#tommy 'OH GOD ITS A TRAP' miller

[aziraphalesbookkeeper]

we’ve been hyperfixating on ellie and joel’s relationship (rightfully so) but we’re sleeping on the potential of ellie and tommy. chaotic uncle/niece duo.  

[disasterofastory]

Next to the river (Tommy Miller x Reader)

Next to the river Tommy Miller x Reader Warnings: smut

Summary: Tommy finds you bathing in the river.

Tommy can never know what waits for him outside the safety of Jackson. Clickers. Bloaters. Bandits. The list goes on, but he is ready for everything. Nothing can surprise him anymore. Not after he started the end of the world by going to work with his brother and ended it watching his niece dying in Joel's arms.

Well, nothing can surprise him anymore except you.

Your naked form in the cold river is a shock to his system. You seem small and fragile in the distance. Your wet skin shines under the weak sunlight filtering through the bare branches above your head. Your breath leaves your lips in white puffs. Tommy doesn't understand what made you go into the river this cold. It's freezing. A few more minutes and you will turn into an icicle, he is sure of it.

Silly girl, he thinks, what are you doing here all alone?

He moves closer without noticing. His body moves on its own. Dry leaves and twigs crunch under his steps. His fingers around the rifle tighten. It's against his chest. The metal is cold under his fingertips. His eyes wander to your clothes on the ground not far from you before scanning his surroundings for any sign of danger. Maybe you are not alone. There is no way you are alone. Maybe it's a trap. A pretty little thing like you can draw any man into their death. But he doesn't see anything suspicious. The forest is quiet and calm. Birds chirp in the distance, and something, maybe a squirrel, jumps from branch to branch above his head.

His gaze falls back on you, and the air gets stuck in his lungs at the view of you this close. Small droplets of water run down your skin, following the slope of your collarbone and breasts. Your nipples are hard peaks that make him excited and ashamed at the same time.

God, his mama would tear his head off to shove it into his arse, and he would deserve it. How low does he have to be to spy on a defenseless woman? Joel would kick his ass too. And despite these thoughts, he still stares at you.

A frown deepens between his brows, but he can't tear his eyes away from you. Tommy's palms tingle around the rifle at the view of the curve of your hips. His attention lands on a small droplet of water, running down your stomach, disappearing in the curls between your legs. "Oh, god," Tommy groans. His voice is breathless. He lowers his eyes to the ground for a second before looking up at you again with growing guilt in the pit of his stomach. Your thighs seem plushy in the distance. He doesn't even remember the last time he saw something as soft as you, let alone felt it.

Commanding his legs to move, Tommy finds his way down to the bank of the river. He makes sure you can hear him coming before he appears from behind the trees. The man doesn't want you to get scared. He wants a lot of things, but hurting you is not one of them.

Your eyes are already on him when he dares to look at you, moving his gaze from the long chains of the mountains at the horizon. You are even more beautiful up close. Your expression is calm and curious.

"Are you alright, Miss?" Tommy breaks the silence after a few stunned seconds. His voice is hoarse and still breathless. He has to fight against every fiber of his body to keep his gaze on your face. A smile pulls on your lips as you nod. "I'm fine," you tell him. You don't move to hide yourself from him. Your arms hang next to your body, relaxed. "You will freeze," he warns you softly. The words are heavy, rolling down his tongue. You shrug, still smiling. "It's fine. I'm fine." "Still," he says, stepping closer. "You should come out." You don't move immediately, and Tommy continues. "I won't hurt you." "I know, Tommy." Your laugh sounds like a melodic song in the cold air. It is almost enough to make the man forget you called him by his name. He frowns. "How do you-" But he can't end his sentence. You start to move out of the water, and his attention skips down to your body without his control. Your bare skin is wet and glints under the lights. Goosebumps run over you when a cold breeze bursts out of the trees.

Tommy gasps. "Here," he says, putting down his weapon to take off his coat. The warm fabric is heavy in his hands. Before he knows it, you are standing in front of him, close enough so he can put his coat over your shoulders. He can feel your breathing on himself. You smell like the river, earth, and something else. Something sweet and mesmerizing. "Thank you," you smile up at him. He waits for you to put your arms through the sleeves, but instead, you reach out for the flannel shirt he wears. Your fingers grip it between the buttons. "You will get cold," he says quietly, watching you the whole time. If he would move a few inches closer, he could feel your body pressing against his front. Just a few inches. "You could warm me up," you tell him, smirking. Your eyes glint with mischief as you glance up at him through your lashes. Tommy doesn't answer immediately. His hands go to the collar of his coat on you, pulling out your wet hair from under the fabric. He lets a lock curl around his finger. "There is a camp nearby…" he breathes out. "You would be warm and safe there." Your hands slip from the front of his shirt to his sides. The space between you disappears. "You are warm too," you tell him. "Yeah?" Tommy hums, giving up the fight against the pull he has felt ever since he saw you. His wide chest molds against yours, his hands smooth down your arms, and his lips find yours. The kiss is wet and soft and careful. You taste like berries and cold water. "Don't," Tommy says against your mouth when you want to shrug off his coat. "You will really get cold." Your giggle vibrates against his lips.

Tommy is still not sure what is happening. His whole body tingles with need, and his mind is dizzy. His senses are full of your closeness, and it's still not enough.

Still kissing you, he takes off his flannel shirt. He jumps when your hands smooth over his sides again. "Your hands are cold," he says, a bit embarrassed. "I'm sorry," you tell him, jerking back your hands from his bare skin. "It's fine," he says with an airy laugh. "Let me…" But when he grabs your fingers, the back of his hand flicks over one of your hard nipples. He can feel the shiver running down your spine. Watching out for your every reaction, he let his hand slip to your breast. A low groan leaves his throat at the pleasant weight against his palm. His thumb draws a teasing circle around the hard pebble. Your back arches to press yourself closer. "Tommy," you gasp out his name. That one word shimmers with impatience. The man frowns for a second. Embarrassment and shame cloud his thoughts. "Wha-what is your name?" "Y/N," you reply, not caring that he kissed and touched you even before he knew your name. "Y/N," he repeats your name softly before leaning down to kiss you again. His hand from your breast moves up to the back of your neck, keeping you in place. He tilts your head to the side, licking into your mouth. The mustache above his lips teases your skin, and the small nibbles and licks bruise your lips until they are red and swollen. Every bite and swirl of his tongue strikes between your legs in waves. Your hands fall to the waistband of his jeans, your fingers snuggle between the rough fabric and his bare skin. Tommy burns where you touch him. "We should…" he murmurs, breaking away from the kiss to look down to the ground. With a last, hot peck, he adjusts his shirt on the ground, feeling embarrassed again. It heats up his cheeks.

He shouldn't do this. Not like this. He doesn't even know you, and now he is ready to have sex with you on his shirt next to the river. It's cold and can be dangerous if he doesn't look out for his surroundings carefully enough. Joel would definitely kick his ass.

In another life, he would take you out on a date. Several of them before even thinking about having sex with you. He would take you to his favorite restaurant; he would invite you out to the cinema and dance; and at the end of the night, when both of you would be standing in front of your home, he would only hope that you would ask him to come in for a coffee.

"It's good," you tell him when you notice the guilt in his expression. His dark brown eyes almost seem sad. "It's fine." And it really is. You want him, and nothing else matters. Not the other life. And definitely not this one. "Tommy," you breathe out his name, hoping for the right reaction. Whatever is happening between you two, you don't want it to end. "I want you."

-

"Are you sure it's okay?" Tommy asks again, looking down at you. "Is it comfortable?" A laugh leaves your lips as you reach up to pull him into another kiss. His hands are next to your shoulders as you lay on his coat. The fabric is soft but not big enough to give you enough space. Wet grass caresses your bare skin as you move. "You think too much," you state, smirking. "I don't want you to think." Tommy is sure you don't have to do much to make him stop. One touch and his thoughts are out of his head, leaving tingling and dizziness behind. His lips move away from yours, leaving a trail of kisses down your neck and collarbone until he reaches the valley of your breasts. His tongue is hot on your skin. A giggle escapes your chest when you feel his beard. He smiles at the sweet sound. "It tickles," you tell him, cupping his face for a second before he moves lower, and his lips find your nipple and make you gasp for air. Your arms fall to your sides, gripping the coat under you. Your legs open on their own accord, letting Tommy lean against you some more. His jeans are rough against your sensitive center, and his mouth is hot on your nipple. His tongue flickers over the hard bud, sucking it into his mouth until your back arches and a moan fills the quiet, cold air. You feel nothing else but him. One of his hands smooths down your side, pausing on your hips to squeeze the soft flesh there. He even leaves your breasts to watch the motion. His fingertips dig into your skin, and a smile pulls on his lips. "What?" You ask him. Tommy shakes his head. "It's just… You just feel good." "You feel good too," you tell him, still not really understanding his fascination but letting him enjoy it anyway.

Soon, his attention goes lower, and now it's your turn to be embarrassed even though you know it's silly. You want to close your legs under his heated gaze, but his body stops you from doing it. "I didn't really have the chance to… shave," you explain hoarsely. He laughs, glancing up at you before dropping his gaze back to your wetness. "You are beautiful," he says. Throat tight. "Can I?" You nod. His large hands land on your leg, and his thumb caresses your inner thigh as he moves up to your pussy. The short curls are still wet from bathing in the river, but your lips glint with something else. He is so careful you barely feel him touching you for the first few seconds. "Tommy," you say his name, wanting more. You watch him petting your thighs, teasing your slit, focused. His heart thuds in his throat the whole time. His jeans are rough and uncomfortable around his erection. The fidgeting of his hips doesn't slip through your attention. The corner of your lips jerks. "You can take it off, you know?" He shakes his head. "If I take out my cock, I fuck you," he grunts. The first digit of his finger pushes inside you. The movement is slow and careful. "It doesn't sound like a bad thing," you smirk. Tommy shakes his head again. "I need to get you ready." You think you are ready but don't argue. Another finger joins to the other, and your hips buck to get more. Your mouth falls open with a silent moan.

Tommy still doesn't understand how he can be so lucky. The forest is quiet and peaceful around you, and you are beautiful and so reactive. Everything he does finds an answer in you. Your warm hole squeezes his fingers, your chest trembles with each rapid breath you take. His saliva still shines on your nipple.

"Tommy," you cry, pushing yourself against his fingers. "Please." "It's okay," he says, moving back above you. "It's fine." Your lips meet another kiss. And you swear to god, you missed it. Your fingers bury in the curls of his black hair. His warm breath fans over your neck and chest when breaks away, and you hear the sound of his zipper. Anticipation jumps in your stomach, and your legs open even more. Your whole body shakes with impatience.

Air leaves your lungs when you feel Tommy entering you finally. He is still slow and careful, giving you time to adjust his size. Your pussy stretches around his hot shaft, coating him in your wetness. For long seconds, your whole world narrows down to the feeling of him filling you up and stretching you out.

Tommy doesn't even know what to think or how to react. In a world where everything is ready to kill or infect, being in your arms, feeling your hot pussy squeezing him, you feel like safety and home. Your heart thuds against his chest. Your nails dig into the skin of his shoulders. Your lips brush over the vein on his neck as you moan at the rocking of his hips.

"You feel so good," Tommy grunts against your skin. "I don't know how to stop." A breathless laugh shakes your shoulders. "Then don't. Never stop, Tommy," you tell him. "Please." His movements get fast and erratic at your words. His hand on your hip tightens. He pounds into your pussy. His cock is coated in your mixed juices. You are warm and tight around him. The wet sound where your body joins fills the air. Your legs curl around his hips, your heels dig onto the firm flesh of his bottom to urge him deeper. "I gonna…" you gasp out. You don't know how to breathe. The hot coil in your stomach takes away your every attention. "Tommy!" "Cum, Y/N," he grunts into your ear. His voice rumbles over your spine. "I want to feel it. I want to feel your pussy cum around my cock. Make it messy, Y/N." "Yesyesyesyes," you chant with an open mouth and closed eyes. Your back leaves the ground again. Your breasts press against his bare chest. Your hard nipples graze the thick plates of his muscles. The cords in his arms flex as he keeps himself above you. There is a cramp in his thighs, but he can't find an ounce of care in himself. White, hot flames burn Tommy's insides as his balls jerk upward, and he moans when your hole closes around his cock some more. Bright, colorful circles dance in front of his eyes. He comes inside you, splattering your walls with his seed.

None of you move for long seconds. Tommy's cock still pulses inside you, and your wall flutters to take everything he gives you. You can feel the mix of your juices dripping down to the ground. "It was…" Tommy gulps, letting himself fall next to you. Both of you groan at the feeling when he pulls himself out of you. More cum slips out of your swollen, sensitive pussy. "Amazing," your smile is bright and satisfied as you look at him. A drop of sweat runs down his temple. "Yeah," he hums. Eyelids are heavy. His arms are still around you. The man wants to say and asks several things at the same time but stays quiet. Your nails run up and down on his arm. None of you feel the cold anymore, and none of you move to dress and leave for more safety.

When Tommy wakes up, you are nowhere.

[fireflythecinnamonjollyrancher]

hello it is once again time for my end of the year wrap up. this should be... interesting

january

finally finally got to have a happy apartment experience!!!!! tried out tea drops which are dope. there was a fair amount of stress revolving around APO induction and the musical rehearsal, but we made it!!! partied hardy (the infamous tess in the washing machine incident) kelli was watching always sunny more often than not. i wore some arguably bad clothing but ya know. gays. we tried to take off my closet door (it did NOT work). the beginning of the goose saga! there was a sleet storm so kelli and i made some popcorn and watched mike birbiglia’s new special. darci, kelli and i went out to eat and then ended up in babcock playing air hockey before watching videos with kai who was on duty. PEP BAND???? some good memories formed there. dogs in the library! got bullied by my library boss to put gas in my car and i sent her a video of proof that i did it “daddy long legs” “stop. what?” “the musical” (i do love timothy) i actually practiced my instrument lol wild. WE (becky, celeste, timothy and i) WATCHED SPIRIT and got wildly drunk -- the origin of “[redacted] [redacted] who???” which is my favorite joke.

february

MORE PEP BAND im actually really glad i spent my last few college months dicking around with the band. one man drumline!!! kai made some good tiktoks in our apartment! miss hanging with them it was really fun. oh i hung out with sam and celeste watching movies “he was a boy, she was a dolphin, can i make it anymore [strangled dolphin noises]” OUR MICROWAVE HANDLE BROKE OFF while kelli was gone man that entire apartment was falling apart (hey dumbass grab from top) -- a list of things that were broken in our apartment: fridge light, front entry light, showerhead, phone. the birth of the beans insta!!!! got hit on when i was at taco bell with timothy by being accused of being trans (taco bell guy was not far off to be fair). oh the improv posters as compared to the posters i built for an organization fair. went out and got daRUNK at what appears to be wandas. really struggled with my period. cut hair with kelli n darci. MOZZ STICKS. “you still a lil bitch???” oh we did kpy pal-entines!!! where we ate good food and watched the princess bride!!! i received the plush goose. there was a possible bombing at the bank next door to where we rehearsed for band. aw i went on a tommy’s date with becky that was cute. they tried to STEAL the QUESO. disagreed with a curb and still have those scars. worked a horrible gig at the theatre. closing shifts at the library baby! middle school tours EW more library dogs! fish hooks song oh my god. drunk mash nights!!! i rewatched HAVEN and had lots of feelings. actually got drunk alone a lot which was Bad. however michael malloys birthday! watched choir concert at work lol. stats final whilst drunk!!!! becky got a piercing

march

here things go downhill rapidly. hit up the trains at least once. oh late library nights with timothy!!!! the best nights i miss hanging with him while at work. struggled with my car. went on a college sponsored adventure to a back alley farm. SCURVY FEARS. opening shifts that were lonely. oh celeste played plague and named it covid and won lol yikes. the infamous apartment cone. we stayed up long enough to see the sunrise on literally the last day in college I would ever have. that was good. I FOUND OUT KELLI HAD GLASSES im still pissed. came home indefinitely. went to st patty’s day at brookes with karrigan and that was SO much fun (this was before things seemed real) the best part of that was the irish pub owner who happened to have a son that went to my college. got my mom onto tik tok. took a gay lit class. can’t believe i took daily fckn walks around the pasture who was i. hosted virtual meetings for apo and played around with the closed captioning. that was fun. shaved my moms head lmaooo. worked on my capstone which im like super proud of? i wish i could have directed it but say law vee. 

april

BAGPIPE CORPS INTERNATIONAL. virtual band wreaked havoc on my animals mental health. my grandmother would always bug me while i was working which i understand now was misplaced love but it was so irritating at the time. we had library meetings once a week or so that was vital to mental health. hosted a really fun “panel” about queer identity for my queer lit class that was able to educate a lot of people. having a capstone class with am*lia was a nightmare. watched a cirque du soleil show for free and lost my mind. wrote a comedic monologue that i suffered through. suffered through papers and projects. worked on a project with celeste and kelli and we had SUCH a good time. i hosted several jackbox nights for both apo and kpy. that was SUCH an exhausting experience. also uno and drawful with the uno group (kelli would win 100% of the time). ranted about group projects lol i struggled. OH THE MOVE OUT DEBACLE i really went off the deep end. kelli’s virtual birthday!!!!

may

we had so many good jackbox nights. academic showcase and honors convocation happened wherein i was name bronco award winner and that really wrecked me too lol. we had a sunday crew hang out for library workers. clarinet game night too! i tried so hard to build community during covid and im not altogether sure i accomplished it but ya know whatever. watsky broke the record! made my “aced it” grad cap which was so FUNNY and still is tbh. becky taught me how to do makeup. took grad pictures at an abandoned farmhouse lol OH MY GOSH BEAUX ARTS AND APO SKIT i was so proud of that night and annette said it was the best one we’d ever had. wish i had done more but we did it boys. also got VERY drunk for it lol completely redid my room. bc it was NASTY. the way i write papers is so SO funny to me. had our last capstones class and then dressed in grad outfits for our last lit meeting . graduated and got all my stuff from college finally. went shopping with timothy, had el puerto with becky (i think?). oh the infamous miller moths UGH shit is nasty. THE FORMING OF BANJO SHRIMPS occurred on may 24 2020 and that was the absolute best thing to come out of this year. started working at my dads agency which was the absolute worst thing to come out of this year. attended my first protest in cos which was good and healthy. started protesting regularly after that. my most poignant memory was laying down in front of city hall and chanting “i cant breathe” for 8 minutes. 

june

it snowed???? i was angry. part of my job was reading my dad’s email and there was some WACKO shit in there. went to brookes for pride as a surprise which was cute n fun. had a horrible interaction with a client. the appearance of the bigfoot statue!!!! we had a vanilla beans hang out. there was a WILD storm that literally made my hide out in the office. 

july

went on a bonkers rant about america bc fuck this place. helped mom out with homework. we had several clients get divorces which was messy. went to a Bad party where i was angry the whole time. went to the top of pikes peak with my grandma and saw many much bigfoot things. we got a GOOSE he hated us so much. oh there was a night where darci and kai came over and we hijacked kelli’s spotify and communicated that way it was SO funny. took a video of the dichotomy of man bc of my long ass leg hair and short ass head hair. shaved my head to the BONE and tried dragon fruit. GOT NIKO ON JULY 24 my sweet sweet boy lil bat looking motherfucker. got denied for life insurance for mental health reasons. 

august

went back to hc for a birthday “party” and to see the band. did a lot in that weekend (stayed with timothy’s family, helped becky move, met kelli’s look-alike, saw timothy and karlie’s new house!!! had lunch with kellis family which is closest to “meet my parents” i think i’ll ever get lmao). got my prof headshots and hate every single one of them but more for self esteem reasons lol. neighbors got goats and my mom lost her marbles. got trapped in traffic on the way back from hc. niko had crackhead energy. oooooooh documented gender crisis. ma got more chickens. went to a birthday party for a high school friend and was just... so out of my element. its weird. took off my grandma’s bathroom door bc she had knee surgery. started a full time job as my grandmother’s caretaker (love working for the family business lol).

september

went to breckenridge with a friend!!!!!! spicy times lol. cleaned the cupboard. had a birf. turned 22. cas finished her drugs!!!! and felt much better. we did a charcuterie board for my birthday which was very fun. Got a mixer set!!! went to hc for homecoming and graduated!!!!! surprised celeste and hannah with a celebration party for them (it was a lot of fun). came up with my BEST joke (summa cum laude). got called tf out for my gender crisis via tarot. got the goose game!!!! played the goose game!!!!

october

applied to chicago center!!!! will now be working there for a year!!!! this was the first documentation of banjo shrimp nights. surprised my dad for boss day by working with the team to fill his office with balloons. house sat for dad’s friends. started taking showers in the dark. went to celestes and made PASTA wow got very drunk and while she slept i just explored a strangers house. voted!!!!! wow. finally (finally) started to accept that i was maybe agender. had a snow day but i couldn’t work so that was fun. had halloween with banjo shrimps where i dressed up as david rose. that was SUCH a good night. participated in ace week!!! then, dressed as radar for actual halloween and had monumental. worked a volunteer haunted house and like... actually did pretty good?? felt like a real adult!!!!

november

so many things happened in november. i finished miraculous ladybug on netflix. had another bad interaction with a client bc the customer is always wrong. shaved my head. PRESENTATION NIGHT to distract from the election lmao what a good time. had so many emotions about the election. then biden won and we lost our damn minds -- video called with celeste and becky to celebrate (with the reminder that we know that this doesn’t solve everything but it was such a huge sigh of relief). started watching the last kids on earth. made more PASTA and soup! got my GHOSTY TATTOO. kahoot night with the banjo shrimps lol. watched the supernatural finale with kelli (what good memories) rewatched 3below good shit. got the chicago job so i quit being an insurance person!!!! brooke came for thanksgiving!!!

december

i dont wanna talk about it but i finally started watching unus annus (theres an archive its not the same but it provided me wild amounts of serotonin). “call that invisible split dye”. crimmus. had a video call with people from high school i rarely if ever see. this entire month has been a fuckin blur my guys but i’m so excited for what’s next. in two days i will be in an apartment in chicago. i will be reunited with my best friend in a little under two weeks. i cannot emphasize enough how excited i am for this next chapter. so yeah. that was my year. im sure there was more memories but that’s what the sideblog is for lol