#you can still have those nice experiences but you don't have to grovel at the guy's feet to make your funny little show some more

[ravenwolfie97]

i just got very heated all of a sudden

so an announcement just came out about a youtuber retiring from their content, and won't be making videos nearly as frequently and some fan on twitter was like "SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW THAT CONTENT IS MY COMFORT SHOW WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT IT" and i'm just like. god. how entitled are you

like i'm not going to devalue one's interest or commitment to a piece of media. if that particular thing brings you comfort or even saved you from a dark place, that's fantastic. no issues there

what really pisses me off is seeing someone retire from a content-creating career spanning over a decade long to prioritize their health and their family and going "but what about me? why are you not producing the thing i love anymore?" like what the FUCK that's a fucking human being you're talking about, not a machine

i really hate the kinds of people who have this insane attachment to creatives and their work where the content is the only thing that matters to them and if they don't get more they'll die, but like why don't you care about the creator as a person? why do you only view them as a factory to make a thing you just so happen to like? obviously they made those things in order for them to be enjoyed by others, but the whining of a handful of fanatics is not going to stop them from slowing down or ceasing creation entirely, because as meaningful as it is that they have fans that enjoy their work, it's still the creator's choice whether or not to continue their creations. they are only human. we can only do so much. and out of a sea of subscribers, You in particular are not going to change their mind

[bealusith]

I really enjoy your writing, the way you portray processes we didn’t get so see is so great and fills a gap in my heart that was left by druck’s mediocre writing. Thank you for your art 💙

I just saw another anon’s comment about Isi missing Sascha and Ep 6-8 and even though you said you were fine with the clips, I wanted to ask what you thought about the whole „Isi‘s friends nudge him into Sascha’s direction“-thing.

Because I thought those talks with Kieu My and Lou were bad, so much lacking context. I‘m so glad you gave it some context in your version (earlier dialogue about it, Isi having an earlier realization). Yet I wanted to know what you thought about them.

You said you had a writing plan already, so sorry for asking, but maybe if you didn’t include it already… I wonder how Sascha and Isi spent the night at the queer youth club. After Isi avoided the space, how did they experience it once they dared to be there? And how did Sascha introduce her to his queer life, that he supposedly had but never invited Isi to? What were they talking about? How did they handle the whole situation of being inbetween friends and lovers at an unknown place? Awkward silence, careful touches or euphoric dancing…?

thank you so much!

it is filling a gap for me, too; and I actually find that it's occupying more and more space - I tend to write myself into new thoughts, so I feel that now I understand these characters (the versions of them in my head) better than I did two weeks ago - which is nice.

... belatedly putting the rest under read more.

let me be very clear: I was fine with episode 7, I am very much not fine with episode 8. I can see what the writers were going for, but I think they were very clumsy with it. there was more to Isi's talks with Kieu My and Lou than Sascha. in the clip with Kieu My, we saw Isi struggling to find his balance (he was still lost) and giving up on the rehearsal after he'd failed again (Isi's consistent character flaw is avoiding anything that's difficult, usually conversations, to the detriment of his relationships with others). it was a nice way of showing the audience where Isi is at. I liked that he asked Kieu My if he was a bad person; it is a bit dramatic and childish, which is how I see Isi. I don't like Kieu My’s answer. I think this season does disservice to her, in general. Kieu My is someone with very high standards for herself, and it would make sense if she had regrets about her own treatment of Ava - it should've been the subtext of the dance team interactions; so I would expect her to take the question seriously. not to tell Isi that yes, he's a horrible person and he should grovel, but I would expect - well anything but her telling them it's silly. so I think we should have a more serious conversation about what can you do after you genuinely hurt someone you care about (this doesn't even have to be about Ava; Kieu My could think of Fatou here). we should not have Kieu My teasing Isi about Sascha, because the only time we saw them together was the "thoughts off" clip, which did nothing to explore Sascha's interactions with Isi's other friends (I have to say I don't like it at all; Sascha's entrance doesn't work for me). it makes no sense!

in the second clip, Isi fixes his relationship with Lou - which had to happen, because she's an important person to him, and he had to take responsibility for his part in the Free Weedy fiasco. they reconcile; we hear that Isi doesn't want to reconcile with Constantin, and then we have Lou asking Isi about their crush. I pointed it out once that it seems significant that the conversation happens under Lou's car - like. we are seeing the insides of things, we are getting real! (relevant: Lou opens the car - again, to expose its insides - in the background when Isi and Constantin talk in the last episode...). we also have a moment of Isi being distinctly unimpressed by Lou (he thinks cars are a little bit gross and boring) and her by him (she does not get his thing with plants). so we have the contrast of this first crush, which has now totally worn off, with Isi discovering her real feelings for Sascha... only they seem to have been already discovered. which is really confusing. as everyone said, Lou should've said friend, and make it into a call-back to episode 2. so, for my own sanity, I mostly ignore it and keep to the opinion that Isi properly realized what they'd felt only when they'd almost kissed Sascha. this line from my fic - He’ll tell you he’ll do something, but he’ll do whatever he feels like. And he won’t even know what it is until he does it - was me writing meta on Isi more than a character line. so, this is what I think!

don't be sorry! I like plans, but it's not such a huge deal. when I sat to write today I realized I would have to split the next chapter in two, so the count went up again... I am obviously going to write a Rainbow Night follow-up; right now I feel like it will be the most important chapter. it's so crucial! I really enjoyed the associated social media content, so that is the vibe I'll be going for. I think that both of them were too euphoric and then too worn out (thinking here of Isi sleeping in Sascha's stories...) to have a proper conversation at that point. & they were surrounded by people all the time. Sascha in general, I think, communicates his big feelings with a few days' delay, if at all. so I think it'd take him until the middle of next week to say anything.

it is very interesting to think of Sascha as more or less settled in his identity as a queer person when Isi doesn't know what dysphoria is... unfortunately I think it's because the writers wanted to avoid an obviously queer character falling for their straight best friend and decided to do the opposite of that, but I do my best not to see it that way. oh, actually; to refer to my fic again - I mentioned Sascha coming out in a roundabout way, I had that written out. so my personal headcanon is that when he and Isi were becoming friends again in the lockdown (& please remember that it was season six Isi, who's asked Fatou if Kieu My was a top), Isi teased him quite a lot (you're a catch, why don't you have a girlfriend - or a boyfriend) & after two months of realizations he didn't share with anyone, Sascha said it was bad timing with the lockdown again because he'd just worked up his courage to go to a queer youth group and now he'd have to start the process all over again. to which Isi said "what - you're - what," and then punched him in the arm and laughed. so that's how I see it - Sascha'd thought about it, and then he committed.