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I just don’t get it. I don’t understand other people. im starting to see that everything is an aesthetic. even things that shouldn’t be like emotion, vulnerability, and authenticity. it’s by definition absurd. no one is interested in creating connections that link heart to heart. but they’re infatuated with appearing like they are or already have that. im serious I don’t get it. I don’t feel like I have anything in common with any of yall. even when we like the same things we don’t like them the same. and I don’t mean that as in we like the same things differently, I say that to mean when I like something, I pay attention to it and understand it over time and I give it a chance and if I like it today I’ll only like it more tomorrow. but I see other people only like things for a moment. and I just don’t know if I’d consider that liking something. it’s more taking the benefit of affiliation to feed your image. im sorry im sure a lot of you have your reasons but i just find that incredibly shallow. it’s like yall aren’t even real people, yall are just like those paintings that aren’t really paintings, they’re just splattered paint. how does anyone justify a lifetime of that? even jackson pollock only made those paintings for a short time. much more of his life was spent making actual paintings with depth and detail and form. it’s always the most formless people that make intricate and complex individuals out to be ghosts.

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I love art and the things that people make and the level at which things are made and the diversity of things made and all of the perspective that comes from that, but honestly at this point I feel kind of numb to all of it. nothing that’s been made recently has captivated me to a point of obsession. I don’t feel like any of the recent art comes from a place of “look at this time period and the effects it had on me and what that meant for my life.” It feels like everything is coming from a place of “look how cool I am.” And I think that’s sad. I don’t connect with that much at all. everything feels like a bundled up dopamine trap. and I just feel like my dopamine has a reached a point that I don’t feel a spike any more. all of my favorite albums didn’t do anything for my dopamine, but did everything for my emotions and my perplexity as a human being. I want that feeling back. if you’re making something, please focus on that. you don’t have to show people how cool you are, show them how deeply you feel and how deeply you’ve been effected. and not just in the words said but the nonspoken areas of the art too, the music the visuals, the clothes you wear or make. say something without actually saying anything. im trying to do that myself.

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I know ytmp3 hates to see me coming

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i got this thing im working on and its cool cause i feel like i just wanna get off work and come back and work on it everyday. like when i was a kid and couldn’t wait to get home to play playstation. ive been seeing the world in a really neutrally chaotic perspective lately. having so much genuine fun.

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I guess I shouldn’t be worried about ruining chances I never had.

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largely, I just think I wasn’t really meant to be here. my parents had me several years after their divorce, all this was an accident. I was just a thought someone accidentally said out loud. I don’t belong here.

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when it’s me, yall tell me not to take it personal. but when you’re taking it personal, if I ain’t there for you, then I just wronged you.

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I hate being a man bro. can’t even be vulnerable with my friends without them getting defensive on me. if I tell you how you make me feel, it’s always because I want to remedy it, not because I want to accuse you. yall gotta chill on me man. I told yall I loved you.

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I hate it when people don’t get it. or rather refuse to get it. even when it’s not my stuff. everyone’s desire to hate and be different is stopping them from being able to enjoy good works. yall gotta knock that off. we could really all be outside together enjoying this beautiful experience. it’s ok to cry and feel and connect and obsess and fan out. it’s also really fun.