#yea i forgot about india sorry

[lynx-desmond]

sometimes i think about how little of a portion of the whole world the english-speaking world (which is where me, most of the people i know and talk to, and a good chance the person reading this lives) is. like the total world population is like 8 billion and the population of north america + britain and ireland + australasia + south africa + the rest is only about maybe 500 million? that's less than 10% and that fraction includes pretty much everyone and everything i will ever know and experience in my life. damn. the worlds huge

[seii-fantasy]

Can i request shiva and his wives with their daughter reader (who also a older sister to ganesha) who used to be weak and sweet but slowly reader start distant with them barely spending times with them and goes training with a unknown god who was their master.

Reader trains so hard and push themselves to become powerful and strong so they can protect the weaks and india until one day, a announcement that reader wasn't chosen to become a god causing hatred and anger towards the gods their mind become corrupted.

Before reader could attack the gods, Shiva manage to take down their ass and Brahma sent them to hell and locked them up. Reader made a promise that they get their revenge and feel the pain what the gods had done to them.

possibly yandere? Its up to you btw <333

Hello there ofc im doing it!

My revenge will be more terrible than you think

(Shiva sorry but ur making me laugh )

Warning : Swearing

Im sorry i couldn't do the whole Hindu Pantheon like you asked i just did the Family (Shiva x wives) and hope you'll love it it took me the whole evening😭♥️

You were Kali's daughter , you were sweet as your mother but still fragile as ever . You were born , before Ganesha . You were praised by everybody but when Ganesha was born everybody forgot easily about you , only your mother still cared about you

Your Father the all mighty Bhairava Shiva , has wanted you to have a Family day together , your mother wanted you to go but you faked your illness , she wanted to stay but your personal maid Ahraya , protested to your stay "No Meree Ranee (My queen) your daughter will be safe with me" she protested but your mother knows that she was trustable so she let you with her.

Ahraya being a kind of elder sister figure to you , she knew what you wanted . You wanted to be strong so you can protect her

For more than five year , you started to become distant with your family to which it saddens Ganesha who wanted to get along with his eldest sister , Kali who started to be more suspicious of you and Parvati , Durga and Shiva were sad also.

You trained with Vaahan a God that was Unknown to every Hindu Gods eyes . You trained so hard and everytime you see someone getting bullied , you'll protect them . Vahan was very proud of you but soon Vahaan was killed by someone you couldnt even see their face .

You were sad , and trained yourself very hard and then a new was heard in the whole Pantheon

Everybody who thought that (Name) could be a goddess , they were wrong anybody else became an immortal become instead of (Name)

Shiva was mad and instead of taking care of you he beated you up to the point you were bleeding to the death . You couldnt even defend yourself , yes you were his daughter but yet you werent a powerful goddess just like your mother , Your step-mothers Parvati and Durga nor your father Shiva . Yet as his beating wasn't enough , Brahma has sent you to the Râkshasa who brought you hell themselves

During your stay at hell , you cursed them all , swearing that you'll make their lives a pure hell as they did to you.

Many millenia passed and the Rakshasa let you left their hell , you changed you were more stronger than they ever think .

Back in Svarga , nobody remembered you . You found an abandoned house and decided to live it in here , preparing your vegeance , many lower gods tried to get rid of you but their insolence led them to the thing that everybody feared "Death" some of them died or came back with a broken limb or without a limb

The rumor of a strong goddess was beating up lower gods came to the ears of Shiva "Who might be this strong goddess and why is she beating up lower gods" Shiva spoke to the two others Brahma and Vishnu from the Trimurti .

They went to where the place where the lower gods who dare to try her have been beaten badly and when they arrived

Shiva couldn't believe his eyes

"Why are you standing here , get out of my sight!" You yelled when you saw him "(Name) is that you?" He asked "Yea why are you asking ?" As he tried to hug saying he was happy to see you but you kicked him away

"I am not your daughter , you beated me up when you heard it that i wasn't be the chosen one to become a powerful goddess so quite the act!" You snarled . Vishnu and Brahma were shoked

How does Shiva knows you ?

Why you kicking him instead of hugging him?

And where have you been?

(Ive been everywhere man looking for some-okay okay i stop lemme continuee🤭)

"Your mother and step mothers are so worried , where have you been?" He asked sadly , this question shoked you how could he asked where have you been when he exactly knows what he did to you.

You didn't answer them and went back to your home , as Shiva tried to stop you . You punched real hard in the stromach and spoke "You denied that the fact that i was your daughter by leaving me . When you heard that i wasn't the chosen one you beated me up ! YOUR OWN DAUGHTER FOR YOUR SAKE " you yelled and slammed the door . As you cried tears

You didnt show off for more than a month , Shiva knew you wont forgive them for what he has done but he want to make it up to you . He informed his wife that you were back , Kali was the first one to come and asked a tone of question about you , Durga and Parvati weren't too much happy but they were rassured that their step daughter was now safe.

Shiva kept bothering to join the family , Kali tried to join you since you two have the same ability . Ganesha tried to bring you , your favorite food because he asked Kali what it was bcs he want to see his elder sister . And Durga tried to talk to you which you shoo her away

Parvati was the one who didn't gave up as everybody gave up , she didnt and since you didn't answer she burst in your home as you were with a Rakshasa and disappeared with them

And they heard a voice : My Revenge will be more terrible than you may think dear family and it mock them before it disappeared

[ctstrophes]

have you heard of LIGHTS MAVOR? she is a TWENTY year old survivor in boulder county, who looks like INDIA EISLEY. she is OBSERVANT, which helps her as a COLLECTOR at LIONSCREST MANOR. however, she can also be VOLATILE, so i’d watch out for them. they are known as the THE ANARCHIST.

the mess is back!! honestly i missed this kid so much!! im rlly tired to do a rlly long bio so under the cut u will find the essential info to this absolute trash bag of a kid!!!!!  right, i might redo this someday and properly do it but here we go

lights was born as angelica marino, she grew up in new york city but her family was very conservative and closed off, they never let lights do anything that was outside of the ‘normal’ or they classified it as a sin. lights had to grow up like this but she started questioning the ‘whys’ of many things from a very young age making her mother angry at her and even though her father understood the young girl he had to agree with her mom so it was all very difficult yikes!!! 

she attended an all girls catholic primary and middle school, she tried never to question her parents anymore but once she got to high school her father convinced her mother to enroll her in a ‘normal’ high school, it was still a pirvate school but now lights finally had the chance to get to know more people and to really learn about the things her parents had held her back from but oh boy that was a mistake. lights had become like a kid in a candy shop, she had learnt so much that she forgot what was right from wrong and now things that her mother had told her were sins just seemed like normal things for her but she couldn’t let her parents now she was changing and learning so instead she started deceiving them ( talk abt hannah montana living that double life) 

once lights reached the age of 17 her moral compass was more than broken, she saw wrong things as right things and probably made more mistakes than anyone else but she didn’t regret them, she just saw it as living her life, a life she always felt deprived off. her parents eventually got divorced because lights’ dad couldn’t stand her mom anymore, he couldn’t live with the strict rules and the prejudice but he couldn’t take lights with him. all of this absolutely broke the girl and made her get to a breaking point and she ran away from home. she changed her name to lights in honor of her dad who always called her his little light and thought of a new last name for herself, angelica marino was now buried six feet underground and there was no bringing that girl back. the cross she wore around her neck had now lost all meaning. 

lights started hanging around with the very wrong crowd but that was freedom for her, she was happy and she got to be a new person, one that was nothing like the girl her parents had raised. lights was now using her innocent looks and acts to get what she wanted, whether it was money from men or just anything from anyone, with some of her old clothes and that innocent smile she could about fool anyone and that’s when it got worse. sometimes people tried to take advantage of her and she’d usually be able to fight them off but one day it got too far, one day there was no other way she could defend herself other than by stabbing them with the small blade she carried around with her for safety. 

since then lights had gotten a certain rush, maybe it was the power of being able to decide whether they lived or died or maybe her brain had now become too messed up now to process that this was a very bad decision that came with consequences, consequences that she couldn’t face due to the outbreak. once the outbreak hit lights made sure to get as far away from new york as possible and ran off to boulder county. she made sure to keep an act of being innocent and clueless and pretty much scared of everything because she thought that would be easier and she’d be seen as less of a threat. 

right okay that was long but some little pointers here im sorry that was so messy and all over the place its rlly late

lights basically is just a fuckin psycho but a rlly good one bc all you see when you see light is a very scared girl who probably cries and makes herself very weak passing??

at nights sometimes she goes making bad deals with raiders before killing them ( shes gotta fuel that murder kink)

she absolutely disguting honestly pls hate her but pls love her even tho  i dont think she has a good bone in her body anymore

she still always wears her cross that her dad gave her around her neck bc she misses the only person who ever really loved her??

when she snaps she snaps for the worse and can become very violent and just overall aggressive and its bad bc its like shes not even herself anymore

lights is basically the knife emoji 

yEa if anyone wants any plots or connections with her pls lemme know, shes been at lionscrest for a good ish amount of months

[survivingjapan]

Rites of Passage - Day 46

Congratulations Brian, Crow, and Steffen. 46 days ago, you and 23 other castaways returned to Tumblr Survivor to seek revenge, redemption, or a mix of the two.

The three of you have done what 23 other players could not do. This season has been unpredictable from the beginning, and it could still go a myriad of directions before a winner is declared. 

One final immunity challenge stands between you and the chance to plead your case to the jury as why you should be given the tittle of Sole Survivor. However, before that, it is tradition to reflect on those who you have eliminated from the game; directly on indirectly.

Welcome to your Rites of Passage.

Brian

Unfortunately, we never talked and I didn’t get to know you but you were mentioned so many times throughout the season so you’re clearly a legend.

Steffen

Oh the babe, you probably wanted more out of the season to be honest huh, but I mean at least you set a record, the very first 26th placer in TS history, and what’s really more important????  Tho in all seriousness coming from a first boot season, this spot holds a very special place in my heart so please enjoy it.

Brian

I believe we played together before in Niue and clicked and we didn’t really get to click here, but you were also apart of some alliance to kill me??? So oops.

Crow

Seemed like a really chill guy, but ultimately went after Brian way too early, so you had to go - plus your work schedule didn't seem to help much

Steffen

I think we’ve now done 2 side seasons together and we still haven’t spoken a word to each other, so this is where I will bust out the classic MJ line “he was a fighter”

Brian

Robbedt queen.  Wish I got to know you more.

Crow

I feel like you could have gone really far had you avoided becoming an early target, and I didn't like voting you out, but we didn't click well enough for me to go out on a limb

Steffen

JESUS CHRIST GURL, literally when I saw your name pop up on the cast announcement, I felt like a wave of joy wash over me because you are one of the best people I’ve met and I was hoping we could replicate our damage in Westeros and Myanmar, but alas no.  Your exit pre-merge was probably one of the saddest moments for me, because I knew you had so much left to offer, and the villains did you dirty girl <3, hopefully one day we’ll reunite then but at least I can try and do you proud like you did me proud in Myanmar and India.

Brian

I could honestly write pages upon pages upon how amazing you are and how great of a person you are (even though I’m one of the few who thinks that dkjasdhsja).  We clicked super well in this game and most likely would’ve been a duo for a majority of the game, if possible.  I’m glad we met here because you’re currently one of my really good friends (because we literally talk abt random shit all the time) and you make me laugh 24/7 and yea.  You’re the bestest. <3

Crow

King of absolute mess and chaos, I love you. Had I been rocked out by you, these words would be much different, but karma got ya babe!

Steffen

We’ve had some interesting experiences together, or at least me getting you voted out and hosting your messy butt several times, and though we did not really speak this season I just wanted to say….you “ROCK”

Brian

The tea is that you were in some alliance to kill me earlier in the game so although I was working with you for a majority of the vote you went and told you when it looked bleak, I guess I’m kinda okay with you being an early boot since you woulda caused more harm against me than not.

Crow

I will always remember two lines: 

"I'm REALLY wet." 

"Crow u absolute fuckwit" 

good times good times...

Steffen

One of my All-Star fam, like sure we weren’t the closest but like I got to know you slightly better this season than last time just because uhhhhh……yeah I guess you went to summer camp with Nick, I’m not sure what happened, but thanks for giving us the amazing gif.

https://media.giphy.com/media/Kw2cu2woOVWIo/giphy.gif

Brian

UGH.  It sucked that the round you went the way you went and I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you.  You know I wanted to work with you and even though we would only talk every once in awhile, it was like one of those unspoken, “We’re good, right?”  Love ya, bud.

Crow

Another really chill guy but ultimately we never bonded and you threw my name out to people so it was just another pick-off vote unfortunately

Steffen

Well LIE-nus, sorry Ting Ting stole my keyboard for a second, but ANYWAYS, my next Myanmar babe, and Solomon step-child I guess, maybe I’m your uncle, but either way I did not expect to see you go so soon, I was hoping to have you around longer this season so either I could have more Hoenn fun with you or get revenge on you for Myanmar, but just like Ashley, you went too soon and I know you had so much left to offer you bum, also I feel jipped, I wanted to hear more about you Sexcapades……that’s a dream for another day huh, be safe.

Brian

I was SO ready to finally work with you in a game, Ruthie, and it was unfortunately just not in the cards but KNOW that you’re the true hero of this game. <3

Steffen

OK, worst, hero, vote out pre-merge ever, you did not deserve it, but you weren’t in any of the big alliances on the heroes tribe and just became an easy out for the entire tribe leading to our second unanimous vote of the season.  You know that I love you to the world and back as one of the sweetest people here ever, in All-Stars I literally called your appearance as a hero didn’t I, and I was hoping that I wouldn’t vote you out like a billion times again, but alas that didn’t happen.  I will say though, I will always values the Darren Criss Swimsuit Photos you sent me while I was in Canada, WOOOOOOOO, those things were….STEAMY.  Can’t wait to attend the wedding <3

Brian

You voted me and I still will never know why I was your best bet but go off!  I’m glad we talked more and got to bond about being the bottom of the villains for a little bit following Arendelle.

Crow

BOI! Let me tell you....Richie's bluntness scared the shit out of me because I'm blunt but Richie had every reason to call me out so I thought he might expose me yikes! 

Steffen

I feel we had much more we could’ve done together, but like our past is limited with Kanto and me hosting you in Arendelle where you played a very dominant game the entire time and I have no doubt you could’ve done a lot here too, but alas the destruction of Arabia had to finish with you, and while it was sad, at least Pippa got vindication because you stole her Ciera Eastin, so in a way I guess it’s Karma?

Brian

We literally never work well together in games, even when I think you have my back lol, so I knew this time would most likely be no different.  You were the first “blindside” of the game (being a hero in a vote with majority heroes was shookening), so be proud!  Clearly a threat.

Crow

Steffen

Listen up you little toad (and you know I say that with love), I forgot if you were the first or second person I told about the Fukushu idol, but like you were a tru hoe to me, because as far as I’m aware, you never told anyone about it and I value that so much.  It was sad to see one of my Solomon host parents leave the game, but it happened at the right time cause you’re capable, scary and just incredible at this game, had this literally been any other season you would’ve made merge, but because this season is satanic, unfortunately you left us early.  Missed you babes, but hey, we can talk about V3 now because I finished it, and WOW, you were right, the emotional trauma didn’t stop there, GOD THAT GAME….it’s a lot.

Brian

I don’t know if we ever talked so um.. Yea! Lol

Crow

Steffen

While we never talked a lot this season, you were so willing to help along with the tribe, and you were a super helpful hoe when it came to designing stuff for Sunda, you really came in clutch for that season, so thank you for that, but I’m sorry this season ended for you a little earlier than you would’ve liked, but we still don’t know what happened to the Brawn idol after you left with it, did you just punch production and stole it so they couldn’t rehide it? Maybe you knocked them out and just ran to your jetski back to the states?  Either sounds like a plausible course of events.

Brian

Honestly? Another robbed player.  I was so looking forward to working with you after what I had been told by Mr. DK himself and it did not disappoint during the time we were together.  I hope we can stay in some sort of contact because you’re p cool. :P

Crow

Y U NO SURVIVE OVER JUNIOR UGH. Had you just hung on til merge we would have been such amazing allies and I truly feel you were ousted way too soon.

Steffen

I think we only talked indirectly in the main chat to each other during the Celebrity Big Brother sim we made as a cast (Bless be Raven Symone and her win), but being a past host of yours and you almost casting me in Bora Bora (which shame on you cause I could’ve met Jenn sooner) I was hoping we could’ve talked more but I think it got too awkward to do it as the pre-merge progressed, but either way, we can do another CBBUS sim after Japan is over if we’re both still around, I don’t know what happened to you, maybe you’re in the great beyond for all I know dgsakjhfg.

Brian

Crow

My Great Lakes villain buddy! You are certainly a.....character, but you also survived far past your expiration date because of your.....unique gameplay style. Wish you could have made merge so that your antics could be used as a shield for mine :(

Steffen

BOI, wow, ok you were a hectic person from literally my minimal exposure to you and your game, I’m just happy you were taken out early enough because I would’ve been terrified what chaos you would’ve caused later on, and I’m sure it would’ve been appropriate of the villain name, so 6 brownie points for staying with the Theme of the season, you Go Kage Coco.

Brian

I believe we played together once before and don’t know if we ended on good terms!  If you’re NOT the same person I’m thinking about, y i k e s.  We didn’t talk so I’m kinda half happy you went premerge, but like rip.

Crow

My not-so-much-of-a-buddy fellow Great Laker - You were robbed by Steffen not me SO WE CANT SAY I BETRAYED GREAT LAKES! But you just kept lying to me so I didn't see us ever working together......but hey, you didn't get last?

Steffen

Ok so I feel there’s still a lot of things that need to be said to you and I know I pissed you off with the decision to vote you out coming out of left field seemingly, but there was actually reason behind it.  I know you claimed to have loyalty to me, and there is no doubt in my mind you were, but I saw you being a threat to my well-being in this game, in this game we need to play steps ahead, and when I was looking at you, I saw someone who would make it deep, you were going to take the spot that I, and everyone else wanted in this game, you were going to take up a finalist spot that could’ve been someone else’s, and I know I hurt your feelings, but I wanted that spot, and when Crow played Andrew’s hero idol, it felt like the right thing to do.  I know you wanted to do so much more this season especially after going out first in Great Lakes, you exceeded everyone’s expectations and I want you to know that, so you could be proud of what you did, I’m sorry you were taken out, and hopefully we can find a resolution later babes <3.

Brian

Honestly, I wish we talked more because from the 1 or 2 convos we have had, you seem pretty interesting and fun.  Also, you were literally robbed because of your association with Sarah and that sucked, but I guess I’m just happy I didn’t vote out someone I could’ve probably worked with and enjoyed working with (because there are definitely some people I didn’t vote out that I hated working with in games past just to be loyal dajksd).

Crow

My true f2 (ha. fooled u all!) I still liked her more than most people in the game despite her 25 days of silence oop!

Steffen

Well Kokichi Oma, I hope the Secret Crime Syndicate of more than 10k people you’re running is going well, it sounds fun.  Kendall we talked about Japan so much prior to the beginning the start of this season, like we were ready to be villains, turn shit up, but then…..we were both named heroes, which I’m not sure either of us were suspecting, god knows I’m not one anymore.  Voting out you was a hard decision, as anyone will tell you, I waited so long to make that decision, but at the end it seemed like the move that would bring me closer to my goal, and while I had to vote out a very good friend because of it, I did it for me, but also, for our lord and savior, Monica, I did it for Monica. https://prnt.sc/guvka7

Brian

One of the big 4 of the merge!  You vs. Sarah was probably the most interesting of all the big conflicts of the merge.  While you being rocked out most definitely benefited my game, it sucks to see such a big player be taken down in such a shitshow.  But I guess just recognize like we all did that you were one of the best players in this game.  Also was def fun kinda working with you. :P

Crow

Okay we use "robbed" a lot, but this man was a victim of aggravated assault, armed robbery, attempted murder, etc with that one silly rock. Not sure he's a hero though.....but the fact that he was eliminated with no votes cast against him is iconic af

Steffen

Ok, I owe so much of my game to you, you helped me form alliances, hell you helped me find the Shokan idol, and that was something that helped me keep my cool, ok not so much cool as less paranoid comparative to All-Stars, but you helped me so much this season and I just wanted to say thank you.  I didn’t know what to think of you from Solomon, but spending so much time with you, I now know why you could’ve won that and this season, you were aggressive in you strategy sure, but your social game was on POINT, had you not gotten rocked out I’m sure it would’ve been near impossible taking you out after it.  I know you probably hate me for holding onto our idol when it could’ve been used to save you from being rocked out, but I needed to keep myself safe above anything else, I figured things were already going to rocks with the idol talk, so knowing I could be in jeopardy, I held onto the idol, at the expense of your life in this game, I know you’re going to get past 2nd merge boot eventually and win a season like I know you can, it’ll happen I swear.

Brian

okay mom!  I’ve missed you for the last 2 weeks!  Dad’s cool and all but like, he’s got nothing on you.  It was super great to meet you in this game because you are genuinely the first female I’ve had a successful alliance with ^~^ In addition to THAT, you’re also legit one of the best allies I’ve had in a game before and I literally adore you beyond belief.

Crow

Our trio of me, you, and Brian was the best thing in this game for me honestly! Thank you for the idol, it allowed me to successfully piss off Trace and continue to "sheep" Drew! You deserve to be here over me tbh and that's the tea! You were my favorite ally from any of my seasons and I have no shame saying that in public. I wish I could have voted with you but I had a deal with Pippa to not vote her out and I couldn't go back on that.

Steffen

Wow ok, I feel we had a Hallmark movie based around missed connections, whether it was just in this game, or how we were both in Toronto on the same day and couldn’t meet up, don’t know which is the real travesty tbh.  While we were talking about trying to build on our relationship since Sweden ended before we could really get to know each other, we wanted to establish something, but when we met at merge, I didn’t stick with the alliance we made at the first vote, then voted you out at f11.  That stunt with the Modoru idol WOW, had that actually worked, we would’ve been in a mess during the season, because 3 idols were played that night on top of yours, had everyone known about them, that chaos would’ve been insane.  You never went down fighting and were always looking for a new angle to unite everyone to save yourself, but unfortunately it wasn’t enough and you were reunited with Kendall in jury, next time we end up in Toronto, lets grab a drink.

Brian

We.. uh.. Never talked… yikes.  But I heard you were a sweetheart from everyone!  So yay you!

Crow

Dom......I tried to talk to you but we were always on different wavelengths and then you voted me at instant tribal which hurt my widdle feelings : ' ( you're probably the only hero who actually deserves to be called a hero, besides maybe Trace?

Steffen

This soul, SWEETEST MAN EVER, I do not have a single bad thing to say about Dom, what Jimmy said about me in ROP in All-Stars is what I have to say about Dom now, we play these games to meet people and enjoy them, and Dom is the embodiment of that, we talked about anime and manga and all the nerdy things, it was amazing, he even turned me onto Assassination Classroom, and besides having Ass in its title twice, it was amazing and I recommend that to anyone who wants a new show to watch, cause its SO GOOD.  Seeing you go home Dom lit a fire under my butt, I felt betrayed and I knew I needed to turn something out to avenge your death, so I worked hard and I guess I made f3, so thanks for inspiring me and giving me that fire to do this.

Brian

Honestly, I hope you understand that I came into this game scared to play with you because we do know each other and you know a lot more about me than I wish you did lol.  I did want you out from day 1 and you lying to me day 4 (and multiple times past that, most notably during the round you left) really proves that I had the right thoughts about you.  It was nice to play with you and reconnect.  Not a bad guy, just a snake of a player.  And that’s the tea on that.

Crow

I have a feeling you're mad at me from the lack of snaps since your elimination, and I completely understand it, but you asked me to choose between you and Brian and I chose Brian. It was a really shitty choice to have to make, but I felt like it was better for my game in the long-run. Maybe not. We'll just have to see how this all shakes out.

Steffen

Seeing you in the season, I honestly did not know how to feel to be frank, I never knew where we stood after Myanmar played out, so I was afraid to start talking to you, but then as things began progressing, I found myself getting along with you and enjoying your company, we called and talked much more than we ever did in Myanmar and it was a welcome surprise.  I know that how everything may have ended may have seemed like a petty form of revenge for Myanmar, but I swear it was not.  You were playing an incredible game in the middle and everyone saw it, and that’s where the problem lay, everyone began to see it, and you as a threat as a result.  I feel you broke once your name started going up, but you never gave up, even that “idol” you played, I’m pretty sure you saw it on my face, I was crapping bricks cause that came out of nowhere.  You are incredible Tommy, thanks for rebuilding things from Myanmar <3.

Brian

While I did want you out on day 1, despite literally everyone I’m close to yelling at me for wanting you out as early as possible, I’m glad we were able to talk through our beef and although you did lie to me and play dumb during the final 8 vote (which returned some lies back at you), I will overall have the weight lifted off my shoulders that we are at least now on good terms.  And it won't be so fucking awkward if we're ever in a chat/game tg again hopefully!

Crow

...I....I have never felt more guilty about a vote than you, because you had never voted me, given me an idol, and saved me at instant and I failed to repay you in any regard. If you roast me at FTC, if I make it there, don't hold back. The only reason I voted for you was because I couldn't throw a vote or vote Brian so it was a really really terrible choice. I had no intention of being separated from you so soon....

Steffen

As much as you don’t like to admit it, you had so much pull in the beginning of merge, it felt like you way of words could convince me to do things and it felt that you were just getting your way, and while it was incredible to watch, it was also terrifying.  Despite the anime’s we talked about, despite V3 and the emotional trauma it put us both through, I knew I had to put that aside and help vote you out.  There’s a reason you won so much Andrew, you’re incredible, likeable and a good friend.  I hope one day we can get our date at Buffalo Wild Wings again, maybe even go to the Barnes and Noble again….or was it Books A Million, I don’t know, but next time I run into the parking lot like a mad man, I hope its you driving the car that nearly kills me. https://peopledotcom.files.wordpress.com/2016/08/rosie-odonnell-435-6.jpg?w=435

Brian

Okay, don't get me wrong, you’re a nice guy to talk to, and I told you you were going (without the knowledge that Steffen was flipping again lol), but you would constantly just lie and lie and lie and lie and… I think you get the point.  You and Tommy were very similar in the sense that you did what was best for you, lied about it instead of being open, and then you would get all upset when stuff didn’t go your way [Tommy was more passive in that sense] (i.e. when you called Crow and I goats for voting you out despite you voting against us both rounds!).  Nice to meet you, tho.

Crow

Okay I'm sure you know this but I told a lot of people you were one to watch because of your snake-like ways and I think you proved that by weaving yourself out of so many situations... and I still think you casted that stray vote on Kyoaku! Ultimately we faced off one-on-one and Drew decided to intervene and save me, that's a pretty epic showdown in my eyes.

Steffen

Despite your feelings of me, I just wanted to say thank you, thank you for being a person I could go to for emotional support when things got frustrating, or I was hurt, despite me lying to you in the game, you always put on a smile, heard me out, and consoled me, I probably called you the most in this game, which if you had told me that at the beginning of the season, I would’ve been shocked.  The way you went out was depressing because literally right after betraying you I tried making a jump back to save you, because I wanted more time to fix what I had screwed up with the lie, but a couple words to Drew during that instant tribal sealed your fate and you left much earlier than I would’ve liked.  You were amazing to me and I feel I never returned the amount of care you gave me and I wish I could change that, but I can’t.  I will never forget the Rude Ass Chat alliance we made with Jenn to dominate the season, but it ended almost as soon as it began, maybe in another season tho, I would love to replicate it.

Brian

Rocked out QUEEN.  I wish we did get to talk more and go to final 2 together because iconic catfish duo (Charlotte and Nicky are quaking) and I, again, apologize for lying that entire round, but I did what I had to do for my own personal benefit and you or Trace dying going into final 5 was my best bet.

Crow

I know I burnt you when I voted out Andrew and so similarly to him, if you wanna roast me at FTC, go for it. You were hilarious to be on call with and gave the cast a very light-hearted vibe which helped alleviate some of the stresses of this game. And I wouldn't be here, or at merge even, if it weren't for you...

Steffen

Coming to you live from Connor’s Basement, ITS……..PIPPA AND THE BOYZZZZZZ, we never really talked as much as I’m sure as either of one of us wanted to, but I just want to say you were such a delight in the game, it was fun to pull your leg during the time you outlasted 5th boot, or when you doubled your day count, but you were amazing.  You were always ready to go to rocks during the insane amount of time we could’ve, even when I was considering sending the first merge vote to rocks, or at least when I thought I was, you were telling me that it would be ok and to be iconic, your attitude during this game when I used to be so stressed in the past was just so refreshing and I loved it.  We didn’t start the game off the closest but it grew and I hope to hear the conclusion of your dress story after all is done. Also you are and will forever always be my rock queen <3. https://media.giphy.com/media/3SJgfvvLwDR4c/giphy.gif

Brian

You know I love you so much and I’m sorry that I did what I did, but I was not about to be called someone’s goat again when I for fucking sure knew that I was playing my own game.  And people were basically saying, “Oh, Drew’s winning yup!”  I’m sorry, yes I am, on a personal level, but on a game level?  I did what I had to do.  But I still love you.

Crow

Drew, I don't know where to start. I don't know how you feel about me, but I am assuming it's probably not in a good light....you went out on a limb and saved me with an idol and I didn't repay you much when I voted you out at f5. It really wasn't anything personal, but you were winning this game hands down....we had the rockiest relationship of probably anyone in this cast given that both voted for each other multiple times and then managed to become end-game allies which I promptly betrayed.....I'm disappointed in myself for how I conducted myself with you tbh, and it hurts my ego to say that. Hope you don't hate me.

Steffen

You always said during the season to me that you were ready for me to be your downfall this season, and while I tried to deny it, we knew it was coming, even to the last moment during the instant you left, I tried denying it, but we both knew what was happening.  I will always cherish our late night calls, including ones where we got emotional and dished all this game info just because screw Japan, it was just a game, we laid out every advantage in the game, including your 2 idols, my shokan idol, the modoru idol, like everything was laid out, except Andrew’s idol and Trace’s Legacy Advantage.  Talking to you felt like some safety, because you had been my ally in the past and you were through so much of this game and I am so grateful for you Drew, I truly am, and despite me being garbage, I just wanted to let you know that.  We drifted away towards the end, and I became less negotiable with the votes, but we both knew we came here to play and we drifted apart.  You were a friend Drew, you listened when I was sad, we dished when we were happy, you had the closest inside look into my game in the beginning, I know its slightly tainted now, but one day I hope we can rebuild it to where we can talk about Gilmore Girls and our terrible love lives on end again. http://image.prntscr.com/image/9f0d402836294caf8d7f17e7022b89f4.gif

Brian

A tru hero king.  I’m glad we did get to know each other, even if it was at the bitter end.  You’re a standup guy and a sweetheart.  And you truly didn't deserve the exit I watched after the fact and I'm sorry it happened that way.

Crow

Okay I still giggle a little at us making final four and making hardly any connection whatsoever. If I end up 3rd, you can spam by inbox with "I told you so" all you want, but I've been screwed over by last-minute pleas before, and I wasn't willing to go down that road of regret. Plus, I think you would have kicked my ass in final 2 so with your legacy advantage, maybe I made a play that gave myself a chance at 1st or made myself 3rd, I don't know.....

Steffen

BABE <3, we weren’t the closest before Johnny’s departure, but since then we called, we had a good time, and despite my lies to you, you always had a smile and were willing to take me back, I feel like I was a bad boyfriend to you in a sense.  Our rants to each other about the game and how we were escaping with no votes cast against us….you know until that fateful night that Pippa and Drew left, but before then we were cruising.  It was sad to see your precious golden locks go, but you went on your hair journey this season and it was amazing to watch, I can’t wait to see the pink pompadour you’re rocking in jury tbh.  While I may have lied to you in the past, I was not going to let you go out with a lie, so I tried to be truthful, however late it was, love you Trace and I’ll see you soon <3.

Your FINAL immunity challenge will be tonight at 9pm EST, followed immediately by the winner of the challenge casting the final elimination vote. Congratulations, and good luck.

[survivorindia]

Disturbing Patrons with my Mental Breakdown- Kendall (Episode 8)

Okay, soooo. I'm pretty sure all of the returnees threw the challenge RIGHT OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW in order to vote out the minority newbies... Aka me.... So, I'm pretty pissed off as it's evident that I'm the only one who actually TRIED at this challenge, when I clearly shouldn't have because I'm extremely sick with strep and should be sleeping all day. SOOO, that was a huge waste of my time and I'm pretty pissed about it... But it's fine, bitches. Satan will see you in hell <3 :*

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD WE JUST THREW THE CHALLENGE. I have never thrown a challenge before and that was terrifying. If this backfires on me i'm gonna look like a moron but I have good faith. Hopefully bye bye Ruben, Worst case scenario bye bye Casey, Worst-Worst case scenario bye bye allies, and Worst-Worst-Worst case scenario bye bye Jordan

i definitely picked my tribe with the intention of screwing someone over. i think things have revealed themselves nicely on where loyalties still lie, and while one or two people might think they're in the driver's seat, i'm in a good position to shift the gears without them noticing. and that means their car will crash and we all die. hehe.  i'm prepared to make a move if we lose immunity, but im not letting that happen. i want to win this one just so i can be safe one more round. figure things out a little more. let tea spill. but i'm not going to let myself make the same mistakes and spill my guts to anyone willing to listen. i'll keep information to myself. i know i'm on the bottom of the returnees alliance and probably the newbies one, too. but i'm content for right now, because ultimately the returnees will start to fall. we'll be picked off one by one. dom wants to throw immunity, and sometimes its not a bad idea to do that, but this round, it needs to not happen. ruben will likely go home but i dont think he trusted me in the first place, so it's his time. sorry.

i'll take his position if he does. lexi needs a #2 and its between robin and myself. i respect robin bc they were there for me when i had no one else there for me. i feel like i've known them for years, but we just met and thats powerful. i have a powerful bond to this person. they're important to me. but this is also a game and i know my competition when i see it. if they have to go at my expense of making it another day, i'll do it.  idk if im still a villain or if im becoming a hero. i think that's up for determination. 

LOOOL WILD TRIBAL. BUH-BYE, JULIA. GLAD I DIDN'T SEE YOU AHAHAHAAAAA

This is oh so sweet. If everything goes well, bye bye, Ruben! This one's for Johnny.

Can i just say........ HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA FUCK YOU JAIDEN FUCK YOU DOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY FUCK SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED SINCE JULIA LEFT. Lets get down to brief overview and how i feel about it  1) Julia gets voted off.....SO MAD 2) Alex, Dom, Jaiden are in clear alliance of three, split the tribes up so everyones pair is separated...so basically...jordan and I are gone, casey and ash, ruben and lexi ...u get the point. 3) They put me on a tribe to fuck me over...im gone when they make these tribes and I come back to the ugliest tribe ever. Jaiden. Robin. Dom. Lexi. Alexis. Ashley and I. Now Ash and I are just sitting there like.................................i – i- this plan is so obvious??!?!? and do those three boys think its not obvious their together and they did this on purpose to FUCK ME OVER!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??! um why u so obsessed with me BACK OFF 4) Ashley calls me at work during the comp and TELLS ME DOM IS TRYING TO THROW THE COMPITITION..................to say that the reason hes doing that is to save casey....thats right CASEY. YA RIGHT DOM FUCK OFF WHO DO U THINK WE ARE..........................now lets talk about this because ...................bitch u really want to try me!?! I know those three boys arent as stupid as their moves are coming off!?!? but do they think this is believable!?!?!? Seriously? Im kinda confused because a) They vote julia equalling in jordan and i coming full force on them.....like if ur gonna go for the two headed snake ....dont go for its tail? Sorry but julia was just a number. Jordan and I are the ones who game talk together and as much as i hate playing with him...i love playing with him if that makes any sense. b) you want to throw a competition...to what? To get me out? um....do you underestimate jordan , kendall and I? Yea were on two different tribes but its clearly obvious im fucked over. As if they wouldnt throw this comp.  5) We win immunity....and you would think the way ppl were acting was as if we lost. But it was so obvious everyone of them threw that and im PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [7:00:19 PM] jaiden: that's fucking bullshit [7:00:24 PM] jaiden: I went back and CORRECTED myself [7:00:26 PM] jaiden: i'm pissed [7:00:36 PM] jaiden: I'm glad we won but FUCK. THAT. [7:09:57 PM] Sarah: ARENT U HA;PPPYYY [7:10:00 PM] Sarah: YUHJGEDSXF [7:10:08 PM] jaiden: that would've been sooooooo bad sarah [7:10:19 PM] jaiden: I would've felt like SHIT if we had to go to tribal all because I made a simple mistake ............Jaiden................You had the lowest score on our tribe. And you think i didnt know I was going if we lost?.... “Simple mistake” mhm HUNTY I BELIEVE U FOR SURE Now its kinda obvious what dom is doing and honestly......................................fuck u wtf do u think ur doing being a better player than me? I cant wait till i vote ur ass out. Please take it as a compliment Actually...wait  no fuck u binch face motherfuck i hate u anyways so i was thinking that if we lost immunity ...i could come up with a plan. Jordan gives me the idol, it will be publicly shared, Jaiden will immediately come to me freaking out because hes being a fake ass, asking if jordan gave me the idol...I will tell him (in confidence HAHHAHAHAHAHA) that jordan gave me a fake one and that i only did it so people are scared to vote me out. He'll tell dom so they dont switch votes on Ashley. Then when I get majority votes ill idol out my votes, ashley puts one vote on me, i put one vote on dom so it ties. So if dom plays his idol it will be WASTED ANYWAYS. But if they split votes then ill be safe who cares if ashley goes home. Because im safe and in f13!!!!!!!!!! and hopefully merge happens soon so i can stop doing this. But its ok bc im gonna pray kendall and jordan throw the next comp. Honestly I love Kendall so much I want a f2 with her now that Julia is gone. So watch out for that in the future. http://i.imgur.com/D8kFHyf.gif DONT MESS WITH ME I WILL SELL MY SOUL JUST TO MAKE SURE I MAKE MERGE

Candle added Jordan Pines to this conversation.  From: Candle Jordan you know I adore you Sent on: 2:10 pm  From: Jordan Pines oh no Sent on: 2:10 pm  From: Candle But if you want to make a group chat, do it yourself Sent on: 2:10 pm From: Candle From: Jordan Pines hahahaha Sent on: 2:10 pm From: Jordan Pines this callout XDDDDDD Sent on: 2:10 pm  I couldn't have said that better myself Sent From: Candle Kay well I’ve made my point so get off my lawn you damn youngings Sent on: 2:11 pm Candle has removed Jordan Pines from this conversation Candle has removed Gavin from this conversation  AYYYYYYYE. YES. KENDALL. YES.

I hate getting lied to at Tribal Councils, but Julia left which is actually a good thing and kind of my fault oops. It's Kendall all over again in Malaysia. 

 But yeah, things got messy but I got to pick my tribe for the tribe swap. Jaiden and I got on call and decided we were going to split everyone up (Sarah/Jordan, Ruben/Lexi, Casey/Dom), so that's really fun and exciting. It'll be neat to see how everything goes with the pairs being split. Gavin and I are still together which is sweet. 

 I'm pissed about the vote count at Tribal. Jaiden ruined my no vote streak, but at least he did it on Day 87 for me not getting votes, which is my favorite number. 

I haven't been having fun in India and I never really knew why. It wasn't as though I was losing, it wasn't as though I was in any danger. I was just bored... it felt like something was missing, aside from my soul. So I had a heart to heart with myself over a cup of coffee. I went up to me and said "Me, what's wrong? I've been acting sadder then I usually am, what's wrong egg?" I simply gave myself a shrug and sadly responded "I dunno, I really want to have fun but something is missing... it feels like I am going through the motions," I gave myself a sad sigh. "Oh me, what am I going to with I? How am I going to win a game that I don't have the will to even play," It was at this time I was politely, but sternly, asked to leave by the Starbuck's Barista because I was "disturbing patrons with my mental breakdown," Which was bullshit by the way, I've had like 6 mental breakdown and they are not nearly as tame as me talking to myself. And so, as I argued with the barista and as threatened to call the cops, I had a realization. I have been experiencing the human emotion known as 'pouting'. I have given up because I felt like I had no opportunity to get to the end, that I was either going to get dragged as a goat or voted pre merge. But I have things I can use to my advantage. I don't have to lie down and play dead. If I just pretend to be a good little soldier until merge, reconvene with Sarah and some others, I could do something incredible. For now I just need to play nice. I have decided to stick with my allies. Not because I suddenly grew a brain. Not because I felt some sort of kinship with them or 'friendship'. It's just the best thing I can do Here is an elaboratation on my reasoning the form of a chart: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qPAkC4IhbNWgE2II29QqNaQFR1rgckfBEK_yKCOat5A/edit?usp=sharing 

Oh right, I almost forgot to mention during my ego maniacal ramblings. We are going to probably through the challenge to save Sarah (For strictly strategic purposes... I promise). I say probably because nothing has been confirmed. TBH if we lose, even if it is unintentionally, I'm about 80% sure Jordan Pines will claim that he meant to do it. Welp that's a common side effect of working with a narcissist. What are you gonna do?

Okay so FUCK this tribe swap. I am literally stuck on a tribe of people I have like never even spoken to, that is my fault of course, but damn how did I get so unlucky? Jaiden says he chose me because I am good in challenges and that I am a nice person, I mean that is nice and all but I am now separated from Gavin, Jordan, Alex, literally anyone who I actually liked and was hoping to really get to work with. This counting challenge is also a goddamn mess. Dom has gotten us like -25,000 points already ON PURPOSE. He tells me he likes me and isn't coming after me, but that leaves only two other returnees on our tribe that he could go after; Jaiden and Sarah. Sarah is kind of certain that Jaiden and Dom are working together, which kind of goes against the whole "newbies vs. villains" thing they are trying to start. But who knows. I can only hope the guys on the other tribe will also try throwing some challenges to give Sarah and I a chance over here on this tribe. They don't want newbies to have majority either.

Jaiden picked me to be on his tribe so that was perfect because I really did not want to be on the other tribe. Lexi spoke to me a bit and let me know that Ruben talked highly of me and how she was fond of me for that reason Robin's nice Jaiden's cool and we've both wanted to be on the same tribe for quite a while now so that finally happened Ashley rarely ever speaks to me and forgets to reply constantly Sarah only now started talking to me a bit more since she believes she's in the minority and Jordan probably said she could flip me Dom is a bit suspicious at times but I believe he trusts me and that he wants to take the newbies far I lost it again last night after the results, I should have done my confessional then but everyone already assumes I'm already crazy so maybe we'll save that for later. I feel a bit more calm now but last night I wanted to request tribal and still do sort of but I don’t think it’s possible. I wish I threw the challenge since I hate when the other tribe gets what they want and I don’t want Ruben to go. I like this Lexi, Robin, Dom group going on so I am hoping to solidify that soon and I think they assume it’s newbies vs returnees still. I’m hoping that by some miracle, a returnee gets voted out and apparently Dom just handed Ruben an idol. I believe Jordan assumes I’m closest with him still and that’s why Sarah has been trying to talk to me more lmao! I like Jordan so we'll see where that goes but he's controlling a huge part of the game as of now. Sarah should have tried a bit earlier to speak to me because now it seems like desperation, but I’ll keep playing this middle role, it amuses me. Sarah said she only really talks to Ashley so that's nothing new since I assumed she was close with her from that returnee alliance before the swap. Here’s to hoping the next challenge is something easily thrown so we can finally say goodbye to Sarah or Ashley :)

That was honestly a messy challenge result. I don't necessarily blame anyone for throwing though. I didn't know I was in the negatives so I'm sure everyone probably made mistakes they didn't catch. I'm worried for Ruben. He's the only one from my old alliance on the other tribe. Dom gave him his idol though so he'll hopefully be safe. On another note, I've been talking to the other Lexi. To be honest, if started off because I confused her for lexi my ally. We're getting along pretty well. She's definitely someone I'd like to work with in the future. Jaiden's also pretty cool so I have my bases covered once we go to tribal