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six-of-ravens · 1 year

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tomorrow's the day mom has to take a cab to the hospital for her appointment, and everyone's kinda nervous about it since she hasn't gone to an appointment alone since before the pandemic, but also we kinda decided her taking a cab will be a good test as to whether she can actually use the city's handibus/handi-taxi service again. It's basically the same as getting a cab -- in fact the city often sends a cab instead of a bus. You pay for both with transit tickets, the mode of transport you get just depends on where you live and where you're going I think.

anyway I'm less worried about the actual cab aspect and more worried that a) she won't remember where to go for her appointment/be able to navigate the hospital, or b) she won't go at all and will try to lie about it. but, well, there's only one way to find out.

#she's nervous about it too but she also has anxiety so i can't tell if shes just anxious bc she doesn't often go out alone #or if she's genuinely going to have problems #dad refused to ask for time off to take her (he could've told his job he had a medical appt and they would've given him the day nbd but no)#and he's been doing the thing where he just complains constantly about it bc he's expecting someone else to step in and take over but #he doesn't want to solve the problem himself even though there's a clear solution OR actually ask with real words.#so between that and him unwisely jumping for the first job offered instead of taking something part time or waiting until may #when mom's last 2 appts are over and shes signed up for the handibus system again #i was getting kind of frustrated...#so i was like. fine. you say you talked to mom and she said she's okay with taking a cab so then you can do that.#I think she only said yes bc she kind of nods along with whatever and only thinks about it later bc every convo lately is #'oh tuesday i have to take TWO CABS to the hospital and home'#yeah she's doing the same thing dad does where she just insinuates that she doesn't like the situation but doesn't openly ask for help #so ANYWAYS. im frustrated with both of them and im like. you are going to take a cab then #you'll be taking them to the rest of your appts anyway just in a slightly different form #so im not taking the afternoon off #and i just hope nothing goes terribly wrong and mom's capable and just anxious bc if something does go wrong I'll feel horribly guilty #but like....yeah. is mom actually incapable of getting herself through a hospital to her physio office or is she just anxious bc #she's been relying on my dad to take her to everything for 2 years and never leaves the house on her own and is out of practice?#remains to be seen #i will be relieved when tomorrow is over though #then i just have to worry about her appt at the beginning of may. which hopefully dad will be available for since his current job seems to #be off to a rocky start (tbh i think he's just too old to be working delivery truck jobs. sorry dad. but technology has outpaced him)#but anyway hopefully dad can take her to that and if not I'll have to bc there's been too much violence at train stations lately #and her appt for the handibus is of course in a train station #i hope i don't have to take her bc I'm going to the comic expo the week before and it's going to be annoying to then be gone again #but yeah anyway i hate this. why couldn't dad get a part time job where he has some control over his shifts at least #he's so ingrained in this idea that you can never take time off or ask to go to appointments or anything bc that makes you a Bad Employee #but it's like....dude youre semi-retired and you are the primary caretaker for your wife. i don't mind stepping up sometimes but also #can you pls remember that before making bug life decisions??

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