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---- I'm fed up to be honest. The emotions I carry and express are never ideal for the people around me. I try to adjust them and that's no good, I stand firm in them and that's even worse.

When making efforts becomes futile yet againnn, what else is there to do besides attach and redirect. Redirecting yet again. I just want to get my way but maybe I'm not supposed to get my way. Sometimes we aren't meant to. Maybe there's a reason.

Just want to feel good again. And not good in the way that just feels like coping...actually good. Is drowning myself in the Ocean coping or a human duty?

Both?

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Sunday, August 3rd

Card 1: Knight of Cups "Expressions of the Heart"

We are at a place where it is time to take well thought, intentional action. If there is a situation that we are currently in that is not serving us, staying in it will only yield the same results. Sometimes we internalize something for the sake of the whole even if we are in a state of suffering. Is this sacrifice currently worth it? Try your best to express yourself in a way that is beneficial for everyone involved including yourself. "Making a bad decision is better than remaining paralyzed by fear of the consequences that will inevitably follow."

Card 2: Ace of Pentacles "Asking to receive new Air wisdom"

It's necessary at the moment to come from a place of humility and desire to learn, while also keeping our mind focused on the reality that we are aiming for. The Ace signifies that we are at the start of our mental journey and we are aiming for the wisdom that the King of Pentacles possesses. The Yellow Pentacle symbolizes illumination. We hold the key to the path to illumination in our own hands.

Card 3: Queen of Cups "Emotional Check In - Feelings about self and others"

"The Queen has observed all that has transpired." Now is the time to check in on the emotional side of the matter and seek the truth hidden yet lurking below. "Make sure you are not letting your EmOceans drown you." Observe your words, thoughts, actions and let those guide you to how you are truly feeling inside. Crack them open and explore. Allow yourself to feel them fully so that you can truly move through them instead of avoid.

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Foggy

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I know things aren’t very Fergalicious right now dude but hang in there

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From Film Daily, 1935.

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Emma Chamberlain by Petra Collins for CR Fashion Book Issue 22, ‘Mother Nature’ (2023)

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@j_adorable_shop on instagram

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Mishima: A Life in Four Chapters (1985)

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@sherrylephotography

5/22

Rogue Pier 39 Public House, Astoria Oregon, USA

Nice place to eat. At one time it use to be a tuna factory. It does have a little museum that was interesting too. Quaint spot to get a bite to eat and walk around.

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Lucy Liu

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Lacrima Notturna by Roberto Ferri

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<3

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