#zaccy Z

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I literally love when you pop up on my for you page please marry me 💍

I'm so embarrassed rn why are you guys so sweet

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cough syrup

I write this while stuck in my room, with covid. HAHAHAHAAH. :’D It’s incredibly ironic, because i took my booster a week ago, hoping to score some WFH days. And not shy of a week later, i got hit. Kinda makes you wonder if the booster’s just a pseudo, made to soothe our hearts and minds, when in actual fact we’re all bound to get it eventually; not a matter of how, but when. More WFH days i guess :-D 

But if i don’t recover by Tues, I’ll have to burn money on some theatre tickets i booked. Don’t even know if it’s transferrable. Was joking with zaccy that i might end up ODing on cough syrup if i don’t recover in time :’D lmao. But also, yes, I’ve been burning a lot of money lately, some incidental, some on purpose. I... don’t want to talk about it. :’) iykyk.

So yes, covid. Isolating in my room, feeling all groggy and weak, yet somehow the thoughts don’t come anymore. They’ve stopped coming a while back, and i’m in such a good place. I’ve mentioned on ig that i think this year is going to be a year of change, of exploration, and i’m beginning to see the fruits of that declaration. Many things are changing, and i’m glad they are. You’re stirring up the old leftover miso soup and heating it up again. With new spring onions and chopped parsley. And tofu! Mmmm :-) 

And... work update (i suppose) - 

It’s been 9 months! Reaching my 1 year mark soon. And I see Your favour surrounding me like a shield, gift wrapping me to the managers. I sometimes ask, why me? of all people, why me? i’m not the smartest, i’m not the quickest learner, yet those words still ring in my head - “i see drive and passion in you.” It’s crazy! Crazy to think that this lousy good for nothing always late always bickering engineer gets special attention just because of God’s goodness. How can!!! And everyone jokes that i’m going to be the next up and coming manager. Ha. YA RIGHT. Funny hor! But in God’s ecosystem, who am i to say otherwise? I don’t want to let it get to my head, and i pray for humility everyday, because i know for a fact that i am nothing without Your grace. I’m inconsistent, and dispensable, yet You cherry picked me among all the other more capable scholars out there. It’s still a big question mark to me. But if favour means doing Your work and spreading Your grace, i’m all for it :-). I’m all for You. 

(cue shengsiong joke)

And last but definitely not least (far from it, actually),

hi Z. hehehehehehehehehehheehehehe.

if u ever see this, know that, from the bottom of my heart, i believe God is doing a new thing, and i’m so so so excited for whats to come, i actually really just wanted to say hi. 

okbye. xoxo