#to Mr. Inference (IL OVE HIM)

[the-redacted-of-all-time]

actually chat idk how to feel abt this skin anymore

(some long ahh ranting in the tags btw)

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Wed[nesday] 21 September 1825

9 40/60

3 50/60

Three at once last night then one a very little while afterwards then fell asleep just before getting up this morn

ing had two at once. M- [Mariana] d[o]wn at 10 40/60 and I at 10 55/60 - just as we h[a]d done br[eak]f[a]st col[onel] Tryon and Mr Powis

call[e]d on M- [Mariana] and s[a]t 1/2 h[ou]r. M- [Mariana] and I w[e]nt upst[ai]rs for 1/2 h[ou]r - call[e]d d[o]wn to D[octo]r Scudamore - w[e]nt out ab[ou]t 2 -

w[e]nt to Bright’s and to Beaumont’s the druggist he shew[e]d the stom[a]ch ------ aft[er]w[ar]ds ----  pump for extract[in]g pois[o]n fr[om] the stom[a]ch - pr[ice] 3 1/2 guin[ea]s fr[om] Weiss - col[one]l and Mrs Tryon hav[in]g call[e]d on us, we met them, and walk[e]d up and d[o]wn the arcade n[ea]r an h[ou]r -

I arm in arm w[i]th Mrs Tryon - in close confab about L- [Charles Lawton] I spoke handsomely of him and we both praised M- [Pi - Mariana] Mrs T- [Tryon] had always wondered

she married him for she had known him in his first wife’s life time I explained gently how mista

ken was M-‘s [Pi - Mariana] estimate of his character and vindicated her calmly and I fancied successfully all this while

it seems Col[onel] T- [Tryon] was praising me wondered I had never married M- [Pi - Mariana] hinted at my having had had a disappoint

tment some years had then put on mourning would never take it off and never marry he asked if I was

of a county family M- [Pi - Mariana] said yes could count as many generations as most could and was very aristo

cratic  The T[yron]s quite pleased with me for M- [Pi - Mariana] and I mut[u]ally told all we had said and heard we delighted

they did not come sooner they would have too much of our society and been a bore that we could scarcely have

avoided. Bef[ore] walk[in]g w[i]th the T[yron]s we h[a]d p[ai]d our bill M- [Mariana] cop[ie]d the pattern of the inlay[in]g w[i]th moth[e]r

of pearl of one of Bright’s workboxes - aft[e]r leav[in]g the T[ryon]s, ab[ou]t 4 3/4, - w[e]nt to the spar shop at this end

of the low town - a ver[y] civ[i]l old wom[a]n there let us walk r[ou]nd her shop, and see all w[i]thout buy[in]g and

then we walk[e]d up and d[o]wn the arcade of the square till 5 35/60 - d[i]d n[o]t dress eith[e]r today or yest[erday] -

Din[ner] at 5 55/60 - s[a]t talk[in]g to M- [Mariana] whi[le] my a[un]t h[a]d Mrs Locke fr[om] 6 1/2 to 7 1/2 and then sett[le]d acc[oun]ts and wr[ote] the

ab[ov]e of today w[hi]ch took me till 11 - gr[ea]t deal of r[ai]n dur[in]g last n[i]ght rainy morn[in]g till n[ea]r noon - then a light show[e]r or 2 aft[er]w[ar]ds b[u]t oth[e]r

wise pret[ty] fine till ab[ou]t 6 - then a lit[tle] mo[re] r[ai]n w[hi]ch prev[ente]d the band play[in]g. E. 0.. we were just

go[in]g up to b[e]d at 11 5/60 wh[e]n D[octo]r Scudamore call[e]d and s[a]t w[i]th us till 11 50/60 - he h[a]d been at the ball (a ver[y]

good one) and c[oul]d n[o]t leave Mrs S- [Scudamore] and h[e]r fr[ie]nd (Miss Bruin?) or w[oul]d ha[ve] call[e]d soon[e]r. M- [Mariana] h[a]d lit[tle] to say for we

talk[e]d on scientif[i]c subj[ec]ts alm[o]st all the ti[me] yet I learnt noth[in]g sa[me] the repetit[io]n of his opin[ion] that D[octo]r

Bostock’s work on physiol[og]y is the best, and will decid[edl]y suit me the best. He is cert[ainl]y, as M- [Mariana] obs[erve]d, ver[y]

heavy in conversant[io]n - he can[no]t talk on any subj[ec]t - he is so slow, and tedious, and tiresome. I cann[o]t help think[in]g of the

follow[in]g obs[ervation] of Swift in his th[ou]ght on var[iou]s subj[ec]ts (vid[ere] Johnson’s dict[ionar]y on the w[or]d Fluency) ‘the com[mon] fluency of

sp[ee]ch in man[y] men, and m[o]st wom[e], is ow[in]g to a scarc[it]y of matt[e]r, and a scarc[it]y of w[or]ds; for whoev[e]r is mast[e]r of language

and hath a mind full of ideas, will be apt in speak[in]g, to hesit[a]te up[on] the choice of both’ - finding I had the new French stays

I have never worn M- [Pi - Mariana] tried them on etc etc we h[a]d n[o]t done pack[in]g till n[ea]r 3. M- [Mariana] p[u]t me on a new watch rib[be]d and then

cut the hair from her own queer and I that from mine which she put each into each of the two little lockets we got at Bright’s ‘

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this morning twelve shillings each for us always to wear under our clothes in mutual remembrance we both of us kissed each bit of hair before it was put into the locket. Let[ter] fr[om] IN- [Isabella Norcliffe]

(Langt[o]n) this morn[in]g - 3 p[ages] and the 2 f[ir]st cross[ed - wide[l]y writ[ten] - she app[ea]rs to ha[ve] forgott[e]n hav[in]g writ[ten] to me fr[om] Snailwell

and tells me all she told in h[e]r last, w[i]th the addit[io]nal acc[oun]t of h[e]r safe arriv[a]l at ho[me] on the 31st ult. or 1st

inst. I can[no]t qui[te] ma[ke] out w[hi]ch - she and Miss Hill (of Snailwell) stopt to see Cambridge w[hi]ch IN- [Isabella Norcliffe] says ‘is ver[y]

infer[io]r to Oxf[or]d in point of beauty, b[u]t the latt[e]r can boast of noth[in]g like King’s col[lege] chap[e]l w[hi]ch is the m[o]st

divine th[in]g I ev[e]r beheld in my life - noth[in]g that I ev[e]r yet saw can vie w[i]th it in point of beauty, and it

is w[i]th go[in]g a thous[an]d m[ile]s to see’. IN- [Isabella Norcliffe] and Char[lotte] and Mar[ia]nne Dalt[o]n w[e]nt to the festiv[a]l - the form[e]r at the Belcombe’s

the 2 latt[e]t at Fisher’s - on Wed[nesday] (14th inst.) they w[e]nt to the conc[er]t so crowd[e]d they c[oul]d n[o]t g[e]t seats dur[in]g the 1st act

‘the mus[i]c sound[e]d ver[y] well, b[u]t there w[a]s a deplorab[le] want of Catalani and Mrs Salomon. Garcia I lik[e]d the

best, and if she does imitate Cat [Catalani], all I can say, is, that it is the best imitat[o]r I ev[e]r heard, for there were

mom[en]ts, in w[hi]ch ev[e]n I c[oul]d ha[ve] been deceiv[e]d...... Caradorz and Miss Stephens b[o]th sang ver[y] sweet[l]y, as d[i]d

als[o] Miss Travis, b[u]t Miss Wilkins[o]n w[a]s a complete failure, and the a[rch]b[isho]p is m[u]ch blam[e]d for insist[in]g up[on]

hav[in]g h[e]r. I w[e]nt to the minst[e]r on Fri[day] (the 16th inst.) the choruses were magnif[icen]t, b[u]t Braham spoilt

Luther’s hymn by putt[in]g in a fine quaver at the end of all were loud in asser[in]g the extreme

superior[it]y of Catalani in this divine song’...... Mrs N- [Norcliffe] d[i]d n[o]t go to the festiv[a]l on acc[oun]t of a quar[rel] bet[ween] Charlotte

and Mrs Best. IN- [Isabella Norcliffe] d[i]d n[o]t go to the fancy ball, b[u]t Charlotte w[e]nt and d[i]d n[o]t go b[a]ck till 5 the next morn[in]g - there seems

to ha[ve] been a gr[ea]t crowd. Mrs Milne w[a]s alm[o]st knock[e]d up and Mrs John Tweedy faint[e]d ‘and d[i]d n[o]t

recov[e]r h[i]s senses till 5 h[ou]rs aft[er]w[ar]ds. He w[a]s attend[e]d by Stephens, D[octo]r Goldie, and a sug[eo]n b[u]t they were for a

length of ti[me] bef[ore] they c[oul]d get an[y] blood, and Steph[en] th[ou]ght he w[oul]d die. Howev[e]r they succeed[e]d at last, and he is

n[ea]rly recov[ere]d.’