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[girlinthecave]

Everyday I make mistakes

I am by far  away from perfect.

I am aware of some of my mistakes, some other are pointed at me.

But I am wrong a lot.

Sometimes feels like a lot a lot.

And I don’t mind being pointed for them.

17 years with someone pointing my errors, my every mistake, me being wrong didn’t bother.

What was hurtful was making me feel bad for them.

What was hurtful was making me feel stupid .

Today I felt like that.

And I know it was a dumb thing.

I know that.

That is my mistake right?

Its my perspective its me being wrong, or taking it the wrong way.

You can talk to me you know?

And its fine.

You tell me things, I tell you things we joke about it.

We mess it up , we are wrong, we laugh about it.

You keep telling me  if I am mistaken or not and that helps me.

This is not the first and won’t be the last.

That is fine.

Making me feel stupid is not.

I felt like that.

You didn’t notice.

It was a normal thing, non-intentional, I know that.

It was indeed stupid talk.

But I was vulnerable, I have been sad for days…its just a bad day…and then….I just felt the words in a different way.

They remined me of him.

Those days when I actuallyl felt stupid.

I am sorry I snapped.

But that’s the why.

My bad right?