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Rip Corey Monteith. Rip Finn Hudson. This is all just mind boggling for me and the glee fandom. We're all so speechless that just a picture of Corey tears us down. Fly high sweet angel

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Cory*

This is just a time where we all take a moment of silence about the tragic news that we have learned about.

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This isn’t a confession to any roleplayer, but, I just wanted to say RIP Cory Monteith. It’s hard, especially for the Glee fandom. Not only is Finn not going to be on Glee, but, we’ll never, ever see Cory Monteith again. It’s really upsetting, and as a Finn roleplayer, I find it hard to even reblog a photo of him, or even use a gif of him. I don’t know Cory personally, but, it’s heartbreaking knowing that he’s gone. Rest in Peace, Cory Monteith. We will always love you.

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You called her a freak and a sad clown hooker. You made her feel insignificant around your jock friends. Remember when Santana would tear Rachel apart and then you'd just laugh with her? That's not nice at all. It makes me sad because I /do/ believe you love her, I just don't think you showed it very well in the past.

Well sorry that I didn't like how she was changing her clothing choice, when I even though I did tell her that I liked how she dressed before. Even though I don't know how anyone else knew about that..as we were alone when that happened. Also I know that was stupid of me to do with the whole Santana thing but I have tried to make it up to her in other way as I wasn't ashamed to be with her and did support her in glee club. So I don't know why you think I made her feel insignificant with my jock friends. I know I had a few bad times, but I am pretty sure alot of relationships have those parts that aren't so great. And I have done my best to make up for all the bad things I did.

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Glad I don't have any homework.

Cause I think I am going to head out for the weekend and have a fun time and just let lose.

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Journal Entry #5

Another oh so exciting week..college isn't that bad as I have been out doing a few things trying to have a fun time. I mean I am in college after all and I am suppose to have the time of my life seeing as most people have a good time when they are in college. But then there is this slight argument I got into with Rachel..I guess things are just going slightly downhill, I honestly don't know what is going on. I guess its a crime for me to want to be worried about her and wanting to make sure she isn't doing anything stupid.

But then again I am not her boyfriend and she is allowed to do whatever she wants. I am just going to try to focus on myself now and just let her do what she wants and if she wants to do something stupid then so be it.  Even if I might be worried no matter what I say isn't going to matter anyways.

Until next time.

Finn Hudson

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1 Direction or The Wanted

The Wanted.

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You were mean to Rachel almost as much as Quinn and Santana were.

Well I am going to disagree with you on that.

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I wouldn't say I treated you so poorly.

Private

Then why did you treat me so poorly?

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Maybe you should just try to watch what you are doing and not just do something to please her. 

I guess then you didn't know how I really felt those two years, cause I did care about you alot and wanted to be with you. But you can't just put me as the bad guy those years as you have done something to hurt me our junior year while we were together. But again I guess you really didn't know me or how I felt about you those two years, seeing as you are assuming I didn't want you back when I had you. Or to think that I didn't love you back.

Private

School is important to me. I was trying to help Santana and it turned out to be a disaster. I wish I wouldn’t have done it, but it happened and there’s nothing I can do to change that. 

It’s not very fun when your boyfriend doesn’t defend you. I’m not angry or upset about it anymore. You redeemed yourself at the end of our junior year. But before that dating you was hard. I did it because I loved you and I desperately wanted you to love me back, but you didn’t reciprocate those feelings until much later. You didn’t even like me the first time we started to date. Sophomore year and even junior year it felt like the only time you ever wanted me was when I was with someone else. But when you had me you didn’t want me. 

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Do u think that you and Rachel will get back together after everything that jut happened? I just want you 2 to be happy and settled. ♥ p.s. sorry if im annoying with these questions, am just curious lol. :)

I think after time me and Rachel would hopefully get back together. I know we are getting into a rough patch right now but maybe over time things will get better between us. Or at least I hope they do. Also you aren't annoying me.

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Do u still love Rachel? I mean I know its not my business, but I love finchel ♡♥

No matter what I will always love Rachel, even if she may believe that I don't.

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I know what she wanted at the time. She was going to hold off going to NYADA and waited for when I was able to go. But clearly that didn't happen in the end. I know but I am sure its going to take some time for things to get better between me and her.

I am pretty sure Rachel knows how I feel but from what all I have tried it seems like she only wants to be friends with me..or she wants nothing to do with me.

Look when me and her talked she does want you to be happy and didn't want to hurt you. I know what she did probably hurt but maybe over time things will eventually get back together and be friends again. Cause if fate wants you guys together it will lead you two back to one another. Plus with how Santana is she can be pretty stubborn about a few things. But like I said before maybe a little bit of time can be good, I know it will be hard cause I was hurt when I lost Rachel and I know things weren't great on Rachel's side with what I did. I am sure you were enough for her as I think you were the one person that made her happy but I think it was the distance that was getting to her and that she just wanted you to have a great high school experience.

Private Convo || Fritters

Putting Rachel first wasn’t stupid. I think you’ve totally messed up like a lot, but that time wasn’t one of them… but maybe you should have asked what she wanted, because if you did, what if she told you she wanted to be with you and have her dreams too? I think, if you try hard enough and you’re willing to make it work no matter what, anything is possible.

Have you tried telling Rachel how you feel now? Maybe if you told her, you wouldn’t be so sad all the time either.

You say Santana just wants me happy, but right now, all I feel is sad. Like a sad panda who lost her best friend and most important person in her life in the jungle and now she’s lost and confused and doesn’t know how to find her way back home. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that she’s happy, but I just wish I was enough for her. She was always enough for me. 

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What's your major?

I'm majoring in education.

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I know you aren't any of those things, look thats how I feel when it comes to Rachel but I was stupid for what I did especially when I tried to put her first and what I thought was right. Look from what I know Santana just wants you to be happy. I know you both were happy when you were with one another, and maybe being separate for a little bit can help the two of you focus on school, you with high school and her with college.

Private Convo || Fritters

You don’t get it. 

I want her… We’re better together, and no matter how hard that might be, I still only want her. It’s what I’ve always wanted since I first met her. I’m not confused, or stupid, or any of those other things people always say about me. I’m sure, but I guess she’s not so… How is that a good thing? 

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Look I know that she cares about you, and maybe what she did is a good thing and can help the both of you figure out what you both really want.

Private Convo || Fritters

Oh. 

I guess she’s talking to everyone except me about stuff then.