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Alphabetical Love

Alphabetical Love Written by: ladyatlas A, Ah, the one that I thought you are. It seems like I never learn. I still think that you're like just any other guys. You always speak none of what you yearn. You think through a notion that is hidden in this name. A thought that never had revealed your past and heartaches. What is in this game? A jolt or a jerk? It doesn't matter, as long as I love the smirk. Ah, you're that guy on my list. The kind that a sister would wish as a brother. The guy that feels my mourn The one that keeps me goin'. A, The blemish on the smooth skin A walking blind on the road. The kind of human I wanted to embrace. A man that heats my sleeping grace. A, The barefeet man on his own. The loveless wolf who wished to bestow, The uttered words, "I am dead a long time ago," Is the man I know I need in this world. A, Ah, you're the trampled I am the dust. I shall be with you at dawn Even in the tiniest of moans. A, I am here. Just like what I say you hear. That girl you tapped on the back As the woman you have awakened to join your pack. B, It's the bottom line The blurb, the bomb, the beast The paper dreams of your lips like wine Are the better version of the beat in the east B, Blossomed in an instant, As we traced every frown. You released my insanity With the magic of your words, no ambiguity B, Believe me, I can't stand not talking to you. You suppressed my old sand blue bayou. Bitterness tasted in those lips Babbling strength as might as the figs B, Bore me the smiles I always pray for Your whole that Almighty can stitch by four Your laughter in your eyes, your childlike wonders Pull you closer and closer to the face of your founders B, here I am with you Waiting in the dark to spark a light in you. You are not alone in this Gazillion stars of assurance, there is... C, The day I set my eyes on you... Oh not on your face, but to your soul of blue, I knew from there fate had decided We tear each other's wall and surround with dreams unclouded. C, You said, "For now I'll let you enjoy the feeling," But oh please, please...I'm no longer a teen of sixteens. This is not a fancy beat of heart But a hundred fold happiness blossomed in this art C, Suffocating it is that closed space becomes narrower. But what surprises me is that you never left me sober. In what has become of me is quite a big influence from your presence That in crushing is more like loving, I guess this will be the essence. C, The time is ticking, Six years can't keep lapsing Bundle of moments to catch up And sensible whispers to fire up. C, let's be clear... I am here. This word you only hear and fear, They are shown to you every single day Hoping that someday this crush won't ever go away... D, I guess seeing you is like a ghostly approach, Just like stepping out of my dreams and prose. Nine years ago, on a blissful school day You stepped into the realm I thought I have molded in clay. In other dreams, I see you crying. Seldom speak, just dragging me to places I hardly thought I'd be in. Oh how I wish to wipe your tears But somehow I always wake up with all the same fear. I fell in love, I thought it was you Walking out of my dreams like it was deja vu. But somehow, I never learn I still got the heart to which I feel the burn Diving in seasons, I now forget about you Yet one day in virtual world there is actually "You" At first I shrug at it, "No, that can't be..." Who am I fooling? A heart of fallacy? Brother, that's what I wanted to feel about you Who am I fooling again? It has always been you. Torn, setting drifts, I know this turbulence Now I'm letting go, start the countdown to acceptance. D, The dreams, dramas, delights... Laughters, tears, nostolgias in the night. Somehow, I am here wanting you more Excited to realize emotions, I am now sure. E, My recent mood is blue Bland seens like a "shoo" But since I say I'll be fine God will test this gold, be refined E, Sometimes, it hurts looking back Wishing 10 years earlier to pack Can't stop but to really envy At times and people who stabbed you slowly E, I would guess, it is obvious You are the one in these folios And I would guess again You will always come and then refrain E, If by suffering, I have to endure Your lukewarm touch and faint allure Yet this heart would always pray The pain and numbness will go away E, I miss you, even your thoughts But seems like mile of heavens you're sought And please I plead, have mercy on me Praying one day universe will push to me F, Truth or consequence, we never really matter But how you treat me every minute is what makes me shiver How it gravely affects me whenever you're on a hover Reminds me of how I wanted to embrace you over and over F, How glad was I that you can always say "hi" to me Sad was I when you're on room of white, not of glee In my eyes, I still see you strong and courageous Lukewarm heart, I still think it's enormous F, This should be long like the river But secondary emotions always cut me deeper I shall say vacancies these lines have detailed But yes, for now, your health must be prayed