#ughughugh i wanna be in love now

[spicypussywave]

THE MOVIE WAS SO GOOD. such a feel good funny movie i loved it so much rawr

[stormyoceans]

[VICE VERSA episode 6 parts 1&2]

“It’s life to meet and part” … and meet again, since you fake-out bastards come back

Omg this scene confused the shit out of me before they revealed it’s a whole-ass brain production by one lovesick Puen

Good thing it /is/ a fantasy because I would’ve kicked his ass so hard for tossing the popcorn

Damn, dream!Talay wants to stop watching the movie and “get ready for bed”, that popcorn disaster really did it for him huh

DID HE REALLY SPELL OUT THE WHOLE THING TO TALAY IRL????

AND TALAY EVEN CALLS HIM OUT ON BEING A PERVERT

PUEN’S BEING SO HONEST ABOUT HOW HE FEELS, GOOD FOR HIM!!!!

“Seeing you 24/7 is heartwarming” my heart

Mm, I’m split on Talay’s “you should see others too” because yes it’s NEVER a good idea to obsessively attach yourself to just one person but on the other hand Talay probably doesn’t realise Puen’s just super-in-love

Oh right I forgot there was an intro

OH OH OH OHHHHH

The drums are my favorite part of this song they’re so good man

What is wrong with that damn megane lady

Instead of asking where Puen is the Nurse should’ve told Megane to get a life

“I haven’t seen him for a week” Jesus

Then again this is probably the way Puen thinks about Talay asldkjfkld

Why is Talay such a stick in the mud sometimes, fuck your game and play the guitar

I say as someone who loves gaming and gave up on playing the piano

(that was waaaaay back when I was a kid tho)

I’m so glad exams are a thing of the past, oh my god, fuck school

Tess’s friends getting all confused because their obnoxious friend got all solemn

But it’s nice that they took him seriously and came to cheer him up

Since Tess himself sure wouldn’t lmao

How often are you gonna repeat the “if this movie was aired in our universe” line omg

WHY IS HIS FRIEND SLEEPING THERE

AND HIS OTHER FRIEND THERE

So THAT’S the context for him jumping on the bed in the intro, I completely forgot

Yeah so the behavior Puen is exhibiting right now is not healthy, this is where he should indeed be spending time with others

Puen, put something on, god

I loooove it when Talay shows his considerate and caring side ughughugh

HUG!!!! I LOVE HUGS!!!!!

Also, FORESHADOWING OF THE CLIMATIC HUG???

“I stayed in. I didn’t contact anyone. I didn’t go anywhere” YOU WERE HEADIN’ STRAIGHT FOR DEPRESSION THIS IS SERIOUSLY NOT GOOD

“I couldn’t resist seeing you” You’re still allowed to SEE EACH OTHER!!!!

And if parting (to see each other next time) hurts that badly I /need/ you to get help

Talay immediately wants the dirt aksdfj

Puen looks like he needs a shower, when was the last time young man

“I like when you eat” I like when YOU take care of yourself

Is Up’s “foul mouth” a lost in translation thing? He was fine to me

I wonder if the high-five miss was a legitimate mistake and the actors just went with it lmao

Puen protecting the cookies for Talay lmao

Also wait their first movie failed even though we know Puen wrote the script from the heart so I guess Thailand just hates love

TALAY BEING IN LOVE!!!!

Oh my god if he did that to my ear he wouldn’t be in love because he’d be dead

Hey guys you know what else makes one tired? Se–

Talay putting his hand on Puen’s wrist ;;;;

Talay: I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IIIIIIS

Omg this scene confused the shit out of me before they revealed it’s a whole-ass brain production by one lovesick Puen <<<<< LITERALLY WILL NEVER STOP LOSING MY GOD DAMN MIND OVER THIS LIKE PUEN REALLY DID COME UP WITH AN ENTIRE SCENARIO IN HIS HEAD ABOUT HIM AND TALAY LIVING TOGETHER AND IT WAS SO REALISTIC NONE OF US EVEN DOUBTED IT WASN'T ACTUALLY HAPPENING BECAUSE IN PUEN'S MIND THEIR RELATIONSHIP WOULD VERY MUCH STAY THE SAME EVEN IF THEY WERE TOGETHER. THEY WOULD STILL BICKER AND BANTER AND TEASE EACH OTHER BUT ALSO KISS AND BANG AND BE BOYFRIENDS. GOD IT'S ME AGAIN DON'T HANG UP IM IN A SITUATION

Damn, dream!Talay wants to stop watching the movie and “get ready for bed”, that popcorn disaster really did it for him huh <<<<< PUEN MADE HIM SAY THAT WITH THE MOST STUGGESTIVE TONE AND EXPRESSION TOO HE REALLY WAS ABOUT TO MAKE TALAY AS HORNY AS HE IS

DID HE REALLY SPELL OUT THE WHOLE THING TO TALAY IRL???? <<<<< YEP. YEAH. LIKE I REALLY NEED YOU TO LET THAT SINK IN FOR A SECOND. PUEN JUST SPENT 5 WHOLE MINUTES REVEALING TO TALAY ALL OF HIS ROMANTIC DOMESTIC HALF HORNY FANTASIES DOWN TO THE DETAILS AND TALAY STILL THINKS HE'S DOING IT FOR THE BIT. AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY DID I GO CRAZY JUST BLAME THESE TWO

“Seeing you 24/7 is heartwarming” my heart <<<<< puen really has been wanting to spend his entire time with talay since the beginning and yes it's because he's in love but he also just enjoys talay's company so much IM 🤧🤧🤧

Mm, I’m split on Talay’s “you should see others too” because yes it’s NEVER a good idea to obsessively attach yourself to just one person but on the other hand Talay probably doesn’t realise Puen’s just super-in-love <<<<< talay saying that always makes me want to tear my hair out in frustration and at the same time it's the reason why episode 7 is so emotionally satisfying to me, because he really Does Not Get It yet, how deep puen's feelings run and how honest he's being and how much he wishes for them to have a future together. at this point their attitude towards being each other's portkey also changed from the beginning, with puen now wanting and believing that to be true and talay thinking they should look for someone else, and you can sense the tension building and building until it's going to snap next ep

Oh right I forgot there was an intro <<<<< not to be disgustingly biased once again but vice versa best intro of the year i haven't skipped it ONCE in all the times i've rewatched the show

“I haven’t seen him for a week” Jesus <<<<< I SWEAR PEOPLE IN LOVE ARE SO ANNOYING THEY HAVEN'T SEEN EACH OTHER FOR A WEEK AND THEY'RE ACTING LIKE IT'S BEEN YEARS AND THERE'S AN ENTIRE OCEAN SEPARATING THEM WHEN TUN'S FAMILY'S PLACE IS PROBABLY JUST A TOWN OVER Y'ALL ARE SO EMBARRASSING ✋😭

Why is Talay such a stick in the mud sometimes, fuck your game and play the guitar <<<<< talay CAN be a bit harsh and uptight sometimes but he always ends up feeling bad and making up for it because in the end he can't really say no to puen (good luck with that talay sfjksgdksg)

I’m so glad exams are a thing of the past, oh my god, fuck school <<<<< BIG SAME TBH that's not a period of my life i want to revisit

Tess’s friends getting all confused because their obnoxious friend got all solemn // But it’s nice that they took him seriously and came to cheer him up <<<<< i swear kita and fuse are SUCH GOOD HOMIES and they care so much for their friend even if from their point of view he changed a lot and doesn't spend a lot of time with them anymore TESS DOESN'T DESERVE THEM

WHY IS HIS FRIEND SLEEPING THERE // AND HIS OTHER FRIEND THERE <<<<< tess' bed is big enough to fit the three of them but talay really said puen is the only person allowed to sleep next to me y'all can take the floor ✋

Yeah so the behavior Puen is exhibiting right now is not healthy, this is where he should indeed be spending time with others <<<<< this is something i haven't really talked about because a lot of people don't have the most positive feelings towards puen and i don't want to look like im justifying everything he does but tbh i think some of his behaviors tell a lot about the state of his mental health. there's a reason why he didn't want to go back to be himself and his real life, there's a reason why he went as 'tun' for so long and didn't tell talay his real name, and it has a lot to do with the fact that he never really liked being 'puen'. as soon as he loses the things and people that keeps him anchored (talay, up, aou, the screenwriting) he goes back to self-destructive behaviors that the show can't really explore in depth but are definitely there (like you mention in another comment i do think puen has struggled with depression in the past and i think the drink and drive is also a manifestation of that)

HUG!!!! I LOVE HUGS!!!!! // Also, FORESHADOWING OF THE CLIMATIC HUG??? <<<<< HUGS ARE THE BEST THING IN THE WORLD AND IM SO HAPPY PUENTALAY HAS LOTS OF THEM. it's also interesting to notice that in this episode there's definitely a big emotional shift in talay, who went from 'i don't like to be hugged' to hug puen basically in every episode from now on

“I couldn’t resist seeing you” You’re still allowed to SEE EACH OTHER!!!! <<<<< THEY REALLY ARE SO OVER DRAMATIC THEY STARTED COUNTING MINUTES AND SECONDS I HATE THEM ACTUALLY

Puen looks like he needs a shower, when was the last time young man <<<<< don't worry he's gonna ask talay to give him one soon

Is Up’s “foul mouth” a lost in translation thing? He was fine to me <<<<< i think talay mentioned that as something he missed from up in general, because usually up speaks very rudely (tho it's definitely something that doesn't translate as much in english because as a language it doesn't have all the different tones and polite particles that thai has)

I wonder if the high-five miss was a legitimate mistake and the actors just went with it lmao <<<<< im pretty sure it was an actual miss from the actors that they kept in the show!!! i think something like that happened at the end of episode 5 too, when up slapped the back of aou's head and aou's glasses fell on his face!!!

Puen protecting the cookies for Talay lmao <<<<< talay jokingly says he likes something ONCE and the next day he gets home to find the house filled to the brim with it hashtag true story

TALAY BEING IN LOVE!!!! <<<<< PHYSICALLY COMBUSTING EVERY TIME I SEE THE BED SCENE BECAUSE IT'S JUST!!!!!! SO MUCH!!!!!! talay saying what he missed about puen not because puen is listening but just because he feels like saying it and everything he lists being just so inherently PUEN and not linked to the body he inhabits  IM SORRY BUT THIS IS SIMPLY SO HIGH ROMANCE TO ME IF YOU SEE A HOODED FIGURE WANDERING THE STREETS WAILING DON'T BE AFRAID IT'S JUST ME

Oh my god if he did that to my ear he wouldn’t be in love because he’d be dead <<<<< sfjksgdj i've never had anyone touching my ears like that so idk how i'd react to it but i think at this point talay is so gone he'd let puen do anything to him [wink wink nudge nudge]

Hey guys you know what else makes one tired? Se– <<<<< i was about to say something but then i remembered talay suggested to pat puen's back and bum to help him get sleepy and puen was so on board with that....... UNBELIEVABLE

Talay: I WANNA KNOW WHAT LOVE IIIIIIS <<<<< at this point im pretty sure that's puentalay's go to karaoke song choice sfjksgf

[eternaldipshit]

chap 5 aside

okay so i just posted chapter five and idk how much i wanna address of what i’m feeling when no one even follows this blog but i want to get it all out before i forget

it’ll probably be reiterated in the next chapter notes if i remember but omfg i really showed my age by having to google ‘chef’s kiss’ after two people used it in comments like omfg i thought it was like a reference to another piece of media? that i was somehow unwittingly ripping off?? and then i saw what it actually was and i, for the first time, felt like an Actual Fucking Boomer

not that i’m THAT old but holy shit. i am so out of the loop these days. 

anyway the comments i’m getting are soooo fucking nice and i kind of want to respond to them but i’m so awkward and just really not into the whole socializing thing right now for reasons so just know that i’m reading and using them all as encouragement whenever i feel down on myself about this actual dumpster fire of a fic

so let’s see what else i wanna say about tubtuh before i forget uhh

so originally the plan was haha jk there was no plan but originally i had dave completely disenchanted with bro like just. idk. i was looking at it black and white, but after having a conversation with my father (who was psychologically abused as a child) i realized that this shit is A LOT more complicated. well to be fair to me i always knew dave’s relationship with bro was complicated af but i wasn’t giving it the proper depth that it should have. i think even after dave recognizes that he’s been abused and fully acknowledges it, he’ll still love his bro on some level. this is the guy he looked up to massively after all, who raised him, and who dave tried to emulate for a long ass time (though that might have been partially out of fear?). idk if i’ll ever do this complicated dynamic justice but i’m trying to make it as in-character as poss and i’m worried i’m fucking it up idk ughughugh

that wasn’t very coherent but moving on

i’m not good at writing dirk not only because he’s a hundred times smarter than me, but also because his character wasn’t as fleshed out as dave’s was (at least in my opinion) and part of the reason i was so excited about the epilogues was bc i wanted to see more of dirk finally after all these fucking years!!! and then the epilogues shot that hope in the head and shat on its corpse so i tossed that whole experience into an incinerator and tried my best with what was given before that. 

granted, some of his character was influenced by what all i read in that horrid piece of garbage - see: his breakdown in that last chapter. i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again - my take on epilogue dirk was that his enhanced prince of heart powers exacerbated his underlying issues with megalomania and his need to be in control. i don’t consider it out of the realm of possibility. even if i fucking loathed it to hell and back, it can be justified. 

i also see it as a flaming pile of horseshit tho, so there’s that. if you want to see my unfiltered thoughts on the epilogue, i’m pretty sure it’s the first post i ever made on this blog lmao fuck the epilogues. 

uhhhhh another thing i’m worried about is... pretty much all the beta kids lmao. i don’t think i have any of their voices right. also don’t wanna spoil anything but i really... never shipped dirk/jake with the exception of when it was first introduced and i was actively thrilled for an actual gay couple in a piece of popular media (which was a way bigger deal back then than it is now) and then things progressed and i just... jake seems... aromantic to me? i don’t think he’s asexual, but he only ever entertained the idea of romance when he felt romantic intentions directed at him. also, in his relationship with dirk (what little we saw of it anyway), he didn’t seem super into dirk in like the romantic sense? idk. i mean i know dirk was overbearing af but jake’s heart just didn’t seem in it and after that i’m pretty sure he’s like ‘i think i’m not meant for romantic relationships’ but i’m too lazy to check.

and i know that’s going to be a point of contention bc a LOT of people ship jake/dirk. and that’s fine, i’m obvs not against people shipping it, i just don’t think i would ever succeed in writing a dynamic that i can’t fully get behind? but we’ll see. 

also? jane got done fucking DIRTY in the epilogues. her and jade were both characters that i initially despised mostly bc i had this thing before college where i hated other women for no reason if they were too girly and heyo now i’m fucking gay.

anyway i love jane and jade now and jade also got done dirty in the epilogues (budum TSSS sorry) and i intend to ignore the epilogues espesh with those two bc again, fuck the epilogues. 

and the LAST point i will make in this already egregiously long post is that i have no idea how long i’m going to write this story, if i’m ever going to finish it, or even the direction it’s going. the end goal, though, is a happy ending. because these kids have been through hell and they deserve it.

i lied. the last point i will make: fuck the fucking epilogues. 

[johobi]

✨YOURE HONESTLY SO GOOD AT KEEPING READERS ON THEIR TOES & MAKING IT SO HARD TO PREDICT THE ENDING OF THIS FIC IN REGARDS TO WHO OC WILL END UP W/ & AN EXPLANATION TO CHAOS THATS OCCURRED IN HER RELATIONSHIP W/ JUNGKOOK IM JUST ASDFGHJKL THIS LAST CHAPTER HAS ME SCREAMING OMG I LOVED IT SO MUCH BUT IM JUST SO SHDKDNDK like omg that whole thing with tae?!?! i’m happy she’s had her lil thing with her bff who she’s loved since like forever but bUT /BUT/ 1/?

✨thAT SCENE OH DEAR GOD THAT SCENE (well written btw i was really horny by the end of it 😂) like she was in an emotional ally vulnerable place rn and i just don’t think what went on with tae was the smartest idea and i honestly don’t trust what she’s feeling rn bcuz idK IF SHE LOVE TAE OR GUK WOMAN NEEDS SOME TIME TO JUST RECUPERATE IF ANYTHING like i want her to be with jungkook cuz i’m convinced he had a reasonable explanation for all this but after she fucked tae?? 2/?

((more under read more))

She was definitely in an emotionally vulnerable and chaotic place. Whether what transpired is what she truly wanted, we’ll have to see in the next chapter. But her feelings for Tae are certainly genuine; it’s just a case of where Jungkook factors into it all, now. She really loves them both. But in what way? How has her love for them evolved over the span of the fic? HMMM.

✨ i don’t feel like they would be able to get past (plus he lied to her for three months was it?? pretty hard to forgive someone about that too aHHH) & that last line dear god ur a fucking brilliant have i mentioned that? i’m sitting there like “dAMN OC & TAE IS GUNNA BE IT” & u pull that last line & now i’m here like gURL WTF IT WAS SO VAGUE (which is whY I CANT TELL WHO SHELL END UP W/ & FIGURE ANYTHING OUT UR A GODDAMN QUEEN & I LOVE YOU) LIKE WAS IT A GOOD DREAM? BAD DREAM? 3/?

Jungkook is gonna find out what happened between her and Tae in the next chapter. He’s in the wrong, for sure, but how will he react to this? How he does will seal his fate. If he’s indignant and aggressive, despite the fact he is the one that fucked up their relationship, then the reader, feisty thing that she is, seems like the type to shut him down immediately (and considering Tae is now in the picture, Kook being angry will not end well for him). If he’s remorseful and understanding, there could be room for a dialogue. 

Alkdjalkj that last line was intentionally vague. It seems like a 50/50 split as to whether people think it’s a good or bad dream ;PPP

✨UGHUGHUGH SO MANY QUESTIONS I WANT ANSWERED LIKE WHY DIDNT JUNGKOOK SAY ANYTHING FOR SO LONG? WHY WAS HE SO SCARED TO JUST BE OPEN ABOUT IT IF THERE WAS A REASONABLE EXPLANATION? I WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT HIS FAMILY AND HOWS IS FIANCÉ DOING BCUZ UHM MS UR BOY IS A C H E A T E R aND what’s gunna happened when oc and tae wake up oOF like will it still be all happy lovey dovey or oc gunna be like i fUCKED UP bcuz she wasn’t in the best place emotionally 4/?

I won’t spoil how the reader comes by the info, but everything about Jungkook will be explained next chapter. It’s a good 50/50 split between him and Tae this time. And yeah the fic will pick up the next morning, so we’ll certainly see how that goes ;)

✨like she just found out her boyfie been cheating on her yOU DONT GO SCREW HER BRAINS OUT ON THE SAME DAY SHE FINDS OUT HER BOYFIE SCREWED HER OVER TAE GDI ughhhh i made this super long i’m sorry i just needed to let this all out and tell u i love u and ur amazing and honestly i’ll wait a million years for the next update bcuz if this is the content ur blessing us with it’s worth it all !!! sending all my love ur way

Please don’t apologise for sending me so many asks!!!! It was a joy to read them all and all the things you liked in particular and what parts of the story got to you the most!!! 

asldkjjj it’s very true that Tae kinda just fell into bed with her without much thought. But I think, to his credit, he did rebuff her on her first attempt because he could tell she was off (if only he could see inside her head and the extent of it tho). The confession caught him so off-guard - again, he wouldn’ve rebuffed her, likely, if she hadn’t reiterated it repeatedly - that it must have set his world askew. Because he’s obviously been harbouring feelings, too, and when the person you love most is pouring them out to you sincerely, kissing you back this time, then… I can’t blame him. I try to stay unbiased and look at my characters objectively, and after examining his actions in this chapter, I think his heart led him into their tryst. 

[stuartsutcliffee]

7, 20, 21, 23, 24, 25, 26, 28, 31, 32, 35, 37, i even took like five questions out!!!! you certainly dont have to answer now but whenever you feel like it!

7, 20, 21, 23, 24, 25, 26, 28, 31, 32, 35, 377. If John took you on a date, where would you go?Book store! Not like a chain, but like a hole in the wall, owned by some old lady with 8 cats who always has cookies on the counter. And we'd talk poetry and then go to like an animal adoption place and play with kittens and puppies and aw it'd be so fricken cute!! And soft!!20. Would you rather pet-sit Martha, or all of John's cats? John's cats! And Martha! Ughhhh I can't choose! I love all of them! Martha is so fluffy and was probably a lapdog, let's be real, but cats! Are so sweet! And they purr! Fuck if, I'll watch both of them. 21. Spend an afternoon shopping with Jane or have coffee with Cyn?I'd have coffee with Cynthia! She seems so sweet and I think we'd get along really well! Plus she needs some love, my poor baby. I just wanna smooch her face, too, cause it's a good face and she's pretty. 23. Opinion on Ringo's beard? Ringo is just a beautiful human being and that beard just enhanced that. 24. Beatle you'd marry? George❤️ light of my life. 25. Beatle you'd have a one night stand with? John, probably. I love him to pieces, but he's a lil clingy with his relationships and I'm not for that. 26. Beatle you'd tell your troubles to? Ringooooo! He seems so caring, and like he'd actually listen. 28. Go skiing with George or parading with Ringo? Listen, we've all seen the gif of George from Help! If anyone's gonna teach me how to ski, it's gonna be him. So, yea, skiing with Geo.31. If John was alive today, what do you think he'd be like? He'd be going to every single pride parade and supporting the fuck out of everyone, and like he'd be the one twitter that was there for kids to DM and come out to just so they could get it off of their chest and he'd probs cheer them on and fuck he'd be super cool. He'd also be his usual goofy as self, and probably post a lot of selfies and abuse all of his social media lmao. 32. Sgt Pepper outfits or collarless suits?Fuuuuuuuuuck I love them both! Ughughugh I'll go with Sgt Pepper cause I think those are pretty bomb and I would 100% wear them. 35. Which Beatle would you like to see in lingerie? Paul. In a fucking heartbeat. 37. A Beatles song you secretly dislike? All you need is love 🙃 guess it's not a secret anymore lmao This was fun omg thanks!