“I want my body to feel my body. I want my body to feel.”
— — Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore, from The Freezer Door
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cj. 31. gmt. they/them.
private, selective, low activity cartoon based rogue of the x-men!
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not me logging back in after 3 years because i was so emotionally devastated by the latest x-men 97 episode
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i still live.
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WHY DO YOU HUNT MONSTERS?
to make sure there's a difference between you and them.
there was a time when you wouldn't have had to ask that question. but that feels so long ago. the truth is that you're angry. the truth is that you want revenge. it's just that you know what will happen if you get it -- plus, what won't happen. what won't happen is things going back to normal: it's too late for you now. what will happen is that your loved ones will leave you. they will think you're too much. they will recoil from this hunger in you, this part of you that wants to leave scorched earth behind, the part of you that has lost everything. you can't get vengeance. you think about it anyway. always. a humming in the back of your head. an unasked question -- what if? you want blood but also don't. so you temper yourself. when you stare at the sun, sometimes you tilt your head up for just a second too long. or when you're washing your hands -- you crank the water up as hot as it'll go, until you can't hold your hands underneath anymore. you hunt monsters to make sure you aren't one. you need to know you're still one of the good guys. you need to know that all this self-control has a point to it.
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flashborn:
that makes a little more sense but at the same time, it doesn’t. barry has only ever met people that gained their powers from the particle accelerator explosion. that or… from another planet entirely, like kara. or a hero without powers, like oliver. it’s an interesting concept, though, that much is for sure. her powers activated at a certain age, rather than being given to her. she was always powerful, it just took a little while for them to manifest properly. “no,” he speaks softly, “no, i wasn’t. mine came from an accident that was, well, it wasn’t really an accident. it’s a really long story but the short of it is that no, i wasn’t born with them.”
the existence of mutants is still a secret, really. something hidden from the general public because they’re not ready to handle it yet. because xavier is trying to find the right way to announce it and nothing is yet coming of it. so they operate in secret. and now she’s seeing why cerebro hadn’t detected another mutant signature down here, cause the guy’s not a mutant. an accident, though, that she can believe. that happens all the time. look at hulk or spiderman. people are more accepting of the idea of toxic waste or nuclear accidents than they are of the idea they’re not the top of the evolutionary chain anymore. “ you fall into a vat of toxic waste or somethin’? ” she queries, but it’s obvious she’s teasing. “ happens all the time. ”
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bornice:
a nervous laugh escapes her lips , heart beating heavy in her chest as anxiety overwhelms her ――― anxiety over her powers , the fact that she still can’t get dinner without causing the next ice age , the nervous giggle she regretted immediately . still , it was kind of her to try and make her feel better , and despite herself she found that it truly was reassuring , in an odd sort of way , to know she wasn’t the only one who had caused problems around here , with or without powers .
her fingers curl in on themselves , and she finds that she is worrying the sleeve of her sweater between the pads of her digits , pulling at a loose thread there . but she is waiting for an answer , and elsa looks down at the frozen table , and the food that is getting colder by the second , and nods .
❛ o-okay . ❜ her words come out a little unsure , she wants to say yes , but she still feels so new around here ――― so VULNERABLE that the idea of hanging out with someone one to one is both exciting and terrifying . she picks up her plate , and a new set of cutlery , and steels herself to perform .
fear can only make things worse, she’s seen that a lot in kids that come through here. being scared of your powers is usually pretty detrimental. which sounds kind of hypocritical coming from her, but rogue feels like she gets a pass on this one. stealing lives from people, stealing their memories, their very souls- that’s scary. it’s dangerous. but aren’t most powers? elsa laughs, nervous, and rogue shrugs it off. it’s okay to be nervous, she reckons.
there’s a long pause, probably too long, as elsa considers the offer of going outside to eat and she doesn’t even sound sure of herself when she finally agrees, but she’s agreed. rogue smiles and nods, curling her own cutlery into one hand and her plate with the other.
“ let’s go. ” she heads for the door, nudging it open with her elbow and checking quickly for any potential collision courses (jamie loves to run around the halls and will catch you off guard if you’re not careful). she slips from the room, out towards the back, to the patio and the pool. she settles onto a bench. it’s cooler than she might have liked, but that’s her southern blood. she’ll take warm over cold any day. the sky is pink and orange over the bay, just like she’d thought. the sun gently lowering itself over the horizon.
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@decimater sent [ shield ] sender steps between receiver and danger
“ oh no you don’t, ” one hand reaches out to grasp the back of zeke’s shirt as he steps forward, as if she can’t see him angling to be in the way the second this all goes to hell in a handbasket- and it is about to go to hell in a handbasket. “ i appreciate the concern, but i can handle myself just find, sugah, ” she releases his collar and reaches for her drink the same way some people might reach for a gun. she throws it back in one and stands up from the stool. “ c’mon, let’s go teach our friends some manners. ” the friends in question were leaning over a booth in the back of the bar where a couple had been trying to have a date. the problem: the guy had a tail. an opening for mutant haters everywhere to try and put the fear of god into some folks. “ you comin’? ” she asks zeke as she strolls her way towards the scene. they want a scene? she’s going to make it one.
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Rogue, from X-Men: Evolution (2000).
Source: THE_saintart on Twitter.
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nonverbal meme prompts
↪ they seem few & far between, so i tried to come up with as many scenarios as i could think of where dialogue wasn’t a necessary starting point. some are more uh specific than others / drabble-y, but they’re all dialogue-free ( tho ofc this does not necessarily extend to the response itself ). to reverse who sends what, send ‘ [ prompt ]+ ’ ! alter any as you see fit, & lemme know if anything’s unclear ♡
[ pull ] sender pulls receiver closer to them
[ touch ] sender places their hand affectionately on receiver
[ guide ] sender helps receiver through a difficult video game
[ lean ] sender leans on receiver
[ pierce ] sender helps receiver with a new piercing ( doing, aftercare, etc )
[ sit ] sender sits in receiver’s lap
[ spar ] sender pins receiver down in a practice fight
[ cook ] sender makes food for receiver
[ slide ] sender pushes an item across the table to receiver
[ kiss ] sender kisses ( lips, cheek, forehead, hand, etc )
[ lead ] sender leads receiver someplace
[ wound ] sender injures muse in a fight ( practice or real )
[ snap ] sender takes a photo of receiver ( candid or posed )
[ drape ] sender drapes their arm around receiver’s shoulders
[ bullet ] sender takes a bullet for receiver ( literal or figurative )
[ nap ] sender falls asleep against receiver
[ teeth ] sender bears teeth at receiver
[ trace ] sender traces one of receiver’s scars
[ cocktail ] sender makes / gives receiver a cocktail
[ comfort ] sender comforts receiver when they are upset / crying
[ bouquet ] sender surprises receiver with a bouquet
[ massage ] sender gives receiver a massage ( planned, spontaneous, full body, shoulder, etc )
[ mentor ] sender takes muse under their wing
[ tattoo ] sender helps receiver with a new tattoo ( doing, aftercare, etc )
[ dare ] receiver acts out a dare from sender
[ hug ] sender pulls receiver into a hug
[ phone ] receiver sees sender smiling at something on their phone
[ popcorn ] sender makes popcorn for a movie night
[ wake ] sender tries to wake receiver
[ groom ] sender tries to make receiver look more presentable
[ flower ] sender places a flower behind receiver’s ear
[ sad ] sender looks at receiver sorrowfully
[ playlist ] sender curates a playlist
[ fashion show ] sender tries to help receiver choose an outfit
[ shield ] sender steps between receiver and danger
[ bandage ] sender helps bandage up receiver’s wounds
[ duel ] muses get into a fight
[ fear ] sender finds receiver having a nightmare
[ hold ] sender holds receiver’s hand
[ bruise ] sender finds receiver with a bruise / tries to help receiver cover up a bruise
[ brush ] sender brushes / styles / dyes receiver’s hair
[ portrait ] receiver paints a portrait of receiver
[ assist ] sender helps the receiver with a task they’re struggling in
[ wow ] sender does something to really amaze receiver
[ glare ] sender is still hurt after an argument
[ roast ] muses roast marshmallows together / make s’mores
[ shoot ] muses attend a game of paintball
[ diary ] receiver writes a journal entry about sender ( maybe they find it ? )
[ dance ] sender whisks receiver onto to ‘ dance floor ’ ( can be actual or pretend )
[ rest ] sender rests their chin on receiver’s head / shoulder
[ manicure ] sender paints receiver’s nails
[ tuck ] sender tucks in receiver’s shirt, hair behind ear, etc
[ chin ] sender lifts receiver’s chin up
[ lap ] sender puts their feet in receiver’s lap
[ write ] receiver writes sender a note
[ play ] muses play a board game / card game together
[ glance ] receiver catches sender looking at them
[ ill ] sender takes care of receiver when they are unwell
[ hearth ] sender lights a fire
[ tap ] sender taps receiver on the shoulder
[ bake ] muses bake together
[ read ] sender reads to receiver
[ study ] sender tries to help receiver study
[ push ] sender pushes receiver in anger
[ skill ] receiver tries to assist sender in learning a new skill
[ coated ] receiver finds sender covered in blood
[ gesture ] sender motions for receiver to follow them
[ downpour ] receiver finds sender out in the rain
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whenever rogue says she wants to give up on something and someone (usually logan) says ‘that’s not the rogue i know’ my heart grows like four sizes.
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tiderider:
harry would be the first to admit that he was no hero. he felt no inclination to sacrifice himself for some greater good or fanciful dream of a better world through kindness and compassion. the world was a cruel place, and the people in it always had the capacity for cruelty, harry would always have the capacity for cruelty. he had his moments. moments of softness and care, but those were things reserved only for a select few and yet, when he heard the unmistakable sound of gunfire : rather than run in the opposite direction, he ran towards it, pace quickened as the sound of gunfire was followed shortly by someone’s cry of pain.
harry skidded across the pavement as he found himself on the outskirts of the aftermath. four bodies unconscious on the ground, pavement cracked from a harsh impact and woman the only one still conscious. dress torn, expression stricken into one of pain, but talking. " sorry i missed all the fun. " harry said conversationally as he moved forward cautiously. he kicked one of the unconscious men as if to make sure he was in fact unconscious.
he usually made a point to avoid cops or really any members of authority, but she looked determined and if it meant getting a few friends of humanity off the street then he figured one phonecall wouldn’t hurt as long as he wasn’t expected to wait around to make any statements. he pulled his burner phone from his pocket and dialed the emergency number, " do you need an ambulance? " harry asked somewhat skeptically as he couldn’t see any obvious wounds. " you look a little banged up. "
the first few seconds after the transfer are the worst, where she struggles to remember her own name, or recognise that the thoughts aren’t hers. dirty muties. don’t belong with us normal folk. i’m a mutant and you’re gonna shut your mouth. it helps a little that the other voices, the usual suspects, are gonna help her suppress the hell out of this shit because most of them are mutants too and a lot of them don’t deal well with the bigotry. she becomes aware of herself quickly enough. her expression smooths out. she catches the man’s words as he walks towards her, carefully. she can’t blame him for that, she’d be careful too. “ plenty more roaches where they came from, sugar. ”
for all she knows, he could be on their side. he could hate mutants as much as the next person. but if he swings at her now, he’s gonna regret it. she doesn’t fear him. he could pull a gun and she’ll simply be tired. “ they attacked a kid, ” she adds, so that even if he hates mutants he’ll understand why they’re the ones on the ground now. and why she’s not the bad guy, despite being the last one standing in what looks to be a very unfair fight.
he queries whether she needs an ambulance and she laughs. “ nah, bullets and knives don’t exactly bother me. ” and she’s a pain to treat. an awful lot of medicine seems to come with a skin-to-skin contact risk that’s just too high for the likes of her. and usually when she knocks out a doctor, the rest are hesitant to treat her. “ but it looks like i gotta change. ” she picks at the holes in her dress.
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❛ are you okay ? ❜ elsa approaches the girl from behind , footsteps light on the rooftop . cautious as she is , the roof would not be her first choice of a place to hang out , but having seen the other disappear here when upset , she cannot help but follow .
remaining a customary few feet away from the girl , she pulls her skirt to the backs of her thighs and sits down beside her , hugging her knees to her chest , resting her cheek on their tops . talking about ones feelings is not an easy feat , she knows this well , but should rogue feel so inclined , she will listen .
she wonders if she caused a scene. she hadn’t meant to, but elsa’s presence here indicates that her absence had been notable enough for someone to come and find her. “ yeah, ” she answers, though her heart’s not really in it. lips purse slightly as a myriad of thoughts run through her head.
elsa sits down, a few feet away. an invisible barrier between them. it’s more prominent than ever. she picks at a fraying patch of thread on her jeans. “ i just couldn’t stick around. kitty ‘n’ jean- ” have dates, are preparing to go out for the evening. it’s more than anyone can handle. she respects the hell out of those boys for trying. “ and it’s not like i even wanna go to the dazzler concert, i don’t like crowds. but- still feels like i’m missin’ somethin’. ”
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LET ME ASSIGN YOU A LOVE LANGUAGE
a knife called grief
You have left your house, you have left those people behind, but what are you going to do about the memories which have taken root in you? You can run but not without them. You want someone to sit with you on this cool marble floor while the sun burns everything. You want them to cut your rotten heart and theirs too. You want to sit with it in front of you, let them see you with all your flaws, which haven’t been your fault but you have been made to believe so, and you want them to love you anyways. Because you know you’d do that for them.
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Date meme.
Date with Rogue.
Date Fee: $23.83
Customer Comments: "I think… I've fallen in love♡ (Male in 30s)"
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i think it would be very cool of disney to put x-men evolution on uk disney plus. for me, as a birthday treat. pls.
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belovedstars:
@tchstrved sent: “ i think i forgot what human contact felt like. ”
( touch-starved )
he smiles softly at the girl, her hand in his. he runs his thumb over the back of it, gently, kindly. it’s a small gesture, but it’s something he’s happy to be able to give. “i’m afraid i can’t quite give you that, but i hope a synthezoid’s touch can suffice.”
her body sure as hell doesn’t seem to mind that his hands aren’t flesh, his thumb easing over the back of her bare hand and the tension that tightens in her chest ebbs quickly when nothing happens, no pain, no coma, no memories or voices that aren’t hers (more so than usual). “ i didn’t mean- ” well, she hadn’t thought that he might take umbrage at being referred to as human. for her ‘human’ is a bracket that involves anything from walking tech to giant monsters, so long as there’s a person inside of there. “ it’s more’n enough, thank ya. ”
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