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haemosexuality · 8 months

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most of the schools i went to were catholic to its rlly surprising that i never had any type of religion class. it didnt actually affect anything other than us being made to stand in line and pray before class (and also sing the national anthem) but like you could just, Not do that and be chill

#i did go to catechism classes as a kid but that only lasted for a few months #i was 9 i think or 10 #kinda diff subject but i have a lot of memories of being 10-11 and figuring out religion #a lot of my memories for that time period are Gone I Am Memory Issues Man but not those for some reason #babies first independent thought <3 #i remember first doubting what i knew about god when i was like 7? but i shelved that until 5th/6th grade #as ive repeatedly brought up in this blog my sister died when i was in 5th grade which caused my parents to double down on the catholicism #at the same time i had found Atheist Progressive Facebook Pages and doubting everything #they made a routine of every day before bed reading me a passage from the bible and i had to sit there like yas queen so true #but me and this friend from school were heaving deep philosophical talks about religion dailyyyyyyyy #she reached the conclusion of god not being real a bit before me and i remember mentioning to my parents how i dont think thatd mean she #was gonna go to hell in one of the Nightly Bible Sessions #before i reached that conclusion i actually adopted the line of thinking thay god Was real #he just sucked ass and was a terrible being. and also fuck christianity #tho a few months later i went full atheist #one time me and that friend were on a fucking amusement park ride discusding religion. thats still funny to me #also a while later my mom started dipping her toe in other religions mostly as she tried to figure out how to deal w my sister dying #she got into spiritism and took me to like a. idk. lecture???? sermon??? i did not care so i daydreamed lesbian ever after highxmonster high #fanfiction during it. 👍#my dad also gave me a very long talk about how my mom was being tempted by the devil at that time which like. ok #also at age 11 the last time i went to church happened. it was on the 1 year anniversary of my grandpa dying (which also happened in 5th #grade) and his name was gonna be mentioned. i was already atheist then and i felt Very out of place. also intried convincing my younger #cousin the tooth fairy was real doing it #oh and i can never forget how i posted on facebook telling my extended family that i was an atheist and then my aunt held a prayer session #at her house while me n the other kids were playing and Loudly talked about how parents who let their children be atheists are doing the #devils work or whatever. or the family friend that told my mom the reason my sister died was bc my mom didnt go to church regularly #my mom didn't go to church regularly bc my sister was dying and she was busy trying to prevent that. lmao.#my sister dying actually had nothing to do w me questioning religion but literally everyone seemed to think so at the time. theyd be like #i know you might be angry at god because of your sister.... and i was like? no bitch theres just no scientific proof that guy exists what #oh there are so many typos and mistakes in these tags im not editing that. good luck

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