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happywitch416 · 10 months

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Today is the day for the appointment with the new doctor. As I sit here, forcing myself to choke down a protein bar because otherwise I will eat nothing, I can't help but wish I could record this moment, the thoughts in my head with a counter of how many times I do this in say a month.

But by all means, please continue telling me I eat my emotions and eat too much.

And don't move enough. As if I can't and haven't been deadlifting furniture for the past week and will be for the rest of this week without breaking a sweat. Or the fact the only way I can keep my knee flexible and functioning is by keeping it moving.

But perhaps we will do my favorite thing where someone who doesn't know me tells me how I feel.

Bitch I live with these moods, if something gets fucky I will know about it even when I'd rather fuckin not.

#part of me is like yeah well just get this over with and this doc will be just for med refills and antibiotics #but that whole tasting blood when i breathe is concerning to say the least. and id like my knee at least xrayed #which youd think wouldnt be asking for much and yet ive had two doctors refuse so far #i dont want a miracle. or even a new knee. i just want to know why it hurts #and going well youre fat is not the answer #bc yes i am fat i do not wake up shocked every morning but i somehow doubt that the injured knee acting up to the point i limp #is bc im fat. i really do think that is because of the 8ft drop on to it. ive been wrong before but not this time lol #the witch speaks #tw medical #can i experience a not fatphobic doctor please. i miss having that.

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