#weird and probably uncalled for personal post bc it’s late and my mind is wandering

[sunnibits]

yknow, I feel like we often tend to visualize progress as a staircase - very straightforward, you keep taking these easy little steps up until you finally reach the promised land of some finished goal. but tbh you know what progress really feels like to me? like the most twisted, shitty Sisyphean game of chutes and ladders. just an endless fuckin loop of climbing and falling over and over again. and goddamnit, I fucking KNOW that chutes and ladders is probably a more realistic and healthy expectation of how progress works, but I just wish I didn’t keep sliding my ass down all those goddamn chutes, you feel me??