that tlou has ever really not gone for that for its main relationships but that's a whole other post; for a while joel's a shot-caller, but he's not the only one involved, ellie, tess, tommy, etc hold their own, so on. again, anyway.)

but even to the end they made for the show - that choice starts w the premise that frank's illness has progressed too far for him and taken too much of his functioning ability; this time, he's the one prepped for facing the end, albeit via a rather charming plan. it's bill, who had never wanted friends or visiting bums, but had gotten caught up in attachment, in being seen, loved, loving, whose immediate reaction is to resist, refuse to help with the suicide, in the hope of finding eventual medical help, even if that hadn't existed before the pandemic.

but as they do, at least in this version, they even out and come to something like a middle - which, very amusingly to me (and yes, frank, very romantically), has bill evaluate the couple of things that mean basically anything to him, and decide that if frank's gonna go out, he's gotten a long enough life to make it both of them. and I know their reasons are different but it's genuinely very funny to me that frank is so taken aback when bill also drinks the wine like. when has this man of yours done anything by halves, sir? mister whole ass electric fence town with his I was never afraid before you showed up and you were just gonna leave earth in his arms and he was gonna be chill about it? sure. right. no, my man, he was gonna tell the people he begrudgingly thinks are decent or better to do their best to keep kicking ass n then follow you wherever God declares lmao. as with 9/10 other moments featuring y'all, it features y'all being stubborn af, which is exactly how you made it to old age in a panini in the first place. history rhymes all over.

(so cheers to that too 🍷 - cause whatever timeline we're in, you know the gays are gonna be stubborn.)