#what happened to agnes and agatha after wanda left westview /in ff/ is EXTREMELY dark

[aparticularbandit]

the amount of trauma wendy experienced maintaining neverland is not the same as the trauma wanda did not experience maintaining westview primarily for one reason:

wanda subconsciously ran westview; wendy consciously ran neverland.

everything that wanda was controlling, everything that she scripted, was stuff that went on in the background of her mind like when your computer scans or maintains other programming while you’re browsing the internet or writing in a word document.  she was aware that the computer was running, but not every program or what it was doing (or why it was breaking).

wendy controlled everything.  she very consciously controlled everything.  which meant she was also very consciously aware of everything.  which is why she was sequestered in the center of neverland with her barrier to protect her while another version of her got to run around with her lost ones (or do other things).

like - i don’t know how much of the scope of what wendy spent doing for those two years in neverland will be addressed (i think the moment she went back to is implied, but there’s so much more to it than that) - how she might have tried to be subconscious about things at first, the way wanda was, and when she found things breaking, as they inevitably would, she rebooted and made sure to consciously control everything because that was the only way to keep everyone happy and make sure that everything was going and moving correctly (and this is probably where the white streaks in her hair come in - from everything she’s seen, everything she’s stopped, everything she hasn’t stopped and probably should not have seen but couldn’t not see if she was going to maintain everything)--

like.

there is so much in those two years that i’m just.  probably not going to actually specifically address in the narrative proper.  but definitely had an effect on her.