#trying not to tag this with too much system-specific stuff yk
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cheesecake-the-chicken · 2 years ago
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anyways so about that singlet thing ^^’ (tw for dissociation and syscourse/system origins under the cut)
i’ve been doing some research into it and i’m pretty sure i’m median. we think we used to be a singlet until a really recent period of heavy dissociation, when the original self fractured and became us. im still kind of the “core” of the original self, but the others are the parts of him that branched off.
at first we thought i had synthesized/imagined them or that i was pretending, but things have kinda stayed this way for a while lol. i have really bad dissociative amnesia as of late so i cant honestly tell you how long it’s been like this or if there have been many signs leading up to it, but what i do know is that there’s been a distinct “we” that was separate from “i”.
according to the terms commonly used here (and i could VERY easily be mistaken!), we are probably “mixed origin”? it’s hard to say but the fracturing is a very recent development, caused by heavy dissociation due to Reasons
i’m not gonna lie i used to err on the side of caution when it came to endogenic systems, i didn’t want to assume anything as a (then?) singlet because it wasn’t and tbh still isn’t my place. but this has definitely opened my eyes and made me realize that i could very easily be seen as faking, even though i’m (most likely) not.
i’m still hesitant to call myself a system because i REALLY don’t want to if it isn’t my place to, and we only know so much about ourselves so far. we originally thought we were just aspects of the same person that got emphasized, but we understand it better that we are fragments of the consciousness of the same person. we don’t have osdd i believe, but we do have c-ptsd and the theory of secondary structural dissociation really fits us.
therefore, i think i’m going to change my dni to include anyone who’s sysmed or tries to fakeclaim others. it’s my understanding that very few people on this website are psychologists/psychologists/neuroscientists/doctors, and nobody’s experience is universal. so little is understood about plurality and the brain in general, and i don’t want to be mutuals with anyone who feels it’s their place to police other peoples’ experiences
i probably cant answer any personal questions about it right now in my/our best interest, but just know that i’m getting the help i need! i’m just hoping to find maybe anyone else who has similar experiences or is also median. i may post/rb about it more in the future
love you guys! sorry for the ooc kinda post
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colouredbyd · 29 days ago
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hi hi! I found ur blog through that tiktok Tumblr tutorial person (I was looking at their blog bc I saw the post criticizing their tiktok tutorial again) and was just curious what made you decide to switch over to Tumblr from whatever other social media you came from!
I'm a Tumblr user through and through, only detoured briefly during quarantine to Twitter, so I'm just wondering what makes people move over here. and how are you liking it?! is there anything about Tumblr culture that particularly shocked you? anything about Tumblr as a platform that was hard to adjust to or that you wish other social media sites would implement?
I know a Lot of Tumblr users are on kind of a high horse bc of our choice of main social media presence and I'm trying to mitigate my own without having to Use those other sites (bc I know the algorithms on them would suck me in too much and I'd spend way too much time on them yk)
anyways I'm kinda just yapping now, feel free to ignore this ask if it's not a vibe. I hope u have a good day!
hi hi!! omg first of all, tumblr supremacy forever <33 i actually didn’t switch over—I started here! tumblr has always been my little corner of the internet, and honestly, i wouldn’t trade it for anything. it’s like this perfect blend of everything good about social media: it’s got the endless scroll and weird humor of tiktok, the aesthetic inspiration of pinterest, and basically the fanfic library of ao3 all wrapped up in one beautifully chaotic place.
everything is organized by tags, so if you’re obsessed with something super specific, you can just dive right in and find your people. it’s just pure vibes and creativity with none of the pressure to perform.
what really shocked me at first was how little anyone seemed to care about follower counts or clout. on other platforms, it feels like there’s always this constant chase to be seen and noticed, but on tumblr, people are genuinely here for the content, not the numbers. everyone’s mostly anonymous, and there’s this deep respect for privacy that i haven’t seen anywhere else.
you can just exist, share what you love, and find others who love it too without feeling like you have to shout into the void to be heard. it’s such a breath of fresh air.
i’m actually here mostly for writing, and i only started my blog on april! i was honestly shocked at how much love and support i got right away. my blog grew like crazy in such a short time, and it’s all because of how welcoming and kind this community is. if you’re here to write and share your work, tumblr is honestly the perfect place. the tagging system lets you reach people who genuinely want to read your stuff, and the reblog culture means your work keeps getting shared without getting buried under algorithms. plus, there’s so much genuine interaction in the tags and comments—you can actually have real conversations with people who are just as passionate as you are. no other platform does it like tumblr.
finding the right community was probably the biggest adjustment for me, though. tumblr relies so much on tags to connect with people, so it took a little while to figure out where my people were.
but once i did, it felt like stumbling into this secret garden where everyone just gets it. you don’t have to perform, you don’t have to prove yourself—you just get to be.
if i had to pick a downside, i’d say it’s probably the anonymous asks. the respect for privacy is amazing, but the flip side is that sometimes you get anon hate, and there’s not much you can do about it since, well, it’s anonymous. you can’t block them or even see who they are.
but honestly, i think the good far outweighs the bad. tumblr is this beautiful, messy little haven where creativity is endless, people are passionate without pretense, and you can just exist without the noise of algorithms or follower counts. the community is genuinely here for the art, the writing, the fandoms, and the absolute randomness
also, may i ask where and how exactly you found my blog? i’m always so curious to know how people stumble upon it
thank you so much for such a sweet ask! i loved reading your perspective, and i hope you have the loveliest day 💕🌷💌
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