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A quick summary of the last 16 months

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last week i was chatting with one of my coworkers about the restaurants in the area and he mentioned there's a place with amazing churros that he orders lunch from sometimes and i kinda laughed and said i've never had a churro but i've always wanted to try one because they look so fantastically decadent and i kinda joked that it's on my bucket list because every time i walk by a place that sells churros i think i should buy one but then i don't

i just came back to my desk after feeling really frustrated by an instrument in the lab that broke and ruined my data for the day, and found a churro wrapped in tinfoil with a sticky note on it that said "bucket list: ☑️ churro" and i'm

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truly wild how driving really does become like piloting a mech after a while. like it sounds so car-bro-y but the car genuinely does become like an extension of your body. your muscles are simply making the correct micro-movements to perfectly manouvre a giant piece of machinery through a constantly moving maze while your brain is busy singing karaoke. you can physically feel when a gap is too small for your car-sona to fit through, like a cat putting its whiskers into a crevice. your brain is suddenly able to do on-the-fly s=d/t calculations in a milisecond and tell you exactly how quickly you need to move to avoid an oncoming vehicle while turning across the road. why does driving unlock the unused 89% of my brain

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drawing people i see in the city (62/?)

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the other night i tried to make a curry and i got chilli burns all over my face, so i thought to myself ‘hang on, doesn’t milk soothe chilli burns? it does’ and i couldn’t google because i couldn’t see so i just had to blindly feel my way to the fridge and pour out a bowl of milk, and then plant my face in the bowl of milk, anyway at that point the rice cooker went off and triggered a power surge which turned my electricity off, which i didn’t notice at first because i had my face in a bowl of milk and when i did emerge from the dairy prison i thought i had gone blind with chilli burns. so no i don’t really cook much.

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You ever hear that old chestnut about how most people neglect the part of the story of Icarus where he also had to avoid flying too low, lest the spray of the sea soak his feathers and cause him to fall and drown? You ever think about how different the world would be if Icarus died that way instead? If the idiom was to Fly To Close To The Sea? A warning against playing it far too safe, about not stretching your wings and soaring properly? You ever think about how Icarus died because he was happy?

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A fun thing about fiction with large casts of characters is that sometimes you'll have a Spicy Bananas moment where every single character has an identical yet wildly atypical experience of some very mundane thing, and slowly you realise that the author isn't Making A Point, they just think that's normal.

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He’s watching it on YouTube Kids.

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Two seemingly contradictory beliefs that we actually must strive to hold simultaneously:

You don't owe anyone anything

Meaning: you do not have to make yourself suffer for the convenience of others

We owe each other everything

Meaning: we could not survive without each other and everything we do to help another is crucial to ensuring our own continued survival

You don't need to be a doormat, but also don't get comfortable slamming the door when you have the resources to extend a hand instead.

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Honestly I don't think you should need a diagnosis of anything to get HRT. I think you should just be able to go buy it at CVS like it's ibuprofen.

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The United States — ALL of it

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Facts about your body after you turn 25, AKA things I wish someone had told me:

you will get hair in fun new places. this is normal and fine.

these places include (but are not limited to) if you don't already have them: your asscrack, your back, your ears, and moles. it's fine.

some of you, dick or not, will also lose hair. this is normal, but also if you have ovaries maybe get this checked out for PCOS.

your acne will probably change. some people get better. some people get worse. it's fine.

your nails will probably get an infection or a fungus at least once in your life. this is fine. (but also let your doc know).

how you gain and lose fat and where you do so will change. this is fine.

how you smell will change. this is fine. (fishy or rotten smells mean doctor time though)

if you have a prostate: it gets harder to pee. prostates enlarge as you age (get this checked regularly). this is fine.

if you do not have a prostate: it gets easier to pee but not in a good way. as in as you get older, your pelvic floor muscles tend to lose some of their strength. this makes it harder to keep pee in. this is fine.

all breasts and pectorals eventually sag, with the rest of your body. this is fine.

a decent percent of the population will experience a cyst at least once. some of you will make up for the rest with multiple. this is fine, but keep them checked out by a doctor. (sometimes this is a condition! get checked for that too!)

almost half of everyone gets hemorrhoids. it's a good idea to just expect them since your chances of getting them get higher the older you are. your toilet will look like a murder scene. definitely get your booty checked out BUT this is almost always perfectly normal. just eat more fiber. "but I already-" eat more fiber. and maybe suck it up and buy some hemorrhoid cream, you'll thank me later.

yes, this means you will probably need to make an appointment for a doctor to see your butthole. it's okay. not only do they really not care but 1. they've seen weirder that day and 2. they'd far rather you see them now than later when it's been going on for forty years and now it might be colon cancer. it's okay. consider it a rite of passage.

adults need more sleep than children. don't believe the myth that you need less than they do. that is capitalist propaganda to make you give up more of your life to the work grind, comrade.

vitamins and medicine, something you are more likely to take as you get older, sometimes make the toilet turn weird colors. it's okay.

if you still have your tonsils and get those little stones and get sore throats more than once a year you should plan on getting those suckers out before the tonsils cause an infection and go septic. if you're getting stones at all you should get those reevaluated every year, especially if the stones are bigger than a needlehead (or get bigger over time). it's gross and yucky. I don't care. get them looked at before you end up in the hospital.

you'll probably need to add foot support to your shoes if you don't already do. this is fine.

your body changes. sometimes it can feel sorta weird and upsetting that it isn't what it used to be. that is okay, and it is okay to be upset. just know that this is normal, it's normal to be upset or not upset, but don't let it hinder your quality of life. trans or cis, there is a certain level of acceptance you just gotta give your body and forgive your body for as you get older. it's okay.

it's okay. I promise.

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Happy 5th Birthday to

“Ethan Finally Becomes a MAN”

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Obsidian Guide #1. Appearances and Themes

One of Obsidian's strengths is how customizable it is (which can also be a weakness, if you're indecisive like me ROFL). Obsidian's community is resplendent with theme-makers making things that completely change the feel of the program. So, if you're looking to make this program yours, here's the way to do it.

Go to your vault's settings. You can access it by pushing the gear button at the bottom left corner of the program, to the right of the vault's name.

2. Go to the appearance tab. This is fourth option on the left-hand side of the menu screen.

3. This will bring you to a screen with a load of options. On this screen, you can change the accent color (that is, the purple highlight and occasional buttons), as well as the fonts, font-spacing, and a few interface changes such as show/hiding the ribbon, the title of file names and the zoom level of the program. You can fiddle around with these if you'd like, but the real bread and butter comes from the CSS Snippets (found at the bottom of this panel) and the Themes. Let's focus on the themes for now. Click the button that says "manage" under the themes header. This should be the third option down, right after the accent color selection.

4. This will bring you here:

This is easiest way to find themes created by the community. All of them have to be approved by Obsidian staff to show here. There are two ways to change how you browse here.

1. The filter button - this only filters out themes by title, so it's helpful if you're looking for something specific, but as you can see, most themes have names that aren't exactly descriptive of their features. So, I mostly just scroll.

2. The Sort button - This lets you change the order in which you see themes. You can sort by alphabetically, most recently released, and most downloaded.

Scroll until you find one that seems interesting! When you do, click the theme's icon, which will open it's full description. Then you just need to hit "Install and Use" right underneath the meta information for the theme.

Once you hit install, it should automatically turn on! If you don't wind up liking it, you can either repeat the process above and find another theme to try (freshly installed themes will be automatically swapped to over the previous theme) OR go back to the theme's page through the theme manager and hit uninstall, which either is replacing the install and use button if it's the active theme or is to the right of the "Use This Theme" button (which has replaced the "Install and Use" one).

Now, you may get to your theme and go "huh, that's all? I thought it looked much cooler in the preview." Well my dear friend, that is because the theme-developers are likely counting on you having a certain plug-in installed, which opens up the world of customization for themes.

This plug-in is called "Style Settings" and it can be found under the community plug-ins. This is the last option before the core-plugin choices in the options menu. When you click it, you might get a screen that says that you are currently in restricted mode. It gives some details about how plug-ins are monitored. I haven't heard of this failing *yet* but as they say, never say never. There's a risk with anything you grab from the internet.

If you want to proceed, hit turn on community plug-ins. At any point, you can turn them off and re-enter restricted mode on this screen. Now, you just want to hit the browse button, which is just below the "turn on and reload" (restricted mode) button. You'll come upon a screen very similar to the themes browser. From here, you just want to type in "Style Settings" in the filter bar, click the plug-in that says Style Settings, and then click Install. Once it has installed, you then need to manually enable it (unlike themes, which are enabled upon installation)

There will now be a third option on the main settings page (where we went to after step two.) It should look something like this now:

Clicking into Style Settings, you should hopefully see some further customization options under the theme you have installed. You might need to click the themes name in this page to get it to open. Not all themes have Style Settings and not all themes have the *same* Style Settings, but it's handy to have in mind! Not all themes denote that they have Style Settings available, so it's nice to just double check after installation so you can get the peak experience.

You are now free to go fourth and style up your Obsidian. I haven't touched on css-snippets, because they're slightly (maybe like 0.5%) more involved if you are using someone else's, but that will come in the future.

If you still can't find any theme that fits your liking out of the current 366~ then you can try your hand at creating your own theme! Obsidian has released some documentation to aid in theme creation, which is a great jumping off point!

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