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small depressive rant read at own risk

Why cant I understand how to act

I either am too brash, too harsh in the eyes of socitey

Or nothing at all

I have lived the lives of the hermit and the hated

Neither on purpose or by my own thoughts rationalized

For all I could think of is my mother

Who told me to get outside

All i could think of is my promise

To not be pushed down again

Of my calling

To learn as much as i can

I can not stay silent

But when I talk I am not heard

I can not bow down

But when submissive

forgotten

thrown out of the herd

I know im not the victum

But its hard when you cant hear their side

When all that is left around you

Is you yourself your mind

I can pertend to be happy

But it never leads to friends

I can show my depression and anger

But all it does is turn sour and end

I try so hard to be understanding

I know someone out theirs like me

But its hard knowing even you’d turn your face away

By the end of a overwelming day

So why dont I know how to talk

How to communicate with these people called my peers

Why cant i show them how I feel

Without being selfish knowing that they will squeal

But  twisted light is a spot light after all

“You seem like your acting anit social”

Maybe because im blocked out

“Your classmates say your weird and emotional”

I wonder why when everythings shouted to be taken with so much doubt

I wonder if they put themseves in my shoes

In the phone calls back to my mother saying im fine

To the docters vists asking how much do you cry

At my room where I pile the games given by my grandma to play with my friends

When I come back to scilence and wonder when it will end

In my mornings when I walk alone pertending im not

To the meals in my fridge i made to share

At the lowest point of my day when i hide my tears

When I finally work the courage to put my phone away

Because without your knowledge of these moments

Of the emotions and panic and desperation

You dont understand why I tag along behind you

Or take pictures to assure my mother im ok

Or listen to your conversation because I want to be able to help

Or talk about class because its the only thing I have

The only thing i have earned

Yes I pretend

Yes I judge

Yes I have no clue what im doing from the moment I wake up

But im breathing

And thats enough

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Accidentally negitivly asociated my blog with anxiety - switiching to a new account

I am my own first follower

I am @howeamimusical

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Spolier this is the first time I have been on since early July

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Have this queued in case it dont work the first time :p

It worked and I reposted but this is such a blessing im doing it again

Everyone who reblogs this will get a picture of Tom Holland in their inbox

(have submissions open)

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reblog this if you want a LONG (or short) anonymous message saying what they think of you.

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Stephen ❤️

Stephen became my best friend my sophomore year of high school. He doesn’t talk much, because he can’t. But he can say things like “E.” For em or “pawpaw” he can also make sounds. One of those sounds happens to be this psst sound and he only does that when Spider-Man shoots his webs.

Stephen loves Spider-Man probably more than he loves me. And I wanted to do this nice thing for him and try to get Toms attention so he could maybe come see him one day. And then this girl sent me not so nice messages about it. So here we are.

Anyways Stephen starting liking Spider-Man because of me. I’ve always been a big fan and it just rubbed off on him. Literally that’s all he ever wants to watch. Lol. One day when we were in class I came visit him and we watched it on my phone and that is what created this Spider-Man monster 😂. Stephen knows who Tom is because every time he sees a pic of him on my phone he goes wild. Especially when he’s in the Spider-Man suit.

To be clear it’s a really big deal that Stephen can make that Spider-Man sound. I nearly jumped outta my seat when I heard it for the first time. He’s a great kid. I love him. And I know you guys will too.

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PSA

If you think that people with disabilities don’t deserve to meet their idols, kindly unfollow me and block me bc you’re a sick person 🤗

If I knew your handle I’d tag you but @ cece I hope you never meet tom, you’re a horrible person, bye ✋🏻

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Will read this later but think its good? Its 1 am im sqeuadulling this

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I have a lot of teenage friends/mutuals who are “mature” and cool and whatever, but the bottom line is, unless you’re helping them with gender, sexual orientation, mental illness, abuse, etc. you shouldn’t be having conversations with a minor that you wouldn’t have in front of their parents.

The internet is weird. Some of my favourite artists on here are, like, sixteen. Teenagers are talented! They’re funny! They’re cool! They’re people.

But they’re also kids, and you have to respect and understand that, because ultimately, any friendship you have with a minor is also a responsibility, and if the fact that y'all both like the same cartoons is enough to make you “forget” that, or enough to make you “overlook” that, it isn’t a responsibility you’re ready for.

The only reason you should ever be in a kid’s life as an adult is because you’re prepared to be the kind of adult you needed at their age. That’s it.

If the relationship gets more intimate than “older sibling”, you’re being gross. If you’re saying anything to them that could be taken as a sexual advance or as emotional abuse “out of context”, you’re objectively being gross! If you’re relying on a kid to be your best friend in the same way a fellow adult would, your probably being, you guessed it, super gross. Full stop.

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@miyajimosachi

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I was a “hallucinating-footsteps-of-crowds-and-hands-of-monsters-coming-to-kill-me” kind of kid

Were you a monster-under-the-bed, monster-in-the-closet, or humans-are-the-true-monsters kid

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But i do this already

When will my body reflect the adulthood avoiding crow I am on the inside

adulthood is a scam i want to be a crow

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Op literally destroyed my life