#why is it sooo awkwaaaard

[vroomvroomwee]

As a socially anxious person I can safely say that no awkwardness in the history of human kind is as intense as the awkwardness when having to write a script for your DR in BROAD FUCKING DAYLIGHT

[wolfiesdreamjournal]

12-26-20 Awkwaaaard...

Last night I had two dreams. They were both long and I think it’s because the first one was so weird that it made me remember the second, although I already forgot the second dream after waking up. lol

The first dream involved my ex-crush...yaaay... The fucked up part is that it’s about him discovering Chase, the OC I created based on him. I think what happened is the whole time I was trying to run away from him and his questioning. It kinda felt like that time in elementary school when my first crush back then found out that I liked him through a snitching little girl telling him. (You fucking snitch. I still remember that, asshole, wherever you are.)

Ex-crush apparently saw pictures of Chase online and somehow we work in the same office(?) So during work and after work, I tried to escape him. I don’t think he was angry, just kinda confused and teasing me about it. Again, like my first crush. Honestly, his behavior is believable considering how I knew him. I don’t think he’s an angry person. I was still hella embarrassed though.

I don’t quite remember his exact words, but I feel like he must have asked why I made Chase chubby. Welp, sorry not sorry but chubby Chase is hotter than you.

I’m sorta glad I don’t remember much more. lol But if this guy reacts any way like he did in my dream...maybe him knowing about Chase wouldn’t be so bad after all. I have suspicion he actually does know Chase because there was a time when I had the “visitors” window on my deviantart profile page and I saw his account pop up in like 2014...a whole year after we had blocked each other. That was MEGA awkward. I remember freaking out to my friend about it on Skype that day, because the first thing that you saw on my dA profile was Chase. XD

Anyway, I totally forgot my second dream now sooo...this is it. lol