#writingdora

[kuwdora]

that perennial fic writing experience. where you have the idea and you know the shape of the story you're trying to share. right? right. 😅

a bajillion months ago i had sent @witch-and-her-witcher some of my ciri fic draft. and after some back and forth about what was going on, here was Cee's conclusion:

i gotta tag @xianvar here 'cos i have said the same thing to them once upon a time and their big bang turned into a galactic 100k bang. i can hear them cackling already. @witch-and-her-witcher you were of course right. 😆 i've managed to write 300 words here and there for the last few weeks. all wrapped up in the ciri book feelings. and. well. here is the current wordcount next to my original wordcount goal:

14k of ciri feelings. and i think i've pretty much reached the part of the story that i had actually intended on writing when i first had the idea.

also i know @sassaffrassa will be pleased to hear that i didn't let myself get lost in all of the other story ideas that sprung up during the drafting process. 'Cause I remembered the core of what I wanted to explore with ciri and ye olde book events that got glossed for game canon. putting all the other ideas in a separate document so I don't get lost again. too many ideas.

i doubt it'll stay at 14k but i think (knock on wood) i have the foundation down by now. gonna try to get it into better shape in the next few weeks if i can keep my momentum going.

writing!!! am so tired. reading!! am so tired. but by god i am going slowly keep doing the things i'm enjoying. ❤️

[kuwdora]

WIP Wednesday

witcher. book yennefer + freya. 😎

"Oh, for fuck's sake, if this is what passes as foreplay for the gods…" Yennefer mutters. She leans in and kisses the golden-eyed woman.

[kuwdora]

oooh I got tagged by @ghostinthelibrarywrites for a six sentences. This isn't six sentences but it is mother day so here is book Yennefer and Freya. A messy snippet. Which is next in my wip queue.

The Great Mondren lifts Brisingamen from her chest holds it out for Yennefer to see. Her breath catches on the heady, crackling magic that floods her senses. She had used Brisingamen in her megascope before. It was a diamond inside a tool. When Yennefer was a young woman she had chosen to pair obsidian with diamond for her pendant. Many gemstones could be used to channel and focus Chaos.

Yennefer's pendant was nothing compared to the infinitesimal power crackling in Mondren's hand. Brisingamen was not a tool. It was part of the Great Mondren.

Mondren strokes Yennefer's cheek and her arms erupt in gooseflesh.

[kuwdora]

ao3 is down but i'm writing the thanedd fic that i need right now.

[kuwdora]

Newjob anxieties really has me wiped. job transition is such a thing. particularly after a spate of some bad/awkward/frustrating job circumstances. And a fuck of a time job hunting to get here. Been rough going especially during the week, leaving me lower energy than usual. Newjob seems to be working out pretty well, though. I like it and am getting a lot out of it but I don't think the anxieties will go away for awhile until I feel more settled.

mmm, fannishly. I remain in so much love with all the new Star Trek Lower Decks and have like 2 posts inside me of raving about my love but I doubt I'll get around to writing it in full. I have so much love about it. god.

I somehow managed to watch all of The Fall of the House of Usher over the weekend. It's like Mike Flanagan is hooked into my brain sometimes for things that make me tic, it's great. Gnashing my teeth on the cinematography and Carla Gugino and all the awful bisexuals in this show.

Still trundling away with editing and working on like four different Witcher fics. Trying to finish things. I'm very pleased and still very excited about my Witcher stuff. Also my to-read fic tabs are so exciting, I can't wait to have enough brain to read and comment again.

For All Mankind is coming back soon, so I will be losing my goddamn mind again on a week to week basis for that and I'm so thrilled for season 4.

Also contemplating signing up for festivids for the first time since 2019. The nominations are looking pretty good, though I don't know what I'd actually want to ask for yet. Know what I'd want to vid though. Decision time later this week, maybe.

[kuwdora]

Talk shop Tuesday: which of your WIPs are you most excited about right now? 💚

Ooohh, my current WIP I'm veryyyy excited about is this silly, smutty Yen/Geralt/Jaskier that's Geralt POV. Some kink, but mostly it's soft established relationship feelings all around. Plus some bad jokes and/or puns I might sprinkle in last minute, ehehh. I had been chipping away on it off and on for the last few months and I have two small sections I'm grumbling about and then! Then I can do a light editing pass and set it free. What a joy that will be, 'cause I'm really quite fond of this fic.

[kuwdora]

WIP Snippet Sunday

@gleamingsilence tagged me...recently? Right? Anyway so have a snippet from the Vilgefortz fic. All my feelings about the Witcher canons and these characters. That's why this fic is somehow 14k and I'm probably gonna add another 2k of an interlude. No one can stop me (but I always value it when sass reminds me of what I said I'm trying to do with the story. It's very helpful.)

“I’ve met no other who embodies contradiction as you do. You’ve allowed yourself to be shackled by the definitions from others. Mutant. Witcher. Butcher. At the same time you’ve managed to elude responsibility in name only, all while trying to keep the whole world from crashing down on a young girl’s shoulders. You’ve grown beyond these prescriptive titles.”

Vilgefortz licked his lips and stepped closer to the portrait.

“This was suppose to be my prelude… but you walked away. I wanted to show you Tor Lara, take you to the precipice and have you look into the abyss. I want to see how you might face death. I need to see your reactions so I can know what your breaking point will be. I wanted to see what kind of problems you’ll present should you survive the night. So I wonder: will it tear you asunder to be parted from the girl? Will that change your Nature? They say the bonds of Destiny cannot be broken by man nor god.”

Vilgefortz sighed and pumped his cock several more times. “But then I am no mere man, nor mere god.”

[kuwdora]

I am so stressed that I feel like I'm getting an ucler or something. All I wanna to do is just decompress and work on my fic. unclench and not feel guilty about my anxiety and life stuff...or have the stress lingering in the back of my mind. Writing has helped with this in the past. But the last few weeks I've reach the end of my day and my brain is just floating in a bag of anxiety and I caaaaan't make words. I can only think about writing. At least I've managed to unfuck the snarly bits of my draft before this latest Anxiety happened. So tired. I just need to survive this week. just like last week and the week before. I want to make more words....horny philosophical words...vilgefortz...and geralt... it's 18k...i could probably write like 2k about me spiraling out of control about this writing experience but I don't actually know if that would be interesting to read about. my writerly brain has been catching up to me since it got disconnected by The Depression nearly a decade ago. Brain has woken up now. no longer feel like a desiccated husk. it's really is a joy, even when writing is hard. cause i love writing so much and i couldn't do it for so long. and also omg I just all the other fic growing in my brain. words. i want them out of me. and that sweet ambrosia of Finishing Things and posting. my yennskier fic wips... my radskier wip(s??)... all the other wips. piles of wips. my Ciri grief thing. my words. my storiessss. i have well over 60k of stuff that i need to finish, edit, and post. so many words already there. aaahhh.

writing! but anxiety brain. augh.

[kuwdora]

season 3 of witcher netflix has me losing my mind like, I am still rolling around in my vilgefortz wankery. it's still 10k and messy and hilarious and sexy and so thinky. but oh my god i told @flootzavut about the post-3x06 yennskier idea that i didn't have the brain to write....and then i ended up starting to write it anyway. and now i need to be able to write two things at one time otherwise i might just disintegrate. could I be writing anything more different right now? lmao. Not sure how I'm gonna make it during August.

[kuwdora]

i've continued to write myself into a tizzy with this vilgywank. I'm completely, adoringly unhinged about it. this is 100% a fic about TWN vilgefortz and geralt scenes. It is also 100% a fic about the book vilgefortz and geralt scenes. I am going to have it all my way. All of the cakes. I shall have them. Even if it is nigh incomprehensible. As long as I manage to make @dragneto and @sassaffrassa howl with laughter, then it's all good. I cut several thousand words already so I could actually go back and fill out the parts I need to so this fic stays on topic since I will always go off into the weeds. But I also accidentally mindfucked myself into another vilgefortz story for later. a fic idea that i think requires me to revisit more book and show things and decide just how far down my own rabbit hole i'm going to fucking burrow over the next year. if I do go down my rabbit hole, i'll leave crumbs for at least @sassaffrassa and @witch-and-her-witcher and a few of you others who will follow me and my nonsense. I would appreciate it if vilgefortz didn't hijack my life for the rest of the summer. I have yennskier stories to write and finish, fucking hell! I have a completely and soul-wrenching treatise I need to finish about Ciri and grief, fucking fuuuck. but. vilgefortz and geralt. it compels me.

anyway if any of you see me reblogging any tumblr writer ask posts, someone shoot me with a nerf gun and tell me to go back to my fic. i don't need to let myself get distracted when I actually have momentum with this fic, omg.

[kuwdora]

For Talk Shop Tuesday: When you have a new fic idea, are you a planner who outlines things, or do you just wing it and let your story go where it will?

I've been both a pantser and planner over the years. I used to go naked into a draft and to see where it takes me. I find that really fun and interesting to explore. But these days I'm very scattered and unfocused since my writing habits have been messed up by stress. I find myself needing a little structure to get me started and help me remember where the idea might be leading me. So these days I'm doing more outlining. I love me a good list of bulletpoints. When I'm starting out I usually just have sparse ideas I jot down and the outline will grow from there. While drafting I'll prune and start tossing things into a separate idea bucket as things evolve, 'cause I still wander off the beaten path and end up writing things that don't end up fitting for that particular story but would probably make a nice little ficlet or another long story. For instance: I was stuck on my geralt/jaskier scribe fic and I tried to write what happened before the fic started so I could understand their headspaces a little better.... I had no outline, just an idea and a question in mind. In like a week I ended up writing 18k of backstory of what was feeling like a new 50k story that would also lead to two other stories. I just end up having too many ideas for most of the fic I end up starting. I've found my messy gardening process works best for my stories that are in the 10k-25k range. Stories that are longer I end up with a bloated outline that isn't benefiting me as much as it should cause it just gets out of control. Which is probably why I haven't managed to finish or post any of my longer fic. My stories that are less than 4k are easier for me wrestle without much detail in ye olde bulletpoints.

[kuwdora]

WIP Snippet tagged by @beatrice-otter for some last lines. This is from my Witcher Netflix/Witcher Books Vilgefortz story. This fic is philosophical wank. vilgywank. also literal wank. horniness and symbolism. all about self-reflection. and dick. among other things...

“Don’t fall asleep,” he ordered and pulled Geralt’s hair gently. Geralt slow blinked like a cat. “So tell me a story,” Geralt said and closed his eyes. Vilgefortz smothered the witcher’s obstinacy with an open-mouthed kiss. Geralt groaned and squeezed Vilgefortz’s thigh, pulling his leg over his hip. “If you were able to create one universal condition and apply it to the world, what would that be?” Vilgefortz asked against Geralt’s lips. “The freedom to never be asked this question by you.” Vilgefortz pulled his hair again. Geralt smirked.

Currently 6k right now and probably gonna be in the 7-9k range. Definitely gonna be the most incomprehensible thing I've written but I'm fairly possessed at this point. Need to get it out of my system before I can ge back to my yennskier screaming. I got a lotta editing ahead of me too. but omg... there's so much happening. Maybe I'll drop another snippet this weekend. I think some of this is pretty good but also I'm feeling kind of deranged about it so it might be the worst thing ever.

[kuwdora]

I have my main fic WIP that I have been trying to work on for a week now. just ripe for me finishing. and of course I was innocently looking (being distracted) by someone who posted about an open fandom event that still needed some fic/art fills. and i found some sapphic book prompts that tickled my brain and I managed to write and post a ficlet for them in a day. which fun and lovely, 'cos writing and posting is very nice and I'm glad that I can in fact not overthink too much and write a thing and post it. now i have to wait for reveals next week and make sure I don't go back and keep adding things because i can just call it done, you know? and now i have my other wips that i have allllll the time to spend on and... wips. i love you so fucking much. but gosh i am just not even stuck on them. i know what i want to work on and have to do to finish it. but the executives in brain are not functioning. hrrmpthh.

[kuwdora]

ayyy, i swear i didn't think this vilgefortz fic wouldn't get that much longer. but he just has to keep waxing philosophical. 😅 why does this always happen to me?

also i'm going to struggle with what tags i can include to imply how funny this really is.

[kuwdora]

I'm slowly trundling along with some witcher WIPs. Geralt and Yen and Jaskier silliness and softness. Also dabbling in the Ciri grief story again, although I've been spinning my wheels on that because my brain wants to start editing instead of finishing the draft. but it's good, I'm inching my way to finishing things. and then what happens? New idea that has taken up residence in my brain. I'm nearly a week into outlining a Tissaia lives AU and that's left me rather intrigued. Not sure how much I'll manage to write of it but mmm, the ideas are tasty. Also my brain is wandering back to some old witcher rarepair ficlets to finish them up, too. Stuff that I had started during previous @smubbles-etc rounds. I also did sign up for Festivids too and have a decent draft going. Deadline's not for awhile so I'm good on that. Love my assignment. I got some treat ideas too so I'll be reviewing my source for that later this month.

[kuwdora]

I've finished my draft of the vilgefortz fic and sent it off for beta. Golly, I might be able to finish the fic this month. 👀 an exciting prospect. It's still very messy in parts but alas, 'tis why I need a beta so I can see what's working and then smooth the rest of it out. Now I'm looking at my pile of WIPs and remembering that in June?? or maybe it was July?? I had promised myself I would only keep a few WIPs on deck so I could focus and actually finish things instead of wandering off to half-start another 8 things. I seriously have so much unfinished fic. But the siren call of new things.... I will be strong. I can finish more things. I think maybe my Ciri grief fic and a yennskier fic should be next. Along with all this Radskier stuff I'm batting around with @littlestsnicket. Mmmmmm, I also have so many Leshkel things too. Along with this post-canon Yennefer/Freya fic idea I got back in June. I don't even know what to do with this pile of Jaskier fic either. I love that stuff a lot, too.

how do you all not get overwhelmed by your stack of WIPs? man I'm not even thinking about my vid wips right now either. aahh. It's all so exciting and enticing to my squeeful brain.