#zitha blabs

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Do you all have an f/o who you love but would not hesitate to fight on sight? Like if you met them on the street you would immediately throw hands?

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...kinf of feel like changing my name again

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If one of my presents under the tree this year isn’t my f/o then I don’t want it.

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If I wasnt a coward I would have a selfshipping blog dedicated to sebastian

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In a shocking turn of events ns I actually feel like drawing

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I dreamt about marrying Eisuke and I'm

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My coping mechanism is finding new fictional characters to love me unconditionally without ever having to worry about getting hurt and I think that’s pretty neat of me

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Since I’ve been sick I’ve been in the mood to write so I might write some things and see how I like them...I might post them if I like them enough

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Among Us but selfship edition where we all play as our f/os and descend into madness

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I have a long story in my head for me and Seb that perfectly explains our relationship and dynamic and yet, I can't seem to write it down. It's always been very personal and intimate for me, a way to vent my thoughts and feelings without care. I'm starting to realize that might be the reason why I don't share a lot of my thoughts and feelings on our relationship. It's complicated, full of a lot of angst and negativity that you don't see a lot of within the community, because most everything is very positive and bright (nothing wrong with that at all! It's wonderful) that makes me hesitant to become personal because I don't want to offend anyone or seem like I'm promoting something unhealthy. I try to keep my f/os mostly in canon and for Sebastian, it's more difficult because why I try to be as realistic as I can be... I also like to self indulge.

I'd like to share what I think but I don't want to upset anyone, so I just keep it to myself and there's really no one to blame for that but myself. As much as I want to share the ups of our relationship I also want to share the downs.

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My brain went from getting married to my fos to starting families with them and I dont know how to process this

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My  wisdom teeth have been killing me and all I’ve wanted to do is sleep lately. Sorry for being practically a ghost lately. Just in a lot of pain and tired.

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Wow my brain is really stuck on marriage. I look at my f/os and just think, “Wow, I want to marry them!” and then I am assaulted by domestic thoughts and fluffy feelings.

For someone so against marriage I sure do think about it a lot.

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Sometimes I want to put this blog aside and start fresh, do things over and propery. I just feel kind of stuck, and like I'm not really doing anything with this. I dont know I. I'm unhappy with it or not.

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Giving my self inserts names is making me feel more open to talking about them. They are still connected to me but seperate enough.

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I'm going to gush about my f/os a little because I've been feeling like shit and to make myself feel better I came up with some headcanons for me and some of my f/os

- One of the most romantic dates Mitsu ever arranged was a picnic on the roof at night with  a view of all the city lights. He made a whole spread of delicious food that they ate while sipping wine, marveling at the city below them. It's become their go to date spot now.

- Ota sleep talks and it's really adorable. He gets really embarrassed if it gets brought up and denies the fact.

- Zitha is constantly worrying for Eisuke's health. The man works himself too hard! More often than not they find him asleep at his desk long after they've gone to bed. Zitha ends up having to drag his grumpy self back to bed with a promise to scold him in the morning...but his soft puppy look when he's tired usually makes it hard for them to follow through.

- Zitha and Levi will at times only speak in memes -- especially if Lucifer is around -- just to mess with the other demon brothers. Mammon, Belphie, and Beel (somewhat) are usually able to catch on but the rest are completely stumped on what the hell they're saying. Lucifer actually had to look up memes and their meanings and still has no idea what they're saying.

- Zitha has a silly habit of awkwardly laughing when being complimented by their f/os and hiding their face and making weird noises. Their f/os find it endearing even though some would never tell.

- Mamo and Sor fight A LOT. The two are always arguing and giving Zitha a headache. When they get too carried away that when they take drastic measures, drastic being they hide Sor's guns and Mamo's cigarettes and doesn't give them back until they make up. They have found that disciplining them like children is pretty effective.