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wolfwarrior142 · 2 years ago

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As someone who relates to Rayla on a ton of personal/internal stuff and has actually seen some improvement in my own massive self confidence issues as a result of seeing her try to work through hers (both in this season and previously) and work on trusting people better, I hate that people are saying that bullshit. Oh no, characters who appear strong because of unhealthy coping mechanisms they've learned now learning how to develop more healthy ones. While also becoming close with those around them as a result. Oh no. The humanity. It's so awful to see. Especially in a show that's technically a kids show. And can maybe help kids. The humanity.

I'm glad I haven't actually seen anyone say that personally, cuz thats a very toxic mindset for people to have and I'd get so...annoyed with it. I'd block em immediately for sure cuz no one needs that bullshit.

people watching rayla learning how to trust / let other people help her, which a lack of was her entire fucking problem in arc 1: is this a bad character arc

#like im so serious rayla showing her self confidence issues all throughout the show especially in season 3 is one of the big things that #actually made me realize i have very similar issues and other stuff that i need to work on #when youve had the issues and associated coping mechanisms for as long as you remember its...hard to realize it #and that personal work needs to be done to try and fix them #i still have a ton of work to do on a daily basis but seeing rayla express and talk about it even in an unhealthy way is carthritic #dont get me wrong it also makes me sob because Ow Thats Me but its also weirdly carthritic #like the oasis scene? still one of my fave scenes even tho it makes me ugly cry every time. same for the scene on the back of the ambler #when callum is talking about what makes rayla who she is. cuz it helps me see that i relate to some of those as well and should work on #viewing myself better. especially when seeing rayla's reaction. its also just such an amazing and sweet scene #both those scenes make me ugly cry. and the big feelings time with amaya and rayla in s5 also makes me cry especially talking about being #stronger together because its just So Goddamn Sweet and something i also need to remember #(like i was literally told in nursing school and by counselors that i need to work on asking help from others more cuz not doing that when i #need help is an unhealthy trait ive subconsciously developed to cope and need to work on. so yeah that scene hit hard)#so yeah god forbid people try to work on their personal issues to improve their mental health and stuff #(also at the same time past nursing teachers and counselors told me i need to ask for help more they also told me that i need to work on not #putting others over myself all the time. theyre like its amazing that you naturally care so much about others but that cant last forever if #you never care about yourself. and tis true cuz ill defend someone who deserves it at the drop of a hat but fighting for myself is extremely #difficult for me. tis rough. oh boy its real Telling My Life Story Hours isnt it jesus christ)#but yeah anyone who says that about rayla can shove it #if i ever see someone say that shit itll just be an immediate block no interaction just a block cuz i dont need that negativity about my #fave and also i dont know if id be able to trust myself to not say something needlessly rude as a result #fuckin hell i need to shut up with the personal shit in the tags. but i just cant help it when its about a character who i relate to a #weirdly high degree #i mean fuck theres all that and ive also always been fascinated with knives and have had a legit phobia of water since i was at least 10 if #not younger despite learning how to swim very well as a real young kid then the phobia developed for some reason #so every time rayla is scared of water im like 'god dude fuckin same' i sometimes even get nervous when im taking a shower and like 6 inches #of water accumulates in the tub. ill realize it and feel a little panic set it before having to talk myself down. i usually cant take a bath #anymore. any body of water can go fuck itself. id have a panic attack if i was shoved into water completely unexpectedly. just look up #thalassophobia on google images and all those pics give me instant fear. and those water tunnels in aquariums? or just aquariums in general?#NO. hard pass. and i can kinda handle boats....kinda. only if theyre not rocking. and im not near the edge. otherwise hard no

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