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It was my first day of college and i never felt more out of place, the fake smile was on my face the whole time. First few hours i just sat and interacted with noone and honestly if the presentation lasted a second longer i would've either slept or cried my eyes out. Then i go to the class. There I did talk to 4 girls , they were all sweet , but ofc we weren't bffs in 2 seconds. Soon after the college was when i started feeling like TOTAL SHIT , i was waiting for my dad to come pick me up (it took him 45 fucking minutes) and i saw so many friends group chatting around and having fun conversations and I'm not used to being stood in a corner in my phone , I've always had a great friend's group in school and now shits totally opposite,but maybe I'm judging to soon , because afterall 3 hrs in college won't define my 3 whole years . It's just this weird feeling of being all alone and these extremely strict and fucked up college rules are really making me anxious and upset thinking about the future.

Oh darling wish I'd never grew up.

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Today was so stressful

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"I'm never gonna love again" is such a beautiful lyric because we never know what it truly means , will she never love someone again because this relationship broke her heart into inreparable pieces or will she always remain in love with the same person ? Either way her love towards that one person is seen to be very deep and pure .

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Midnight is for the this is me trying and the Archer girls

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the POTENTIAL for these songs….the fun early 20s midnights like in 22 of embracing the chaos of her youth….the midnights of new year’s eves when she realized she was with the love of her life…..the midnights of 2016 and 2017 when it felt like the world turned on her, and dealing with the mental anguish from that…waking up in the middle of the night after losing AOTY and deciding to go full pop for 1989…. the heartbreak of midnights when she just had to end the toxic on-again-off-again relationship of red, wondering if she just lost the love of her life…that interview she gave in 1989 where she said she wakes up smiling even in her sleep bc she was so used to being followed by paps, and feeling the scrutiny of the world on her shoulders…..the midnights you meet yourself and make life-changing decisions, like recovering from an eating disorder or fighting for control of her songwriting……

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Evermore is like a warm hug during the lowest of our times

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in light of the fact that midnights has resparked a fire on taylor swift tumblr, please reblog if you’re an active taylor swift blog because i’d love to get some more active blogs on my tl :) 

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After my grandmom got diagnosed with cancer , i was once listening to lover album and OH THE MOMENT SOON YOU'LL GET BETTER STARTED TO PLAY there was a flood of my tears

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what the inside of my brain looks like rn: Midnights Midnights Midnights Midnights

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everytime I have a fight with my mom i listen to breathe by @taylorswift

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college is starting soon and I've been so overwhelmed lately because none of my existing friends got in that college. I have no idea what the future holds for me , i have always believed that whatever happens is for the best , but recently I've been having a hard time trusting that quote . I just wish life would stop being so unpredictable and reach the climax real quick (first day of college ). This is a when new journey and i don't think I'm a big fan of change , but this is life and i have to accept it the way it is .

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these days I've been struggling to live life , everyday feels like a challenge , i have nothing to do , it's just me and my complex emotions . I feel unlovable and worthless. No matter how hard i work I'm always invalidated and not taken seriously. All my friends are busy with their own things , i don't know how long i can pretend to be happy anymore . I just wish life wasn't this way , i wish I had a busy schedule, i wish someone would come hold me. I wish I had that one person.

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I am just so sad and disappointed

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Hope it’s nice where you are… 🤍

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my grandmom is sick , she has some lung infection and I'm so worried about her , i hope she gets fine really soon

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i am in love with lyric where taylor says "friends don't look at each other like that" it resonates so much within me , i cannot express how much the song it's time to go has helped me . Because to leave toxicity is to be brave. There will me innumerable nights where u would wish that you could contact that one person who left u shattered but her music has helped me cope with my emotions in the best way possible.

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YOU'RE KILLING ME TAYLOR . IM SO EXCITED AMD PROUD AND HAPPY

Shot on 35mm film with cinematography by the brilliant Rina Yang. Plan your watch parties or grab your blanket and curl up into a ball. However you want to watch All Too Well The Short Film, it’ll be out tomorrow on YouTube at 7pm Eastern.

http://taylor.lnk.to/ATWshortfilm