#what a dingus... genuinely in love with this bot

[earthstellar]

reminder for healthcare staff: the 14th is Valentine’s Day, if someone asks you out on this date specifically for non-work related activities, then you might be getting asked on a date. evaluate accordingly. you’re welcome

fully convinced that all of us working in any capacity in healthcare are all so fucking oblivious to getting hit on 

I genuinely was talking to a junior doctor over the phone real quick and in like a five minute conversation this poor dude was like “haha yeah my friend X [who I am aware is also a junior doctor, but is working at another hospital currently] was asking me what I was doing on the 14th--”

and I was like “ooh, Valentine’s Day”

and he paused 

and I swear to god I could hear his brain going “OH FUCK DOES SHE LIKE ME” in real time, lmao. it didn’t register to him before this very moment 

so I asked him if he wanted me to like, see if we could find cover for him, maybe he should like, call her back at his next break, immediately maybe. does he know any consultants that might be available or what, like, how can I help here my dude LOL 

and he was like “YES-- yes, that would be great, cheers- if you could I’d really appreciate it” lmao 

of course, I fully admit I am not any better. 

in fact I am worse, quite possibly.

if you think you’re oblivious to getting hit on, you will never defeat me in the realm of “ignorance around being crushed on”, I’m telling you:

long story short I have fucked up catastrophically on three notable occasions, one in which, many years ago... oh god here we go 

I was taking a nap with Z at their flat and tl;dr I woke up first and since we had to go to an event in like an hour I went to wake them up and the first thing out of their just-waking-up mouth was “I love you” and I was like aww they’re dreamin’ about a crush 

I was too fucking oblivious to realise it was me, I was the crush. 

I only found out that I was, in fact, the crush once they moved back to Poland and I was like WOW I COULD NOT HAVE FUCKED UP WORSE lmao holy shit 

now, you might think that 1) sleeping in the same bed as them 2) in retrospect, being very friendly and getting along extremely well all around and 3) having been friend like this for a reasonably long time may have all been contributing elements that may have tipped me off that I was, in fact, the crush they was talking about while still in a partial state of sleep, before they were fully conscious and able to self-censor 

however, I am a fucking dingus, and at NO POINT did I ever think, “hey maybe this person who has just said “I love you” upon waking up in a bed we have just been sharing may or may not be referring to me” 

truly. truly it did not occur to me as a possibility. I found out, genuinely, years later. YEARS LATER. 

so I mean, that’s not even the worst one. believe me I am so fucking oblivious. oh my god it’s so bad 

but why is it such a trend that healthcare staff, in so many cases, just cannot register for shit when we have some Relationship Potential going on??? these are not isolated events LOL 

why am I talking about this on my Transformers blog? 

welllll

I just assume that medic bots are more or less like this, too-- maybe not all of them, but many of them 

even after living together on the Lost Light, it took a reasonably long time for IDW 1 Ratchet to seemingly realise that maybe he should go get his not-boyfriend so he can maybe become his actual boyfriend/conjunx like maybe he should fucking go find him!!!  where is Drift!!! 

like it took him that long to think “oh fuck maybe I have a crush on this doofus I constantly hang out with and complain with and share some reasonably significant history with” 

and I feel that. I really do, lmao oh godddd  

and we don’t see many, if any, of the other medics in confirmed relationships/conjunx arrangements 

I suspect that if Ambulon survived, it’s entirely possible First Aid might have eventually developed some kind of a more involved relationship with him, but that’s just my personal take on that whole situation 

given what I’ve seen IRL, it seems to be a common problem with healthcare people that we just CANNOT understand when a potential relationship is presenting itself as an opportunity 

it’s not everyone, but it sure is a lot of us 

part of this is quite possibly just the workload and nature of the work, which is probably doing uniquely fucked up things to our brains in regards to how we understand social cues/other people and how we interpret certain situations 

and I also genuinely believe a lot of people that work in healthcare almost certainly have undiagnosed neurodivergencies which may explain some of how we seem to perpetually miss social cues etc. (at least to some degree and again, it’s not all of us, just very possibly a lot of us) 

but idk I feel like we sort of see this possibility in various Transformers continuities, too, where medic characters are often just not quite socially aware or might engage socially but miss the mark a little repeatedly etc. (Cyberverse Ratchet in the dance party scene comes to mind, where he’s info dumping about a surgical procedure during a soiree) 

(I will eventually write a very long post about neurodivergency and neuro diversity in Transformers media, both canonical and non-canonical, at some point in the future so I won’t elaborate too much at the moment) 

anyway 

I’m super tired so I don’t even know if this is coherent, but I thought I’d share because damn I hope these junior docs get to go on their date, LMAO