#undiagnosed a Lot of thingd probably

[saturnniidae]

There is something deeply autistic about losing the only person who advocated for you at school who is incidentally the only person you really Have at all and letting yourself get kicked out despite how hard you worked to 'prove' yourself or however much you wanted it after subconsciously deciding without that there's nothing there or maybe even with any other people at all left for you and leaving to go to live as a hermit in the middle of fuckass nowhere desert for a year heavily fixated on hunting for something that might not have even been real