#yes im dealing with the all consuming terror very well how about you

[ravenwoodalum]

[slutsofren]

Ahhh!! The latest chapter!! Freaking FINALLY reader admits at least to herself, her feelings for Rhys. Just wait though!! There’s still Azriel and Cassian ohohohohohoho! I look forward to the next one! Would it be possible to get a director’s cut of Rhys waiting for Reader to show up after she and Tarquin got the book of breathings? And how he has had to sit and wait for HOURS listening to Tarquin ask for her? Thank you so much! I love your work ❤️❤️❤️

teehee yes!! if im being very honest, i really cannot wait for like The Talk as we're all dubbing it. like... c'mon you KNOW cass and az (especially az) is losing their shit the longer this goes on. at this point i haven't outlined the whole Talk because i want it to flow naturally but i am cooking up one hell of an idea for how it's gonna go so i hope ya'll like it!!

director's cut under the... well cut lol

reminder this is reader x Cass/Az/Rhys polyamory & FMMM

content warnings: a hint of jealousy

notes: lmfao this was fun to write! i also liked that i could delve into a bit of rhy's mind when it comes to him thinking about the bond and how he views his own trauma, so thank you for this directors cut!!

word count; 1,301

read on ao3 / high lady masterlist

Rhysand is, for all intents and purposes, annoyed. Well, if he was being honest with himself, he would admit it was more than annoyance that coated his vision when, really, it was a low simmering rage. He was awake all night after hearing you scream. A sound he could go the rest of his existence without hearing again.

Then you ran from him, yelling at him to not touch you, only for him to send Azriel to keep watch on you. He knew, better than most, how these night terrors could plague a mind, how Amarantha could nestle her claws into one’s mind for months. He knew, he still had those nights, just as he knew you did.

A whisk of black smoke hailed in the corner of the room just as Azriel stepped out. “Tarquin sensed me.”

Frustrated, he wanted to throw something. Instead he settled for running his hands through his hair. “Tell me everything.”

“He knows she has his power, manipulating water. She was leaking darkness all over the palace,” Azriel reported in a shockingly still voice. Rhysand had half expected him to be just as panicked as he felt but Azriel had always been reserved, always keeping his emotions close to his chest. “He threatened to oust us all for spying on him under false pretenses if I didn’t leave. I wasn’t going to but then she told me to go, and Rhsyand,” he said, his voice growing pained. “She looked defeated.”

“Fuck,” he cursed. “A part of me doesn’t even want to bother with the damned Book at this rate, just take our mate and go home but-,” Rhysand cut himself off and sighed, then looked at Azriel. Azriel, his brother in arms, his best friend, his spymaster, his fellow mate in the eyes of the Mother. “Tarquin has somehow managed to pull smiles from Feyre in ways none of us have seen. Had she not had a nightmare tonight, this entire mission would have been worth it for that alone. She’s eating more here, even pushing against us like she did earlier, she hasn’t done that since she was human.”

Since before she died, he refrained from saying.

It took everything in him to keep himself still, that maybe, just this once, you needed something he couldn’t provide. Being mates wasn’t the end all to your trauma, just as it wasn’t for him. He had to work hard, day in and day out, to keep himself from spiraling, and there were still nights where he couldn’t find comfort in your scent nor in the bond that wrapped around his heart, binding him to you for the rest of his days.

That’s the way the invisible wounds Amarantha caused worked, they couldn’t be found at the end of a bottle or deep in the throws of fucking another. You just had to deal with it before it consumed you. And that was something he still struggled with.

Azriel left not long after that, snuffing out his own desire to search the grounds for you as well.

Needless to say, he paced his bedroom until your familiar footsteps were heard, the soft click of your door, then the rustling of blankets. It was then he let the tension seep away from his shoulders and felt himself sigh in relief. Once he sat in a chair, he realized he wanted to sneak into your room. Not to watch you sleep, but to watch over you and make sure that you were safe. Still, he refrained. You had ensured a boundary between you and him, one that he respected beyond all measure, even if his instincts roared at him otherwise.

If this was going to happen, he was going to do it right.

He will not make his mates pay for his mistakes. Not again.

Then morning came and you remained asleep without fuss, another small weight lifted from his worries. It wasn’t until he and Amren were in the ornate room set aside for political conferences that his… annoyance reared its ugly head everytime your name fell from Tarquin’s lips.

The Summer Court High Lord praised your refreshing attitude in the Court, praised your beauty, inferred his own admiration of your prowess, your cunning. Every time he said something complimentary of you, Rhysand imagined a new way of torture.

You know, for reasons.

Not because he was jealous, no he didn’t know the meaning of the word. That was absurd. Rhysand? The strongest, most beautiful and powerful of the High Lords, jealous? Unheard of.

Conversation shifted then, ongoing to preparations for a small evening celebration tomorrow for your group's departure. Cresseida had found herself in his lap eventually, rubbing her hands all over his shoulders. Had she had been a different female, you to be precise, he would have been drowning in euphoria. Still, he kept his hands firmly on her hips, no higher or lower, a haunting reminiscent of the nights Under the Mountain when he took you dancing during those pathetic parties Amarantha prided herself on.

Then, over lunch, Tarquin asked about you once more. “Where has the beautiful Feyre been this morning? Don’t tell me I wore her out last night,” he said with a twinkle in his eye.

Had he not been a better male, he would have either crushed the table or, stars, maybe even Tarquin’s throat, alas he was. He was better than this. He had to be, especially since he actually liked the poor bastard.

Rhsyand gave a noncommittal shrug as he drank a bit of wine to clear his mouth. “Since her transformation, Feyre has not had an easy adjustment to this life, and being Fae, so is resting as much as she can. Tamlin did not treat her evolution with as much grace as he should have.”

As the words leave him, the food before him loses its appeal. It was a shame too seeing as Rhysand had grown fond of bread with olive oil that was famous in the Summer Court.

Furthermore, the deep longing of regret pains him. All these years have flown by and he did not know what happened to his friend, of the male he became. Amarantha dug her claws into him and made irrevocable changes to Rhys, and still, a part of him lingers on wondering how did she ruined his friend as well.

“If I am overstepping then forgive me, but I must ask… is it true then that Tamlin trapped her within Rosehall and your court rescued her,” Tarquin asked respectfully.

Rhys’ hands flexed into fists. “It is true, and it will not be discussed further. It is not our story to tell and I am not fond of being on the receiving end of Feyre’s wrath.”

His fellow High Lord let out a snorting laugh. “Don’t I know it. I swore she almost wanted to murder me in my sleep for a moment there last night.”

Curiosity rose within him. In fact, he realized that this entire morning, Tarquin had not mentioned anything about Azriel nor of the slight Rhys had committed against him. “Do tell how you may have gotten on her wrong side,” he mused. Come on Tarq, where did you take my mate last night, what did you do with her, he thought.

“We were walking along the beach and I made a comment about the attractiveness of a male who caught my eye,” he said, smile lines hitting his eyes. “She didn’t like that very much.”

That spark of interest flared even more. “Oh? And do tell who the two of you were eyeing?”

Tarquin reached for a grape from his plate and smirked. “That spymaster of yours. She seems to be protective of him.”

That’s my girl, Rhysand praises inwardly. “Oh, you have no idea.”

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The Terror finale

thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:31 PM Hello! highglossfinishYesterday at 9:31 PM Hello there! We'll dive right in because we've got a great deal of Terror to get through. thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:32 PM Oh wow, sunlight HopolitesYesterday at 9:33 PM Yes, the sun does indeed exist. highglossfinishYesterday at 9:34 PM Everyone knows the sun is a myth invented by Those Who Live Above. thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:34 PM Ha! highglossfinishYesterday at 9:38 PM "And eating English lead." thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:38 PM That, too. HopolitesYesterday at 9:38 PM Pffft Yes Sounds delicious thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:39 PM "If you know what I mean." I swear, whenever there's an outdoors scene I'm struck by how they don't quite seem to be dressed for the alleged temperatures HopolitesYesterday at 9:44 PM Also I once again have made the unwise descision of grabbing food during this show Also To be fair No one is remotely prepared thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:45 PM ...man HopolitesYesterday at 9:45 PM Whoops! You Have PTSD! thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:45 PM God, poor guy

HopolitesYesterday at 9:48 PM As he was pulling off his sock I was so worried something horrible would be revealed underneath them highglossfinishYesterday at 9:48 PM There'll be plenty of opportunities for that. thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:49 PM I bet it's something good he just saw, huh See!  Free supplies! HopolitesYesterday at 9:49 PM Oh yes Im all excited to see what weird horrors this show has in store for us, but also I would like to eat my food before anything- WHELP. thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:50 PM Ah. No bets on whether he'll end up eating those words HopolitesYesterday at 9:54 PM Ooooh yeah highglossfinishYesterday at 9:55 PM Got to love the study accumulation of things that certainly won't backfire horribly later. thenightetc2Yesterday at 9:56 PM Ohhh dear oh nooo, not the dog :< HopolitesYesterday at 10:03 PM I hope the dog reaches people before them Im reminded of a movie made of a short story done by the guy who did call of the wild that I watched in class It was about a guy trying to walk in the alaskan wilderness to a mining camp, and he literally had only a couple of shirts, and like, a dog My class cheered when the dog reached safety. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:06 PM What just happened?  The framerate has gotten super bad HopolitesYesterday at 10:07 PM Framerate is fine for me. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:07 PM Like the picture just pauses for several seconds Better, now ...well, I spoke too soon HopolitesYesterday at 10:09 PM Oh okay cannibalism is happening now. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:09 PM ~foreshadowing~ oh god :< poor dog... HopolitesYesterday at 10:10 PM This isnt even just foreshadowing, this is- oh thats wild. highglossfinishYesterday at 10:11 PM Cybertronians have cannibalism and a robust amount of things that consume us, but I have to say, it's a glorious thing not to be made of meat. This will end well for everyone involved. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:14 PM Definitely HopolitesYesterday at 10:15 PM Cant wait to see what happens. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:16 PM I feel no foreboding HopolitesYesterday at 10:16 PM Yes, this music doesn't bring up any worries at all. highglossfinishYesterday at 10:16 PM What a nice family. Only good times ahead. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:16 PM Uh oh Is that that "paradoxal undressing" or whatever it's called HopolitesYesterday at 10:18 PM Hmm Oh its stuttering thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:19 PM Oh, it's even called "horrible from supper" HopolitesYesterday at 10:19 PM Okay, I kinda love the incredibly creepy music thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:23 PM Urgh ... so you're saying you deserve to be here, huh And that other guy really IS a fake. HopolitesYesterday at 10:27 PM I would embrace a horribly punny name highglossfinishYesterday at 10:27 PM I heartily embrace mine. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:28 PM Heh. highglossfinishYesterday at 10:28 PM The Good News bell. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:28 PM It must be! HopolitesYesterday at 10:29 PM Oh always OH OF COURSE highglossfinishYesterday at 10:29 PM That's the bell that sounds when someone hasn't been stabbed. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:31 PM It doesn't get rung a lot, as you can imagine Oh, jesus SO now he's trying to frame some random people they ran into HopolitesYesterday at 10:33 PM Of course. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:36 PM yikes Ohhh no "show me exactly where you were found straddling his corpse half-naked" highglossfinishYesterday at 10:42 PM Hah! thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:42 PM oh, that's not good HopolitesYesterday at 10:43 PM Ah yes, lovely. Ah yes, a bunch of lead filled idiots have guns. thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:45 PM "whimsical tinkly music" so he's, uh, enjoying those drugs for now HopolitesYesterday at 10:46 PM I think his brain is doing a wiggle thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:48 PM dude, stop HopolitesYesterday at 10:49 PM Goodbye miss! Have a better life away from this guys! thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:49 PM "come to my country!  you can be treated like a circus animal and catch novel diseases!" highglossfinishYesterday at 10:49 PM Go with her, have a gaggle of tiny be-mutton chopped humans together. It's not going to get better. "Don't you want to die in eight months of smallpox?" HopolitesYesterday at 10:51 PM Is that the leg thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:52 PM What, uh... what's going to be in his... stomach HopolitesYesterday at 10:52 PM Please roll up your sleeves thenightetc2Yesterday at 10:52 PM Oh. HopolitesYesterday at 10:52 PM Yep thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:00 PM Well well. Oh damn it he's getting away HopolitesYesterday at 11:02 PM Amazing. thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:05 PM y'know, if the bear-thing's supposed to be some kind of revenge for all those murders, it has VERY poor timing HopolitesYesterday at 11:05 PM Actually no it has great timing I love the dichotomy of this scene compared to the previous one Its very funny Okay that zoomed in uncomfortably close to her face thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:13 PM Decent of him. highglossfinishYesterday at 11:13 PM At least spit in a few of them. thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:14 PM They're already all poisoned. Gaaaah HopolitesYesterday at 11:15 PM Whelp He is thoroughly befuckened. OOO DOUBLE SCREWED And hes the food isnt he thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:16 PM Ugh. HopolitesYesterday at 11:18 PM Whelp highglossfinishYesterday at 11:18 PM Well, then. thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:18 PM So it's the scurvy, then HopolitesYesterday at 11:20 PM Eyup thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:20 PM Yes, yes, we get it, you're laying the groundwork to eat someone soon. HopolitesYesterday at 11:21 PM Like, how obvious can they be? thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:22 PM So he's going to be first. "Good news, everyone!" highglossfinishYesterday at 11:23 PM Hah! thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:26 PM "there will be NO cannibalism on THIS trip" HopolitesYesterday at 11:28 PM Well, nice to see she got back to her people safe. thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:28 PM yeah ah highglossfinishYesterday at 11:37 PM Everything about these two hurts. thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:37 PM an albatross, perhaps? god burn poor guy HopolitesYesterday at 11:41 PM Several layers of Oof highglossfinishYesterday at 11:42 PM The oof never ends. HopolitesYesterday at 11:42 PM AN EVEN LOUDER OOF SharpwingYesterday at 11:46 PM Hi all! I am. At Walmart. So I cannot join in to watch... apparently foreshadowed cannibalism But I would like to say hi anyway HopolitesYesterday at 11:47 PM It is no longer foreshadowed highglossfinishYesterday at 11:47 PM Oh no, it's very much the opposite by this point. SharpwingYesterday at 11:47 PM agh highglossfinishYesterday at 11:47 PM But glad to have you pop in just the same. SharpwingYesterday at 11:48 PM Ok no regrets about not seeing... that. But yes! It's great to see you! How ya doing? thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:50 PM oof highglossfinishYesterday at 11:50 PM No complaints! And you? HopolitesYesterday at 11:51 PM Oh okay mr hickey has gone full weird SharpwingYesterday at 11:51 PM No complaints here either!:blush: oof, weird how? (If you feel like elaborating) HopolitesYesterday at 11:51 PM Standing int the super cold morning smiling smuggly thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:51 PM on a table HopolitesYesterday at 11:52 PM Also only wearing one layer of clothes SharpwingYesterday at 11:52 PM Yep that's Very Weird HopolitesYesterday at 11:57 PM "But what about second mutiny?" thenightetc2Yesterday at 11:57 PM pffffff highglossfinishYesterday at 11:57 PM Hah! Local man ruins everything. HopolitesToday at 12:00 AM Whoopsiedoo! highglossfinishToday at 12:04 AM Last episode. Here we go. HopolitesToday at 12:04 AM Woooo! Cant wait to see what slightly insane things will happen next! Im going to guess they will proceed to lose, at least, ten men. thenightetc2Today at 12:10 AM oof :< HopolitesToday at 12:14 AM Oh boy thenightetc2Today at 12:16 AM ...he poisoned himself in some way? highglossfinishToday at 12:16 AM Oh, this is excruciating. HopolitesToday at 12:17 AM Fascinating hallucination. thenightetc2Today at 12:18 AM ... gaaah highglossfinishToday at 12:24 AM Very gaah. HopolitesToday at 12:24 AM Sometimes I hate having pain empathy. Eesh thenightetc2Today at 12:26 AM definitely was covering himself in poison at the end there, then HopolitesToday at 12:27 AM Ooooh yeeeeeah thenightetc2Today at 12:28 AM ...I remember once someone asked you what you thought the worst thing one human could do to another would be, and you said you thought it was probably forcing someone to eat, well, this Can't imagine why I remembered that just now! HopolitesToday at 12:29 AM HAH Hopefully they dont have the lowest bidder for food. Again. HopolitesToday at 12:30 AM I mean, at that point it would be funny. Nooot really on the fur department. thenightetc2Today at 12:32 AM Called it. HopolitesToday at 12:32 AM Of course. Very inspirational. Just shoot him. thenightetc2Today at 12:36 AM I can't get over how fucked up it looks. Is this a SHAVED bear? HopolitesToday at 12:36 AM The bear has no fur Like, how will they make a coat from it? thenightetc2Today at 12:36 AM Good point. HA HopolitesToday at 12:37 AM Is the reason why the bear looks like that because- HA! HAAAA! thenightetc2Today at 12:37 AM GOOD RIDDANCE HopolitesToday at 12:38 AM But yeah, does the bear look like that because a proper polar bear would be too cute and fluffy looking? highglossfinishToday at 12:38 AM It's covered with a fine layer of fuzz and old man skin. They can make a coat of that. I think it's to emphasize that it's not an actual bear. HopolitesToday at 12:39 AM Right yeah, it had creepily human eyes. thenightetc2Today at 12:39 AM Gotta be OH NO highglossfinishToday at 12:46 AM You did the best you could, Stumpy. thenightetc2Today at 12:48 AM the camp of people who are definitely still alive HopolitesToday at 12:48 AM I once again have to say that I like the music highglossfinishToday at 12:48 AM Likewise. thenightetc2Today at 12:48 AM very eerie. okay WHAT HopolitesToday at 12:49 AM Uh what thenightetc2Today at 12:49 AM What the fuck has been going on here highglossfinishToday at 12:49 AM Apparently they really did find him like that, and absolutely no one then or now can explain why. HopolitesToday at 12:49 AM Wild! What the fuck! thenightetc2Today at 12:50 AM Maybe they all got the hypothermia madness HopolitesToday at 12:50 AM Also I love by the bend in his sleeve you can tell the actor has just, tucked his hand into it. highglossfinishToday at 12:50 AM Sensible child. thenightetc2Today at 12:51 AM dude did you not realize she has a name HopolitesToday at 12:51 AM SHE HAS A NAME YOU DIPSHIT highglossfinishToday at 12:52 AM I wonder if she ever told Goodsir. thenightetc2Today at 12:54 AM ...oh HopolitesToday at 12:54 AM Oh its because she summoned the monster highglossfinishToday at 12:54 AM It's because it died on her watch. And that's The Terror! thenightetc2Today at 12:59 AM Well. It sure was! That was a hell of a thing. HopolitesToday at 12:59 AM I do appreciate how much the show kept telling us that the British didnt belong there highglossfinishToday at 12:59 AM Wasn't it just? Awfully nice of them to let him live with them after his men killed one of their shaman and then their protector spirit. thenightetc2Today at 1:01 AM Yes SharpwingToday at 1:01 AM :eyes:like what thenightetc2Today at 1:01 AM He had some weird piercings in his face, and chains--like, jewellery chains--attached to them HopolitesToday at 1:02 AM Im sorry but I love this video making fun of the british mispronouncing a inuit word SharpwingToday at 1:02 AM Isn't getting a piercing a common occurrence during a crisis? HopolitesToday at 1:03 AM COLD BOYS thenightetc2Today at 1:03 AM ldfkjg HopolitesToday at 1:05 AM Is this a cheesy edit someone did I feel I shouldn't be giggling at this edit like I am. thenightetc2Today at 1:08 AM Sea shanty SNL? highglossfinishToday at 1:08 AM OH, YES! Perfect! thenightetc2Today at 1:12 AM FOrty-five minutes from shore! HopolitesToday at 1:13 AM Amazing. thenightetc2Today at 1:13 AM Very amazing. highglossfinishToday at 1:13 AM And that, I believe, is a good place to wrap it up! thenightetc2Today at 1:13 AM Well!  Thank you, once more, for hosting. HopolitesToday at 1:14 AM Rest well! highglossfinishToday at 1:14 AM And thank you for allowing me to subject you to this show! HopolitesToday at 1:14 AM Was fun! Always nice to make fun of the british. SharpwingToday at 1:14 AM :blush::wave: Thank you! I hope your next two weeks is good♡ highglossfinishToday at 1:14 AM And yours too! thenightetc2Today at 1:14 AM Goodnight! ...I actually have a suggestion for next time, if you're interested in something animated and a bit stupid. Latte and the magic waterstone highglossfinishToday at 1:17 AM Looks promising and delightfully stupid. Latte it is. thenightetc2Today at 1:18 AM :D