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I find my self checking this app several times in an hour, just to see those few words from you. Which is not helping me at all and honesty these last three days have been completely terrible. I miss you so fucking much. And you and I reading eachothers words doesn't help either (if you read them). I'm hopefully not going to contact you because I know you have to do what you have to do. And I don't want to interrupt but I really want too 😂, I miss you so bad. I've had like dreams where I'm serving and out of no where you come in an I literally drop my tray and I run to you and kiss you. Which me being on the app isn't helping me get over you, which I don't want to happen but you might not want to be with me anymore when you come to your conclusion so I have to try. Where I'm going with is, I'm not going to post anymore and I'm going to hold myself to read your tumblr and check it once a day at night. I love you and miss you a lot, plz don't hesitate to tell me your choice ( even if it's not in my favor). Hopefully the next time I talk to you we are together in eachothers arms, but if we aren't and you are in another persons arms, I understand and I would wish you the best. I love you Amanda.

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Everything seems so dull and motionless.

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Man I Miss You, Like Badly

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This Bitch Weird AF

I love how you made your own conversation in your head (a little creepy but I miss you to the point I might do the same).

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Awkward

This is the only word I can use to really explain this situation. I know that you are with Kevin right now, and that you guys are staying together up there. At first when I found this out I was kinda butt hurt. But I waited and thought about my thoughts. And I came to a conclusion. Maybe you should be doing this. Maybe it should help clear your mind more, do you wanna go to your ex or go to me. And for me to come to that conclusion makes me swallow a lot of my pride. Because I feel like if I ever saw any guy kiss you, I would want to kill them( I even get kinda angry typing this small part).But this is probably something you have to do, to find out. This is quite a "awkward" situation, but I know it's for the best. There is no one else I want to be in a car with and sing to the top of my lungs. There is no one I want to go on stupid adventures with. There is no one I want to have a million inside jokes with. There is no one that I've ever met that I can have hours long conversation with and not have to try. There is no one as perfectly "awkward" as you and I, and I think that word fits perfect for us. And I hope soon we can do all of these Again or just be together and do nothing because "I'd rather do nothing with you, than do something else with anyone else".

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Pretty sure this was your favorite thing on me, I really don't remember.

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Music Again

What the fuck I truly do believe things happen for a reason, because now my music is working. After I listen to a lot of songs that remind me of you/ that we use to sing together. Because if I didn’t listen to all that music. I wouldn’t have been posting on this blog. Because until your mind is made up, I didn't want to post anything but I have too ( I miss you too much).

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Cute Sloth

I really want your legs wrapped around my waist and your arms wrapped around my body, and have your head rest on my shoulder. It reminds me of a sloth, but I love when you use to do that.

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Music

When I was driving to work my phone stopped playing music and I had to turn to the radio. The song closer came on and all I could think about was you. And when I went to work all the songs there are old love songs and then Alex was KP and played music and he just put on the radio. And so many love songs came on. I was really distracted and then finally when I got in my car I turned on the radio and shape of you was on. And I don't know why but I played the song all the way through and sang to it. Then I turned to another station and it was playing again. Once I got into my drive way I was really sad. I didn't cry but tears did come to my eyes. And I really miss singing with you. I was also in my new study hall and I love the teacher. Her and I played soul music and song soul music annoying the rest of the class. But all I could think about was you because of the genre.

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Thing Happen for a Reason

For this title I could talk for so many years that we would both be long gone. I believe there is a reason for everything. But for today we didn't know what we were doing and we found the one restaurant we jokingly wanted to go too. And I really believe that we were suppose to go there, we had a great time tonight and there's a reason for it. We both don't know it but soon we will. I love you and I feel like things are looking up, and I hope there's a reason for that.

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FOOD

I love/hate it when you're hungry because you do become a different person 😂. After you eat, you’re a more energetic, fun, jokingly and loving Amanda. Not that you aren’t that way before food, food just brings it out more.

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Hearing About the Good

You don't know how happy it makes me to know that your first day went great. I know we joke about you complaining a lot, but I wouldn't want you to complain to anyone else but me. ❤️

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The Hand Drawing

Ever since you told me that you drew a picture of us driving in the car with my hand over your thigh, I've been trying to recreate that picture in my mind until I saw it. When we were together I was putting my hand over your thigh and having your hand under my hand, I was trying to recreate it but I knew I couldn't. I don't know why 😂

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Talking about sex and stuff, out of no where "Do you like Sorbet" 😂😂😂❤️

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Blogging

This is my first time ever blogging and I honestly don't know how to do this. But I want to show you what you mean to me. Now I know I'm not going to be good at this. So don't think I don't like you because my posts are going to be terrible compared to yours. But I love you and I hope you enjoy 😊