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Soooo nobody is going to ask him about the BLOOD POOL?

Why? How? When? What?

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Regular co-star behavior ✌️

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I do kinda hate when people make liu mingyan a 'voice of reason' type charecter like no actually that lady wrote rpf noncon fanfiction about her brothers dead friend and the guy her brother was fistfighting daily for said dead friends corpse. She is as insane as the rest of them. Let her be deranged.

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At the last The Untamed fan meeting, the host asked them about their final scenes and their feelings.

I feel so emotional hearing them talk about the reluctance to leave it all behind, and then watching the behind-the-scenes footage 🥺💔

(Disclaimer: I transcribed and translated using a video editor and online translators; I’m not a Chinese speaker. Sorry if there are any mistakes.)

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WYB: Stop! I DO NOT act cute in front of XZ!!! 😤😡🤬😠 Also WYB:

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Lan Jingyi: [talking to Su She] Hanguang-Jun taught me to think before I act.

Lan Jingyi: So rest assured if I smack the shit out of you, I thought about it and am confident in my decision.

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xiao zhan - seeker weibo update

#肖战恢藏海笑#肖战恢藏海笑famous scene! He gets into the role in one second and becomes shy in the next~~~I can't tell if Xiao Zhan's sweat is from the heat or from shyness

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xiao zhan @ legend of zanghai fanmeet

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love that xie lian canonically gets jealous like he was so sullen and gloomy every time hua cheng brought up his special someone and he literally threw himself in front of hua cheng’s sweaty shirtless torso cause the idea of someone else seeing even an inch of his man half-naked had him stressed as hell ... i truly feel that xie lian is the possessive one cause while we all know hua cheng is protective and will hold a centuries-long grudge, i feel like he would never dare to lay claim to xl whereas xl is like mine mine mine, this ghost is mine!!! and if someone else touches him i'll throw up and dig a hole to die in!!

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thoughts about sam's jealousy of cas (and a lil on benny) in s8

(DISCLAIMER: NONE OF THIS IS SAID AS HATE ON ANYONE!! this isn't sam hate or dean hate or ANYONE hate. this is just my observations and thoughts on sam's jealousy in s8 because i think its fascinating)

in 8x23 in the church scene, sam says: "what happens when you've decided i cant be trusted again? who are you gonna turn to next time instead of me? another angel? another...? another vampire?" this dialogue is clearly referring to benny and cas. benny for obvious reasons, and cas largely cuz there just isn't another angel that it could be talking about. that dialogue also connects back to how a present thing in s8 from sam is his jealousy of dean's trust/care for benny and cas (with for cas it being more subtle).

sam hates benny because hes a vampire and because dean ended up befriending a vampire after the stuff with amy in s7, yes, but a Lot of that hatred stems from jealousy. dean keeps benny a secret from sam, dean runs off in the night without explanation to help benny, dean fights sam and that one hunter guy about the idea of benny hurting and killing people, and sends a fake SOS from amelia's phone to get sam off his ass so he can save benny. that level of dedicated and determined care for someone is largely something we've only see dean direct at sam up until now. sam is aware of this ofc, and he's alarmed. he's unnerved and frustrated. honestly his jealousy of benny to me feels a lot like a little sibling hating their older sibling's new partner because it means the older sibling is giving the partner more attention than the sibling. except in this case its a Lot worse because of sam and deans codependency, and because benny is also a monster. benny was also the one who was with dean the whole year i purgatory, whereas sam didn't do a singular thing to try and find out if dean was dead or alive. dean trusts benny over sam, and is willing to hurt sam if it means protecting benny. sam isn't used to that, and he hates benny for it.

so ok, that explains benny. but what about cas? well... sam is jealous of something kinda similar with destiel, dean's trust and care for cas. but, alongside that, deans ability to and inevitable willingness to forgive cas.

sam mentions in 8x23 dean deciding that he cant trust sam, but the only instances up until now that i can think of where dean just stops trusting sam is for a reason. in s5 he stops trusting sam because sam chose ruby over him and was manipulated into releasing lucifer. in s6 he doesn't trust soulless sam because he let dean be turned into a vampire. in s8 he loses trust in sam because sam didn't look for him in that entire year. (there is also s7 where dean full on admits he's having a hard time trusting anyone after cas' betrayal, but that's not a lack of trust in sam specifically and its not because of sam's actions so I'm not really counting that for this) these moments all even get tossed back at sam in 8x23 by dean when he lists off things that sam could talk about in confessional. to a degree i think dean listing those off was an older sibling being petty and listing off the sins of their young sibling to give them shit, but it feels like dean still feels a lingering bitterness at least over that stuff. and yea he has come to and will come to forgive sam, but those are still grievances being tossed back in sam's face.

meanwhile with cas, dean doesnt really do that... and sam knows it. sam was there in s6 when dean was angry and devastated over cas' betrayal in 6x20. he was there in s7 when dean was unable to trust anyone after said betrayal. he was the one whose skull was cracked open when cas broke the wall in his head. he was there when dean was mad at honeybee cas towards the end of s7. but he was also there when dean forgave cas in s7. and dean forgives cas... without throwing those grievances back at him later. dean forgives cas, moves on, and trusts him completely again. in s8 too we see this. dean is pissed and hurt when cas loses the angel tablet because it was lost cuz cas didn't trust dean. and dean forgives him. dean trusts cas again, and he moves on without grievances.

when sam loses deans trust, he has to earn it back with time, and his mistakes may get tossed back at him in moments of anger. when cas loses deans trust, he inevitably just gets it back "because it's cas". that's a forgiveness that sam sees come into play, but knows that he doesn't receive. that by itself would hurt. but that coming from the same season as the benny stuff?? from the same season where dean is holding onto anger and bitterness over sam not looking for him in purgatory?? to see cas forgiven for his betrayal so much quicker hurts like a bitch i bet. and so sam is jealous of that trust and forgiveness.

that's why in 8x22 when dean asks why he should let cas off the hook when for anyone else he'd stab them in the neck on principle, sam just tiredly says "because it's cas". its sam being sick of destiel's bullshit and knowing inevitably that dean will forgive cas, yes, but its also resignation and possibly some bitterness because all it takes for dean to forgive cas is just... being cas. cas will be forgiven and trusted completely again, and its because he's cas. meanwhile, sam has to earn it back. its a willingness to trust and forgive that sam doesn't have, that he cant and wont have, and it hurts.

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I have read fanfics that have left me in tears, both happy and sad, had me laughing my ass off, wanting to scream. Fanfics might be seen as weird and taboo (weirdly enough) but no one can say that some fics aren’t so well written it feels like you’re reading a best selling book!

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And in MXTX-related news, this is as sweet as it is incredibly cruel! Ow, my heart!

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I finished it!

I would read 50 extra chapters of wwx with the ducklings

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Poor ge.

A 🐢 commented on Liu HaiKuan's douyin asking, "da ge ~ have the two of them come to hang out with you?"

LHK replied with: "Spare me, I don't have any clothes left to wear 🙏🏻"

(because 🐢s keep asking him - “if bjyx is real… wear this color or that color”, and he ALWAYS does! ☺️) He’s so sweet 🥹💕

cr. https://x.com/justkayyy38/status/1825856443129512145?t=W-lRV7lYGZi7c0LFbTzgIA&s=19

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subscribing to a fic isn’t enough I need the author to blast a bat signal into the night sky whenever they update

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Lan Xichen: There are many paths to the same place. Trust me.

Nie Mingjue: Just so you know, you sound like a fortune cookie.

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"Write for yourself"

Brother, I literally have more than 2 million words sitting in my drafts folder instead of posted on AO3.

I write for myself. I post for community interaction.