#x: sabaism (about.)

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WHAT IS YOUR HATE LANGUAGE?

VIOLENCE.

Physical Violence is a common, yet bold hate language. It’s old as time and is as natural as rain. It’s often one of the first thoughts that come to us when we feel hatred, but you actually have the moxie to go through with it. Fist fights at bars and you think assassination is the best option in politics. You’re an absolute loose canon. Your most likely crime would be murder. The only down side of this hate language is how hard it is to get away with it.

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Character Sheet

basics.

full name. Lovisa Göta Sjögren

nicknames / aliases. Vega, Commander

age. Verse dependent, appears late twenties to early thirties

zodiac. Libra

spoken languages. Swedish, English, Icelandic, Chinese, Klingon, Vulcan

physical characteristics.

hair colour. Soft black

eye colour. Green, a jade hue

skin tone. Pale complexion, smooth, scarred and inked, but taken care of

body type. Toned, wiry, willowy, muscular

dominant hand. Left

posture. Decent, though she does slouch at times

scars. None due to an enhanced healing factor. (In modern verses: under her jaw and on her rib cage)

tattoos. Vegvisir on her right thigh, a personal rendition of hurðstoðva below the navel, and a small møðiríkr on the left wrist.

birthmarks. A few moles scattered across her body, starburst shaped birthmark below the clavicle on her left side

most noticeable features. Cheekbones of the gods, striking eyes

childhood.

place of birth. Vaxholm, Sweden, Earth

siblings. Levi Ludvig Sjögren, fraternal twin brother

parents. Albina Signe Sjögren and an unknown male donor

adult life.

occupation. Verse dependent but either: Commander (main) / Painter / Hitwoman / Unemployed

residence(s). Verse dependent but either: The SS Botany Bay or on a ship she probably stole (main) / The Enterprise (temporarily/undercover most likely) / Trondheim, Norway / Manhattan, New York

close friends. Verse dependent-- she's usually a loner and there are very few she considers friends. Her brother might count, though he is a fair-weather friend. (Fox / @vuulpecula has seen her at her worst and still stays by her side, Rick / @rickgrimesdoingrickthings somehow puts up with her nonsense, Khan / @respondedinkind has been through hell and back with her, and we're only just beginning. :') )

relationship status. Single by default, though in some verses she is committed (@respondedinkind cause whoops she's falling just as hard as the first time we wrote / @vuulpecula always of course / @rickgrimesdoingrickthings they are so cute together i'm gonna die)

Notable mentions: Nebula who ties into her GotG Verse, and Makaria.

financial status. N/A

driver’s license. No

criminal record. Murder, arson, grand larceny, just being an asshole

vices. Addiction (modern verses), probably too much chocolate sometimes does that count

sex & romance.

sexual orientation. Pansexual (leaning heavily toward women)

preferred sexual role. Dominant-- then having her dominance wrestled away

libido. Fairly high

turn-ons. Confidence, neck biting, scratching, hair pulling, silk, lingerie, stockings.

turn-offs. Selfishness, not being direct enough, possessiveness (sometimes), jealousy (sometimes and she is a hypocrite).

love language. Quality time and physical touch are the two biggest ones. The first happens much quicker-- she'll begin to stay in the same areas as her beloved, usually quietly, sometimes offering to go with on errands, unconsciously finding a way to stay near them. The latter is much slower, typically, considering that she flinches from most physical contact. Though when she does cross that threshold, she's not opposed to holding hands, resting her head on their shoulders, and even cuddling.

relationship tendencies. Surprisingly affectionate, easy-going, slightly flirtatious, and a lot more open to conversation. More willing to show her paintings, too.

miscellaneous.

hobbies to pass time. Painting, playing the drums, sudoku, stargazing/astronomy, working out, embroidery

mental illnesses. CPTSD, Schizophrenia (misdiagnosed/verse dependent)

self-confidence level. Depends. Usually it's fairly high, unless it's a dreaded social situation.

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~ Character Info Sheet

name: Lovisa Göta Sjögren

name meaning: 'Lovisa' is a Swedified form of Louise, which originates in Louis and has been used in Sweden since the 17th century. It means "renowned warrior". / 'Göta' derives from the Old Norse “gautr,” which in turn derives from the Proto-Norse “gautaz,” meaning “Goth, Geat, from Gautland “Götaland, Gothia in southern Sweden.” Though Vega was named specifically after Göta älv, a Swedish river with the largest drainage basin in Scandinavia. / 'Sjögren' is an ornamental name composed of the elements sjö 'sea lake' + gren 'branch'.

alias/es: Vega, Commander

ethnicity: Swedish

one picture you like best of your chara:

three h/cs you've never told anyone:

Her two favorite teas are Maofeng and Organic Silk Dragon Jasmine. Ming Long introduced her to both, and she's loved them ever since. Three centuries later, they're luckily still easy enough to find on Terra. She may or may not have gone on super intricate and comedic undercover missions just to obtain some as a Starfleet fugitive.

Girl can cook. She doesn't do it very often, and usually burns food intentionally so no one asks her to again, but she can absolutely whip up a beef wellington, macarons, consommé-- though she is by no means a professional. Just someone that has hyperfocused on some things in the path of perfection. Someday she wants to master making decent Suodui.

I truly cannot recall if I've ever written about this or not, oh well. The reason she forsook her birthname is due to a metamorphosis, a way to break the cycle of trauma that had plagued her since childhood. Vega believes that by going by a new name, she was able to shed the vilest parts of herself. As far as she is concerned, Lovisa died on earth, in a remote forest, screaming her throat raw with ghost and man alike. This obviously isn't the case, unfortunately: now it's Vega that wakes up from night terrors, freezes at certain mannerisms and words, stares holes into blank spots yards away. The only truth is that she's older now, with more control over herself (some, in any case) and a tendency to repress.

three things your character likes doing in their free time:

Painting. The one every knows, because it's her thing. If she can't paint, she'll sketch or doodle. This is also a sort of idle habit for her.

Sudoku. Shocking that the astrophysics nerd would enjoy logic game. Yet she does, and she can spend hours going through the gazillions of puzzle books she's amassed.

Solitude in nature. That doesn't happen so much anymore, though when she's planetside, she enjoys exploring and discovering the local fauna and flora.

eight people your character likes / loves: She doesn't even have eight in her life RIP, unless one counts the augments in general. That's more of a general I love my people/kin/crew than anyone too specific.

Ming Long: Her first love, on Earth in the 90s. Vega lost her to the war, and it planted the seed that lead to her resentment of humanity.

Levi: Her brother, for better or worse. While he's mostly a thorn in her side, she does love him. After all, he's gone through most of the same awful things she has., even if they cope with it in very different ways.

Most other characters are verse dependent (@rickgrimesdoingrickthings, @vuulpecula, @respondedinkind specifically :p). She doesn't get attached to others very easily.

two things your character regrets:

In a way, she regrets her relationship with her brother. She wishes that she could have been a better sibling to him, helping him instead of closing herself off, and essentially leaving him to be as lonely as she felt. That's why she lets him into her life so often, speaking solely for modern verses, because she's trying to make up for something she really hadn't actually done.

In her main verse, she eventually regrets her distrust of Khan's vision, of having even toyed with the notion of betrayal-- or even of defection. It's a point where she's able to self-reflect and realize that her own ideas were invariably flawed. Whether she realizes this too late or not depends on the thread/verse, of course. :p

two phobias your character has:

Choosing two of the least intense/trigger worthy (she needs therapy ;_; ).

Monophobia: the fear of being alone. Strange, as she prefers solitude, yet cannot reconcile the idea of losing everyone around her.

Trypanophobia: the fear of needles, particularly in a medical setting.

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Are you a Soldier, a Poet, or a King?

The King

"There will come a rule Whose brow is laid in thorn Smeared with oil like David's boy."

Duty. Strength. Resignation.

You were told to do things and you did them.

The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. Is it nature or nurture ? You don't know. You are tired of being steady. You dream of feeling alive. Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. Your love is where you breathe. Come on, breathe. In. Out. It starts now.

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What is Your Curse?  Something walks behind you. Something twists through your spine. Something that marks you, mars you– something you can never be without. You bear a curse.

The Waxing Moon

Of hunger. Of envy. Your curse pricks along your skin, calls your nerves to attention, electric soldiers glaring in the moonlight. You know what you want. You can taste it. You have imagined a hundred times what it might be like for those hungers to be filled. But you know what you would have to become-- what you have secretly always been, under the tight-stretch gauze of your sun-time skin. It may have been a wound that made you, but the tooth left behind looked strangely like your own. Swallow your hunger tonight. Maybe all you need to change is ache.

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3-5 things associated with your muse.

emotions / feelings:

1. Rage 3. Fear 4. Nostalgia 5. Sorrow

greetings:

1. "Hey." 2. "..." Silence. Just silence. 3. Silence and a nod, maybe. 4. "Fuck you." for @dontstepinmypuddle probably

colors:

1. Black 2. Purple 3. Blue 4. Green

scents:

1. Leather 2. Iron 3. Wood 4. Coffee

clothing:

1. A jacket of some sort 2. Combat boots 3. Piercings (this counts, right?) 4. Comfortable pants, probably with a million pockets 5. Usually dark colors. May have worn a flowy purple dress once, but this is unconfirmed.

objects:

1. A paintbrush 2. A coffee mug 3. A pen

vices / bad habits:

1. Being mean probably 2. Some addiction issues 3. Always ready to fight 4. Anger management issues / explosively emotional (keeps this one) 5. Lying

body language:

1. Arms crossed 2. Poor eye contact 3. Fist-like gestures 4. Lips pressing into a thin line 5. Flexing or cracking fingers sporadically

aesthetics:

1. A cold winter's night 2. A swirling nebula 3. A knife stuck through a mirror 4. A bruised and bloody neck 5. A salivating wolf's maw, full of teeth

songs (in no particular order):

1. Somewhat Damaged by Nine Inch Nails 2. Bring Me Back a Dog by IAMX 3. When I am Queen by Jack Off Jill 4. Whore by In This Moment 5. Girl With One Eye by Florence + The Machine

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tagging: YOU! because I have no idea who has done this already. c;

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Send a 🎯 to learn a random headcanon I have for my muse || @rickgrimesrp / @doctorstrangeaskblog || always accepting!

To the surprise of absolutely no one, Vega plays the drums. It's not that she couldn't master any other instrument, it's just that none other held her attention long enough to try. The drums were easy for her to pick up-- she'd found she'd had a natural talent for picking up rhythm (but she will never dance)-- and a great way for her to vent frustration. So long as she held back, anyway. She's already broken multiple sets with that augmented strength.

I've mentioned before that Vega paints. She primarily paints cosmic images, those of supernovae, planets, galaxies, and so on. It's her preferred method of dealing with her CPTSD and depression. I don't know if I've mentioned her preferred medium, which is watercolors. She enjoys the 'constructional mess' about it and enjoys the challenge the paints present in forming whatever vision is in her head. Post stasis and the Botany Bay, she has painted planets and even landscapes she envisions for her augments kin to live on.

Vega's hatred of baseline humanity doesn't come from the bioweapon created to destroy the augments or from any feeling of superiority. Her first love, Ming Long, was killed in the Eugenics Wars by baseline humans. Vega had a pretty rough life until that point, and this was the action that broke her. With her, Vega fully accepted the notion that the augments were superior and deserved to rule over Terra. She reasoned that if they couldn't manage to keep their own alive, they couldn't manage much else. (This entire thought process is hypocritical of her in many ways, but she's not keen to address that yet.)

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𝑾𝑯𝑬𝑹𝑬 𝑫𝑶𝑬𝑺 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑭𝑬𝑨𝑹 𝑹𝑬𝑺𝑰𝑫𝑬 𝑰𝑵 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑩𝑶𝑫𝒀 ?

somewhere else

what is known is what is safe. your fear is never inside you, always somewhere else. your home is the best place in the world; all other places are scary. the people you already know are better than anyone else. so you go on, playing with broken toys, wearing dead people's clothes. you can be torn down to shreds, abused, tortured and miserable. but at least you know where it comes from, which gives you a sense of comfort and even control. the unknown hides dangers you don't understand, so it scares you. but alongside the dangers, you miss the wonder, adventures and opportunities that you could've otherwise had. my guess is that you've dealt with grief and loss.

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What is your character arc?

corruption arc

so. you got worse. and i'm not entirely sure i can blame you for it. maybe it was in you all along, hidden and waiting, or maybe someone planted it in you and watched it grow. either way, it's there now and you hold it in your fist like a second heart - this blood, this hunger, this thrill of having teeth and using them. perhaps you are right to. you are a mirror for the hardness of the world, and a mirror that we could all stand to look in more often. it's hard to watch the bleeding bring about more blood, but it is undeniable that you are very good at wounding.

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your muse as a teenager !**repost, don't reblog !

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WHEN DO YOU GAZE AT YOUR SOULMATE?

when they’re working

see this is what you love most. their eyes light up and no one can do it quite like them. whether they are a fighter or a healer. whether they are full of grace and gentle poise, or brute strength and wild energy, you love them when they are at their purest form. raw and unfettered. unadulterated by social cues and careful masks we all wear. when they are just them, trusting their instincts, using their experience, relying on the skills they earned. this is when you heart swells with pride. and you can never decide if you want to interrupt them and draw them into your arms with a hungry, appreciative kiss. or if you could sit there and quietly observe them for hours with more satisfaction than anything physical could bring.

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What Tragic Horror Character Trope Are You ?

the final girl

the final girl comes out the other end of trauma alive- or, they were supposed to. honestly, you're not so sure you're really alive anymore. you saw the same hurt take those you were closest to while everyone paraded your bruises as bravery, as strength, as if you're the hero. and it hurts. you're tired and you don't want to have to be brave anymore. whatever you went through, it changed so much of who you were that you're still getting used to the person you see in the mirror. you didn't have a say in any of it, but you're here now, and that's gotta count for something. you'll make it count for something. but first, you need to let yourself find rest...

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Bold the muse’s aesthetic (spooky edition)

bold all of the themes that apply to your muse’s aesthetic or mood as a character.

Bloodied knuckles |  Tear stained cheeks | Rust   | A busted lip   | Claws   | Fangs   | A bloody nose | Chattering teeth   | A dark space underneath the bed   | Scratching noises on a wall   | Creaking metal   | Fog   | Dancing under moonlight   | Blood dripping lips   |  Heavy breathing in the dark  | A feeling of unexplained dread  | A figure in a dark corner  |  Dirty peeling wallpaper  | A bloody handprint on the wall | Sobbing in the dark  | Bite marks on the skin  | Eerie whispers  | A hood covering a stranger’s eyes  | The growl of a hidden animal | The sound of a blade being sharpened  | A deep, dark forest  | Walking on the streets alone at night | A cobweb-filled, abandoned building  | Eyes darting in paranoia  | A heavy beating pulse | The feeling of being trapped  | Struggling to get out a scream  | Boards covering broken windows  | A quiet graveyard  | A gas station in the middle of nowhere  | A road that never ends  | Heavy fog rolling in  | The scent of blood in the air | Eerie old photographs  | Walking along train tracks at night  | A chill going up the spine  | Gathering crows  | A dusty, dimly lit study  |   Mist over a deserted cobblestone street  | Ghost towns  | Shadows around a campfire  | The sound of chanting  | Church bells tolling  | An orange harvest moon | A broken down carnival  | A dirty stuffed animal abandoned  | Wiping bloody hands on fabric  | Nightmares | Waking up in a panic | A power outage  | Heavy lightning storms  | A secret trap door  | The feeling of being watched  | Fear from trauma  | A Ouija board set out on a table  | An eerie doll  | A scream of anguish and pain  | Withered plants  | A room that’s been forgotten and gathered dust  | Owl eyes in the dark  | Curled, dead tree branches  | A ritual altar  | Flickering candles  | A lantern held up in the dark  | Fear of being followed  | Creaking floorboards  | Repressed, horrible memories  | Clenched teeth  | Soft, echoing piano keys | An old book covered in dust  | Many pairs of glaring eyes  | Stumbling in pitch black darkness  | Being stranded in the middle of nowhere  | Tarot cards on a table  | A trail of blood

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Which tragic character from ancient greek literature are you?

MEDEA

you are medea from from the argonautica by apollonius and medea by euripides. you are ambitious, ruthless, and unforgiving in getting what you want, and unapologetic in your self-preservation. the truth is, you have let your romantic ideals get the better of you before, and time and time again you have had to relearn how to build up those walls and thorns that guard it. the only person who can protect you is yourself, and you have learned that the hard way. sometimes stoking that fire of hate and anger in your heart hurts more than whatever you’re fighting against.

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Where does your soul belong?

Along with a comet floating through space 

You are aware of every moving light, every small sound, every personality around you. And it’s almost always too exhausting. You don’t feel you’re living but only feeling your way through life. You sometimes feel you’re mad because of this sensitivity. Your soul is too much, it does not belong to earth at all; you need to watch people from outside without getting involved with their lives.

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What Horror Character Trope are You?

The Evil Spirit

you're a crazy bitch. okay? okay. now get those floating knives out of my face before i call the exorcist.

stolen from @riggsanity​

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