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M ghosted me

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okay but we need a story time on how u got M's number pls and ty in advance <3

It wasn't easy lol. It took alot of emailing (about a year and a half in time) . Basically we had an email chain that had like 40 emails in it (paragraphs but mostly casual conversation) I didn't hear back from him for a long time after my last email which I sent in may. Eventually in September he finally emailed me back to say happy birthday, I replied with thank you and asked a couple of casual questions. Then soon after he finally emailed me saying that emailing has been difficult and that I should just message him through his number. Which he had sent a couple emails back for a reference when I was applying for jobs. It's been weird (but not bad?) But I feel like he's gonna abandon me tbh :/

there's no like "tutorial" on how to get your teachers number, but with enough time if you two build trust with each other it allows for possibilities like that to be way more likely, but at the end of the day it has to be a mutual desire to stay connected.

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I ghosted this blog for a whilleee

Anywaysssss I have M's number now..

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Imagine: you and your tc sneaking out of prom to go make out in a broom closet and all that can be heard is linger by the cranberries playing all the way from the auditorium and your deep breaths in between kisses.

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I don't want him to forget me.

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Listen I KNOW I'm gonna see m again now, I think I got the job for summer school program. It's been over a year now since I've seen him. We have about 40 emails together since about august of last year

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My ta brought up m wanting me to babysit for him againnnnnn god fuck

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this whole situation with m is making me wanna rip my head off. Like are we just gonna email casually forever?? I don't understand, I'm gonna have to come face to face with him at some point again..

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holy fuck I forgot abt this

I feel like the last post needed more context so like heres the actual story

There was more people then usual in the classroom so it was a bit loud

There was a bunch of kids in there because we were doing this registration thingy. None of the other kids were paying attention and my counselor was really struggling to get them to shut up. Since I was listening and actually knew what to do I went ahead and filled the info out. When I was done every one was still not paying attention so i kinda just blurted out "I'm done" and nobody heard me except m and then that's when he stared at me for a couple seconds and smirked. 😭😤

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and i’m dizzy with the excitement of it and torn by the guilt i feel

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on a daily basis I relate to the song how bizarre on a new level

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30 emails deep since I graduated and I still can't recognize that he favors me

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So, to make a long story short I'm babysitting my TA's elderley mom. I didn't really talk about my TA much on this blog because I never really had a story about m where she was primarily involved. She usually helped him out with running things to the office and what not and Shes really cool. Remember also that I graduated last year and that I'm lucky enough to keep in contact with m and my ta. So you're probably asking yourself "why am I still reading this why does any of this even matter?" Well because today is my first day babysitting for her and she said that she told m about it. Apparently M said that he would consider having me babysit for him??????!!!!!!!! (He has a kid and another one on the way) I don't know if maybe he just said this in a joking context but my ta didn't make it seem that way she made it sound like he was being serious. so that's the point of this whole post bye

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Valentine’s day is NOT a day for lovers, couples, or people in relationships. Valentine’s day is exclusively for elementary school students who each buy their entire class cute little cards with cartoon characters on them, messily scrawl their classmates names there as an act of love, and give them a tiny little candy packet.

that is the height of the holiday.

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Jk I overshot and was completely overthinking it

I haven't posted in so long but omgomgomgomg I think I might be video calling m. I will lyk

We've been emailing each other for months so to actually think I might hear his voice and face I'm literally screaming rn

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I haven't posted in so long but omgomgomgomg I think I might be video calling m. I will lyk

We've been emailing each other for months so to actually think I might hear his voice and face I'm literally screaming rn