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rainswings · 8 months

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It breaks me, sometimes, when I hear about the dreams of my coworkers. One of the men who runs checkout stands went to art school and dropped out because he realized he couldn't make it, couldn't let art become a job, but fell for a girl there so hard, so deeply, she's now halfway across the world doing grad school and going to be an art conservationist, and before having this conversation and hearing this information I'd never seen so much happiness in his face, than when he spoke about how wonderful a job that is. I asked him what he drew, and he produced a little pocketbook full of the most intricate penwork, the berserk sword drawn in such detail I could feel the scrape and rough of the metal, chipped out with little black holes I thought I might fall into.

He's accepted this is his forever job, being a checkout clerk. He's willing to love a girl he won't see for years. I would break bones for him.

#rains talks #im in my feelings about my clerks tbh #them and my kitchen. its like second cousins. second coworkers #and i adore them so much more than i can say. so much more than they realize #everyone has tragedies of course. but those are my people. they are kind to me. and so frequently they are in the midst of agony.#his grandmother just passed recently. he was close. and the girl pretended to go on a date to make him jealous #i care about him so much. and hes really not the point. hes just who i heard about today.#i still miss justin. i pray kahnor is doing well or better. mikki i pray is alive #i love them all i love them i love them #i am going to weep because my love will save them from nothing.#uhhh. ok to reblog ig? its personal but i like the way i said this

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